♥ SUNSHINE

sunflower. how nice would it be if someone were to out of th blue get my a stalk of sunflower! (:

okay, that was kinda random. cos suddenly thought of this blurry scene whereby this stalk of sunflower just "boom" out. alright overall, today was a mixed of emotions actually. started th day with a so-so kinda mood, whereby a part of me was still thinking abt what happened th previous night. then came lec times whereby for th first tym i felt super stone. lyk mind was some sort racing thru lots of stuff and all. then came lunch whereby i didn't have much appetite, so gave it a miss.

met E for awhile to pass him th choc biscuit. & what E txt-ed me after tht sorta lighten-ed up my day i suppose (: then was dfund lab test. not too bad. manageable. then off to chomps wit J, melissa, shanice, wilson, marcus & bryan. and guess what, th girls lyk ordered so much more as compared to th guys la. ohmy. HAHA. we were all so full after eating for 1.5hours and thus decided to just go walk arnd. home-ed while th rest headed to kovan.

ohwells, mood was lyk roller-coaster today. but E and th grp plus kelvin made my day though! (: really thank God for such great bunch of friends who of whatever means stay even though they might not knw exactly what's going on- problems and stuff. it meant more to me, for you guys to just be thr. seriously, and i mean it.

PS; kelvin li is super cute!;

S: ty for your 永远一百巴仙!!!! :D

K: WELCOME!!! 100%%%%%%%%%%

S: hahaha. it'll come back soon!

K: I DEMAND IT NOW!

ohman, i can't help it but to say again, KELVIN; 愛死你了 !!!! ♥

sher seriously feels lyk shit right now; and F is how sher is feeling currently.
she feels lyk just running out of th place she's living in right now,
and letting them feel so worried,
abt what is going to happen to me out thr late at night alone.
they shld just be thankful tht i even bothered to go home though it's past midnight.
who would lyk to go back home so early but all i hear is just quarrels everywhr?
who would lyk to go back to a place whereby thr's endless shouting & comparison?
i just do not understand, why why why and more whys.
all i do when i'm at home, is shut myself inside my room doind my own stuff;
would they really just prefer me shutting myself in my room.
think all they want to see is me at home and stuff.
but i seriously don't see a point; it doesn't really makes a difference.
i tried to communicate, i really did put in th effort;
i tried to spend more tym wit you all ;
but all you care is abt bro ; at least tht's what you portray.
ohman. this feeling sucks big time. i need to cry.

♥ HOMEY!

homey day for me today. overslept, so didn't go church today. realise a whole lot of ppl call-ed be at lyk 8plus in th morning, most probably wake-up calls, but apparently i've got no idea how i slept throughout th entire pools of phonecalls. prolly i was really tht tired. lyk seriously.

anyways, i sort of lyk tht weather just now. lyk big heavy rain, while th sky is still bright with th sunlight! though it is usually this kinda rain tht make ppl fall sick and all. th scene was very nice! cos my study desk is located just directly in front of th window. i look-ed up and th beautiful scene just makes me capture a mind-shot of it! it was just beautiful. really.

ohman, today throughout th day i was lyk having random thoughts. bro told me tht i was a changed person. lyk th change in my attitude. idk if it's a good sign or a bad sign. i hope it's to th better. i think i need to re-connect wit my dad again. th tension is building up. it's lyk, a short conversation will set both of us up on heat/fire. no matter how simple th conversation might be. idk if he's picking on me or what. but i admit tht sometyms it's my fault to be giving such attitudes and stuff. but it's lyk i can't stand it any longer. ohman. how am i suppose to phrase this. i'm clueless. this is making my mood go down th drain. mayb it's really me changing. i am lyk in my own world once again. how i wish i can do what mayp did man. make an excuse to get out of town; buying my own air tickets, then settle in some overseas hostel. and letting everyone have th image tht i'm thr wit my friends, but in actual fact. i'm just thr alone, with no familiar faces. meeting new people, and being th me tht i've always wanted to portray but i can't. okay, all this is really getting into my head. i need a chillpill; i need a happypill. yes. now. thts period.

♥ SENTOSA; ECP!

couldn't wake up this morning, so met up wit jaslyn and cindy an hour later than planned. was seriously tired, so sorry girls.

soyeah, mrt-ed to harbourfront, got our tickets and off we go to sentosa. damn excited. but sad to say, after getting th beach mat, th sky don't look to be to our favour. it's lyk gg to rain. so we went 7-11 hoping tht th sky will clear soon and then our tanning session can officially start. but apparently, th dark clouds came in and started raining. slack-ed/camp-ed in 7-11 for say abt an hour, until th sun finally came out. but it's lyk th sun comes in and out! damn sadden-ing i tell you. soyeah, tanning onli lasted for abt an hour then off to bathe. didn't really manage to get darker. ohwells.

headed to marche for lunch. had rosti wit garlic sausage plus sour cream! and strawberry cheesecake for dessert. catching ups again. then i got a lil tired i guess. lyk kinda no mood to do anythng. practically stoned, and was talking wit a un-expressionless face. ohman. this is bad.

well, mood lighten-ed up soon after and headed to ECP. all 3 of us knock-ed out in th bus. lyk totally. i think i was th pig-iest among all of them. i totally blanked out, totally don't care if anyone was thr. just slp! HAHAH. settle-ed, rented bike. cindy and jaslyn tried to teach me how to cycle. since my past few attempts was kinda bad. but sad to say after awhile of trying. i gave up. HAHAHA. and at th end of th day, i have a bruise at my ankle thr. just above it. damn painful. seriously can feel th bump thr lo. ohman!

headed over to parkway to slack since all of us wasn't in th gg home mood. settle-ed at berrylite for youghurt. out to our disappointment, th youghurt tasted lyk ice-cream. ohman, frolick and youguru is still my ♥!!!!!

overall, day was fun yet stone at th same tym. photos will all be on FB. do check it up yo! &&& i think i'm pms-ing. ohshit. it feels lyk crap. and i feel so emo-ish. this is not good. not good. very not good. i need my happypill!!!!!!!

♥ REKINDLE-ED!

picture of th post is my date for th second half of th day. first half was wit jo over at kallang. needa wait for jo to send me th pix! &&& rest of photos wit th girls are on FB! (:

alright, so EPT-ed for abt 2hrs in sch, since i finish patching up th circuit then soldier then connect-ed to see if LED lights up all within tht 2hrs. so early realease for me again. slacked arnd in lab then over to lougne to use shaun's lappy for awhile. bus-ed to KLP to catch transformers!!! it's a super action pack show. damn nice. though it's kinda long, lyk 2.5hrs movie. and i kept dosing off at th starting due to th fact tht i was super tired, and tht th cinema seat was so comfortable! HAHAHA. it's a movie worth watching. seriously. &&& megan fox is HOT! HAHAH.

after movie headed to bridge near indoor stadium to slack and take photo! jo haven't sent it to me yet. ohs nos! HAHA. and we saw this 2 boys arnd th same age as us trying to climb over this metal gate thngy which was locked. damn retarded. one of them climbed over but th other one didn't dare to. and they were lyk hesistating if they shld climb over cos whr jo and i was standing, was a place whereby whatever they did was visable!! HAHA (:

11-ed to kalland mrt while jo bus-ed home. then changed bus to go serangoon to meet cindy and jaslyn. reach-ed arnd 7plus and we RK-ed for dinner. updated each other abt our lives and stuff since it was lyk ages since we last met and all. we even plan for a tanning trip to sentosa plus cycling at ECP tmr!!!! YAY! (: i lyk. chit chat-ed all, plus camwhore-ed inside/out icecube lyk thr's no tmr. and we got chased away countless tyms by this person. HAHA. okay. i can't wait for tmr! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

random side note; i finally bought th panda choc biscuit thngy for E. and it's not hello panda FYI (:

♥ RANDOM; ANYHOW.

picture of th day taken at mushroom at arnd 7pm +++. overall picture is alright, but i look retard! OHNO! :X

anyways, today was kinda a tiring day for me lyk seriously. started sch at 10, had break at 12plus all th way until 2 cos had early release by msling from wrtoral. then was back for emaths1 lecture then ckt lab. so yupp, tried bistro-walk for lunch today wit th girls during break tym. i only had brownie+icecream though, cos was kinda full from th fries i had in b/w ckt lec and wrtoral. soyeah, and wasn't in much of a appetite to. &&& was a lib for a short while watching part of" grudge2". damn scary; it made all of us scream a lil. yes, in th lib. HAHA. ckt lab was manageable today. didn't realy ask for assistance. really pray hard can do well in nxt wk's lab test man. OHSNOS! (:

lesson ended slightly earlier than 5. slack-ed arnd until abt 545 wit th girls as i was meeting Eric. soyeah, since i was meeting deb/trena at 7 after their squash, E was kind enough to accompany me for tht 1hour+++. chatted, rubbish-ed, laugh-ed, stone-ed, slack-ed at engine for quite long. and this tym round, dear mr E was th television. lyk a total comedy! HAHA. damn funny. had to actuali video him to stop him from cheering all those random cheers man! HAHA. soyeah, headed over to cheers to buy chocs then back to mushroom to slack a lil.

SOS-ed wit debbie, trena, esther, flora, justine, jz. all th TP peeps since th rest of th CG is at st john's island having camp. sad-ed. anyway, all in all. today is seriously a super tiring day. EPT starts at 9am tmr, and EPT hols assignment is due tmr! OHNO! but i need my slp badly. man, what if i overslp tmr?

♥ BANGS! (:

we both look cute in bangs mans. ohs nos! HAHAHAH :DDDDDDDD

alright lets see. actuali thr's nth much gg on wit my live. lyk seriously, cos sch has started and work is piling up. i seem to have given back whatever i've learnt before term break, all back to th lecturers man! OHS NOS ! thts not very good, cos this term right, i seriously needa pull up my socks and do well, at least up to my expectation. results weren't as expected for th previous term; got back this week ;

EMATHS : 66/100
DFUND1 : 35.5/50
CKT : 25/50

terrible terrible results. it's lyk though i passed both in quiz and term test for ckt, my grade is a D! yes a freaking D! i really need to try not to be distracted in lectures anymore! and i really need to lyk put in th detemination and discipline myself to go through whatever is taught on tht day when i get back home. if not, i think my CKT fail alrdy. knowing myself tht i'm not th physics kind of person! HAHA.

anyways, salvo have been great this wk! seriously one of those few highlights tht i look forward to every week. learnt 50% of B 大组 already! still abit unsure here and thr. but yeah, shld be alright after a few more practices!

okay, post shall end here today. no random-ness cos apparently i'm too tired to think abt anythng. even while typing this, my eyelids are actuali getting heavier and heavier. i need my beauty slp!!!!!!!! (: plus, my eye-bags are really bad. shall find a day whereby i can do nth but just slp th entire day. but thts lyk wasting 24hours! ohwells.

♥ CHOMPS; 23JUNE'09




mel sher Jo


kinda overdue-ed. so sorry abt it.

chomps wit th girls on tues after school. it was an abrupt decision though. it was lyk after lecture tht i suddenly made a random remark of gg chomps for dinner tht night. and it was thr and then we decided. but sadly, shanice was sick tht day, so couldn't join us :(

soyeah, mel and jo headed over to my hse to slack for awhile before making our way to chomps. th tym at chomps was kinda enjoyable. we - bitch-ed,gossip-ed, laugh-ed, camwhored. pictures will be up on FB soon. &&& i can't wait for this week's chomps on tues. this tym all of us wld be present! :DDDDDDD

♥ DRUMZOUT'09; SALVO ROCK! (:

dear salvo seniors took part in drumzout'09 @ vivo, 20June'09

we juniors are really proud of all of you, though you all didn't emerge champion overall! (:

met up wit kaleryn and edmund first since th rest were going to be late. otw to diaso to get our plain cards/plastic bands, walked pass-ed amphi theatre and saw th seniors! help-ed marc to buy water and was really trying our best to rmb every single senior tht is gg to perform since vivian, kaleryn, yeesin, yours'truely are getting sunflowers as a form of encouragement for them! HAHA. damn funny. but glad tht they like-d them (:

alright, decided to lunch at harbourfront centre's KFC and at th same tym write th names/twine it arnd th sunflower! crapp-ed and stuff wit both K and E while waiting for vivian to arrive wit th flowers. talk-ed abt our part-time times and stuff. and seriously, they are fun ppl to talk too. edmund is lyk xiao didi can! HAHA. wrote wrote wrote; twine twine twine; then rush-ed off th monorail area to meet up wit th rest/seniors.

gave out th sunflowers to th seniors!!! I LYK! :DDDDDDDDDDD then was off to watch th competition which ended arnd 9plus.

all in all, th day was a good one; a fun one!!! (: though it didn't really end off quite well, cos of some stuff tht happen-ed to me. OMG! hate it when this happens. ohwells, thr's CCA training tmr! CAN'T WAIT! ♥

P.S 永远一百巴仙!!! :DDDDDDDD thks kelvin! (:

♥ ECP; 17June'09

soyeah, thr was a class outing at ECP ; cycling (:

met jo earlier at bedok interchange to have a short chit-chat session and to update each other abt what we wanted to tell each other. okay, th sentence before this makes sense didn't it? hahah. alright. soyeah, got our mac-breakfast, and started to talk. and yes, she agrees wit me tht th situation i'm in lyk even now is kinda complicated and yet at th same tym very confusing. but yeah, i'm over it i guess. though talking abt it just makes my heart really "sour". and she and i both have th same assumption over this someone tht could just somehow really get on our nerves sometyms. just purely irritating. OHMAN! >.<

alright, went over to meet th rest at bedok interchange-197 ;
marcus, lucas, fy, shaun, joel, hwee shen.
bus-ed over to ECP and met up wit th few of them ;
jy, shanice, wilson, gerald.
slack abit at BK and then went off to rent bicycle. rented for only 5hours actuali, but ended up cycling for say close to 8hours, cos we cycled all th way from ECP to changi village and back to ECP ltr on. ofc this includes resting tym plus slacks. okay, lets see. cycle-ed tangent bike wit jy at first, cos sadly yours' truely still dk how to cycle after countless attempts of learning how to cycle. but i'll soon alright! HAHA.

half way thru, fy's bicycle's tyre puntured unfortunately, and so had to go all th way back to the bicycle rental shop for a change, which is FYI 45minutes cycle away. thus th rest of us just went to slack and stuff. took some pictures here and there; we even attempted to do a jump shot, which resulted in countless takes! & all th shots, i just realised ; had only me jumping, until th very last shot, everyone jumped!!! WHOO!! :DDDD

waited and waited and waited. chatted here and there wit th rest. saw some "exciting" scenes thr too. was kinda funny how lucas came up wit th season one and season two thngy man. HAHA. it was as if we were watching some serial drama show can! (: alright, so after awhile, me shanice and a few decided to go over th breakwaters thr to just relax/chit-chat. and since lyk shanice and i had so much to tell each other abt, it was such a good tyming! (: PHOTOS TAKEN! :DDDDDDDDD

SHER; JO! (:

MEL, SHER, JO, SHANICE! (:

slack-ed for abt close to 2hours? then off we go again! YAY! :DDDDDDDDDDDD cycle-d cycle-d cycle-d cycle-d and we reach this bridge whereby thr's this stray dog out of nowhere tht freaked, mel jo and shanice out! HAHA. i mean they were really scared and all. OMG! then shaun and wilson was lyk trying their best to "lure" th dog away. HAHA. damn funny; breeze was nice and all. singing was nice too! yes, we sang! HAHAH. to you knw keep ourself entertain-ed. cycl-ed all th way until abt 7plus.

finally; reach-ed our final destination! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

this pic is lyk onli half of th ppl present. cos th rest went back to find SW; cos apparently we couldn't contact him or another through any ways. th other hald include jy,gerald,joel, lucas.

pictures here are onli those tht i've edit-ed. th rest all on fb!(:
all in all. we had fun. just tht i fell, and all of us have butt-aches ♥

♥ HAPPY AGAIN - RESTORED!

alright, i'm feeling exactly what th picture of th day suggest! (: no more emo-shit from sher anymore!!! :DDDDDDDDDD so sorry readers, cos i've been lyk really at my bottom-less pit for th past few posts, and wasn't really myself and all. but now, after much serious thinking and ofc praying super hard ytd; ytd was one of those nights tht i prayed until i cried so badly. but th moment i woke up this morning, i felt restored! i really thank God for th new word! without it, i might not move on, and will still be digging deeper and deeper into whr i was before!!! ♥

so friends, do not need to worry abt me alrdy okay. sher is back stronger as before. i'll think on th brighter side of thngs now. isn't it better if everythng just stay at status qou? :DDDDDDDD SERIOUSLY LOVING IT! ♥

ohyes ohyes, i promised kelvin tht i'll mention his name.

KELVIN; 愛死你了 !!!! ♥

cos seriously speaking, your tht tag really made my day though you didn't knw wat happened and all.

but yeah, thks so much alright!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

plusplusplus, ofc not forgetting eric. i mean lyk, though same lyk kelvin, both of you all dk what's gg on and stuff, but really ty for being thr. it seriously meant alot (:

♥ EXPRESSION-LESS!

my 10-fingernails has three different colours! of which 2 look similar! ♥

this shall be a very random post okay? there will not be any updates abt what happened today or what i did today! - totally nth of tht sort alright. and pls pardon th emo-ness, cos as stated th few previous posts, tht i'm currently living in my 20%. for those who dk. i spend 80% of my tym laughing/being crazy. th other 20% wld be those emo-shit tht i knw i shldn't let myself feel. but emotions being emotions, i'll just let it run wild once again. and it'll be once and for all. i'm so sorry, this is just th other side of me.

alrights, this post shall officially start here, right now! ;

all this tht i'm feeling right now, i knw it's just one-sided. cos th other party will be fully unaware of it unless i make it known to him/her. i really felt my heart sank to th bottom th very moment i saw what i saw. idk what got into me, cos it nvr did occur to me tht thngs could be this complicated until tht very night, whereby i was just randomly browsing thru some thngs. it didn't occur to me tht i was actuali this deep into th hole, until it hit me so hard, tht i literally felt sad and was left speechless/expression-less. i just had one straight face. i seriously feel tht i'm kinda stupid to actuali think so deep into th matter. cos afterall, it might just be me tht is initiating and expecting so much more. thr am i advising ppl tht we shld all knw and manage our expectation well. but here am i expecting so much, yet knw-ing and knw-ing tht i was just reading too much into it. how dumb can a person go. i really wonder.

it has been kinda long ever since i felt this heaviness tht i'm feeling right now. my heart is really heavy. thinking back, isn't it just obvious and a general knowledge thng tht anyone, just anyone will be this nice and all. nvr did it cross my mind tht it happens to anyone - siblings. th greater th expectation, th greater/harder th impact of th fall will be. i find myself quite dumb coming out wit all those plans thngy to make sure tht i stop what i'm doing; i find myself quite stupid holding on to th hp, waiting lyk a fool, having in mind what to expect for ; i find myself quite an idiot waiting up till th wee hours, knowing tht what i wish-ed for wld nvr happen. but it's always at tht brink of moment, when i tell myself i shld stop being foolish, tht you came knocking.

mayb this tym round, i was really willing to give it a shot. but i knw, i'll nvr be good enough. cos thr's someone out thr, tht i feel tht you've alrdy have tht someone in mind. i think right now, all i can do is do what i always do. being tht crazy.happy.always laughing.always high to th max. kinda person tht you knw. i knw i can do it. and th feeling tht i'm feeling right now, will just fade away over tym. then my full 80% will come back!

my heart sank to th very bottom th moment i saw it.

man, why is this happening;

SHUT UP SHER, AE HAVE TO CARRY ON!!!!!!

even though, it might not even make a difference.

but at least, it'll make me feel better.

it'll somehow or another make me not think so much. ohwells.

P.S i'm still not over you by rihanna is stuck in my head!

♥ LITTLE-TALKS!

pic of th day taken wit best at bishan interchange while waiting for bus 58 (: ohyes, my back is starting to peel alrdy, super ugly. plus th skin on my back feels lyk scales now! OMG! damn disgusting!! EWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :((((((((((((((((((((

okay anyways, slept at 4am th previous night thus waking up at 2plus3 this afternoon. which is a good 10hours of slp! i think my bio-clock is screwed. how to adjust? sch is starting in a week! but thank God, lessons on monday starts at 12pm! (: alrights, lets see. fb-ed a lil then went to meet best at j8! shopp-ed arnd and stuff, settled at kopitiam cos she was craving for yong tau fu! HAHAHA. soyeah, seated and chatted for awhile.

walked arnd, shop here shop thr. and sorta got bored of j8 quite quickly. bumped into vivian!!! my baobei!!! (: best bought youghurt from yami but i didn't. cos i'm loyal to frolick & youguru!!! (: was telling eric tht frolick miss-ed call me for 3weeks, and i totally ignored, didn't even call them bacck! HAHA. i was meant to be a personification thngy, but yeah. anyways, was having a BIGBIGBIGBIG cravings for frolick since idk when mans. th girls wld knw abt it. but sad to say, thr's lyk onli 4outlets in sg - gardens, T1, millenia walk, holland V. soyeah, back to th updates for th day. 58-ed to somewhr in b/w amk and bishan, then 136-ed to gardens. slack arnd and stuff. && somehow cos of some stuff, i felt really bad deep inside. but th reply was still as cheer-y. ohwells (: today was fun, just tht i didn't get to meet jo, cos she can't find her hp! :(

random thoughts; my heart seriously did drop a bit when i put every thng into th picture. was telling best tht i'm seriously confuse over th situation now. lyk dk what to do. it's lyk i'm stuck in th middle of nowhere; neither here nor thr. and i told myself mayb i shld just give this a lil break, and see how thngs go. or mayb to give myself tym to see if wat i'm feeling now is true. but idk what's up wit me this afternoon, i went ahead to do sth tht i told myself i shldn't, cos i needed to give it some tym i guess. ohshit, how dumb could tht get. sighs. anyways, i think i shld get discipline. seriously. shan't give in to temptation tmr! shall keep th hp far away from me as possible tmr!!! if i can get by tmr just th way it is, i think it shld just be fine. then i'll carry on doing what i do, for th rest of th day until sch reopens. & then i'll leave th thinking for ltr. but i knw, if this was to last lyk a long-term thngy, i think i'll live in my 20%. which is sth tht i don't want. I WANT MY 80% BACK! (:

♥ TIME FLIES!

TIME CHECK! : 3.00AM ; 16th June 2009.

shall adjust th time/date! (:

since my bro flew off to australia this evening. and he's probably soundly aslp over at his friend's hse by now, i'll be a very nice sister to have th photo i took wit him before he went through customs as th TOP picture today! (: you knw how much trouble i went through just for this picture to be taken. ohmans, it seriously took ages la. HAHAHAH :DDDDDDD

had my straight 12hrs of slp before leaving th hse today. sent bro off to th airport and train-ed down to tampines wit yeesin. chatt-ed alot and was actuali talking abt th camps we attended and how much we really miss them! (: and th final story of th chat was tht both of us are lyk super happening during th hols (:

met up wit szejia,huiwen,guowei,yuanwei,vivian at koipond area before gg studio4. today traijning was really fun man! lyk finally learn until 25% of B 大组 minus th actions and stuff today! (: damn fun plus a challenge to me, at least! it's lyk a sense of achievement/satisfaction when play without mistakes from th beginning until whr we learn today man! i lyk i lyk! seriously can't wait to finish learning th entire score man! WHOOO!!! :DDDDDDDDDDD soyeah, training ended arnd 840 and this waited for th seniors until 9plus before they had their debrief and we needed to leave th studio. and th mean while, cam-whoring session started! (: &&& i took photo wit weijin, kaleryn, guowei, felicia! (: had difficulty taking photo wit weijin man. it's lyk he keep don't want to smile nicely for me! HAHA. but in th end took one quite nice one! (: needa go grab from fel th one tht i took wit her man! (:

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

bus-ed to CPF to have mac for dinner. finally for one we manage to seat inside whrby thr's aircon man!!! HAHAH. but can't help it though. today got lesser ppl and all. ohya, on th bus journey from sch to CPF, i was sitting beside wanyi. and borrowed vivian's camera and started to zilian. and we zilian is not take those perfect smile smile normal normal kinds ehs, but instead, we did retarded faces! all look damn funny. in one, wanyi even feels tht she look shuai inside la! HAHAHAH :DDDD damn funny, but th session had to stop when bus 69 sadly reaches th interchange! :(

bought our meals and all. then started crapping/talking all. damn funny la, all th conversation. shan't go into details and all. but seriously, DINNER AFTER TRAINING EVERY WK, MAKES ME FEEL SO HAPPY! (:72-ed wit ryan! lyk finally, thr's someone tht takes bus wit me after dinner! cos it's lyk majority of them stays yishun tht area thus mostly 969 and i'll be th one and only soul left taking 72 home or sometyms having my dad fetching me. SO HAPPY!!! (: alright, chatted on th bus all and he wanted wit me until 25 came! THANKS SO MUCH! if not i think i wld have freaked out at tht empty busstop! HAHAH (:

alright, tht's practically my day! gg to meet up wit bird tmr for late lunch/early dinner after her Proj.meeting. & hopefully can meet jo up too. got loads to tell her mans! (:

and guess wat, this thought suddenly went through my mind. "what if things just happen in a way tht we do not expect it to happen? if it happens to me, wld my mind just be a blank spot; accept th truth, or just turn a deaf ear?" very random i knw. but right now, i sorta affected by some stuff, and idk how to express myself even to my own personal self. ohcrap, what am i saying. okay, random-ness. am i really tht affected by it tht, i'm actuali feeling sad over such matters? and a matter of fact is tht, i don't even knw if my assumptions are right, from what i saw. i'm not surprise wit what i'm experiencing right now. but i took me quite awhile to digest, cos i finally realise tht i'm actuali quite deep in th hole. and just wondering if i shld stop myself from growing deeper, cos now it's all up to me. but seriously speaking, i lyk thngs th way it is right now. just tht, thr's doubts/confusion here and thr. ohwells, think i'll just leave th thinking for tmr.

♥ FEAR!

picture of th day taken on th last day of SALVO CAMP! ♥

anyways, had steamboat after service ytd at HOUSE OF STEAMBOAT @ BUGIS had so much fun wit th ppl i was sitting wit mans! fiona, clara, peiling, leonard, eugene! have to grab photos from fiona cos pictures were taken using her camera! (: leonard was being very funny throughout th entire steamboat session mans. we kept making fun of him on whatever he ate all :DDDDDDDD then at th end of th session, we had too much food left tht we had to play zhong ji mi ma!!! HAHAHA :DDDDDDD ohya, in th midst of steamboat. jared/david came out wit a mini-bday celebration/sabo for th june babies in th subzone. th challenge was to see who can finish eating th most number of sweeten-ed mantou in 1min. HAHAHA. damn funny. but i lyk (:

wanted to go macpherson to look for jo after steamboat, since thr's direct bus from bugis to macpherson. but in th end didn't go. partially cos i'm kinda lazy and partially cos she dk wat tym her guitar lessons gg to end. yupp, so accompanied deb to eat at bugis junction, and ltr train-ed home tgt. had a really long chat wit her until i kept changing th route of gg home. suppose to take train all th way to amk, but ended up at kovan. HAHHA (:

on a random side note; dk how to survive properly this entire wk mans. bro is flying off to australia ltr today. which also means tht th "source" of communication b/w me and my parents are sort of gone. it's lyk to start with, actuali my parents and i don't really talk much, especially b/w me and my dad. idk if it's biasness or wat, but thr's always a barrier. ever since after o's, situation at home did not really change for th better. lyk first was th car issue b/w my dad and my bro, then was b/w my parent. gosh! thr's lyk hardly any communcation. th only thng we talk abt wld be lyk only th surface kinda thng. how i wish i can be lyk my bro man. fly off to australia for this one week, don't need to care so much. seriously irritating, i don't lyk it a single bit. but, i knw i can't run away from reality; somehow this got to end. but how ?

♥ CATCHING-UPs!

okay, picture of th day taken wit AVRIL SHECK! after our catching up session at subway! our all tym favourite!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

anyways, thr's nth much for me to do today since i woke up at lyk 3plus4 this afternoon. so decided to meet up wit sheck for dinner, since lyk thr isn't anyone at home as always on a typical saturday. so th few hours before meeting her was spent editing photos/ uploading photos on blog! did some updating here and thr, and some pictures really remind myself how burnt am i mans! HHAHAHAH (: okay, this few days, i shall just survive wearing tanktops/sleeveless!! cos it's lyk now right, i even have difficulty removing tops/shirts/bra! OMG!! even sheck say my back reminds her of cook-ed lobster! :( but anyhows, i still lyk th colour!!! :DDDDDDDDDD

catching up session was definitely a theraphy(sp?). it's lyk reminising th tym whereby we were in secondary sch, when we use to sit beside each other in chemistry practical lesson plus alot other more periods. it's seems as if thr is a nvr ending topic tht we can just go on and on abt. time seriously flies lyk nobody business. my bro ORD-ed ytd. and it just shows tht 2yrs just pass by just lyk tht. sheck and i both argreed, that we can't believe tht we're both at tertiary education now ! lyk she's in JC and i'm in POLY. ohwells, time really do fly pass very very quickly :(

ohwells, at least we still stay in contact with each other.

so what, if we are in different schs? HAHAHA :D

ohyes, on a random side note. i saw a panda chocolate biscuit thngy tht looks lyk eric hiah! damn funny plus random. but sadly, i didn't buy it. i just can't imagine myself biting off th head. it's lyk chewing eric's head away! HAHAH. &&& it's not hello panda by th way! HAHHA :DDDDDDDD

♥ HAPPY 18TH B'DAY WILSON!

today is wilson's 18th birthday surprise over at pasir ris chalet! :DDDDDDDD

met up wit th guys at pasir ris interchange before gg whitesands to get th bday cake from fourleaves. after tht some of them ate at KFC then 403-ed to chalet. alright, lets see. it was kinda boring at th beginning, cos th guys were all talking abt dota and stuff, some were even playing L4D! and i was busy playing wit th burger game on bryan's ipod (: felt really slpy in th midst, but can't fall aslp due to th bad sunburnt i had. yes, it's tht serious. i can't even lie down properly to slp! HAHAHAHA (: so decided to go arnd taking videos and stuff wit JY's camera! (:

soon after, shanice gave JY a miss call, and tht's when th entire birthday surprise plan thngy started! damn fun! :DDDDDDDDDDDD it started wit JY giving marcus a call, and marcus will pass th hp to wilson who by then alrdy was blindfolded. JY will then lyk use a different voice to speak to wilson, making wilson kinda puzzled by it. upon reaching, wilson was guided back to th chalet room whereby th sound effect from L4D will be played through th AM. then soon enough, wilson was de-blindfolded when everyone start to sing th bday song straight away with th candles all lit-ed! (:

added a twist to it, by telling wilson tht his present was hidden inside th cake, which was fake! and he had to use his tongue to lick it out. wilson really went to do it can! HAHAH. and when he was doing it, everyone push-ed his head downwards, smashing th entire cake into his face! HAHAHA. damn funny :DDDDD then th cake war begin!! hair, face, shirts, arms; practically everyone was attacked ! HAHAHAH :DDDDD and th guys even tau-poked him since he had no idea wat tau-pok was. okay, it's kinda difficult how to explain how fun it was. will grab th videos from JY and shanice soon and post it. then you all will uds! HAHAH :DDDDD

in conclusion, really hope wilson lyk his birthday surprise. cos seriously, he wasn't aware of this entire planning thng for him! HAAHAHHAH. okay. ♥

♥ SENTOSA-LOVE!

sentosa wit th girls today! (: shanice, melissa, jo, yours'truely! didn't manage to take grp photo today. but yupp, took individual photos wit all of them, but it's in shanice's camera!!! HAHAHAHA :DDDD

heart-to-heart session wit them in th midst of sun-tanning and yupp, really ♥ them to th max. anyways, guess what. they buried me while i was happily indulging in th sunlight. HAHA. damn funny. cos it's lyk while they are burying, i kept laughing and th sand kept cracking (: headed to vivo after washing up and having subway at some pavillion. shop-ed arnd in RI, ZARA, MANGO, F21, PULL & BEAR! was seriously very tempted to get tht pink happy face tank top from F21 just now can. but lyk since got cheer-you-up shirt at home, which is also in pink, decided not to. &&& saw this damn chio bright/hot/luminous wallet from RI. damn nice. jo and i was lyk super tempted can. but since i just got wallet from fourskin lyk say 2weeks ago, decided to give it a miss. and th wallet is th same kind. just tht different colour!
OMG! DAMN CHIO!

all in all, today was seriously a fun/enjoyable day for me.
but th sad truth is tht, i'm badly sunburnt! :(
and i onli realised it when at vivo. cos i was carrying backpack. and th strap hurt lyk crap. it's lyk now, even wearing a normal tee is a difficult task for me.
OHCRAP! I'M LYK A LOBSTER CAN!
&&& stupid eric commented tht "i can't imagine a lobster playing drum!" cos i've got training on monday. damn anyhow right! i knw! HAHAHA :DDDDDDD

♥ SALVO CAMP 08-10/JUNE'09

alright, just had salvo camp from 8th June to 10th June in school (: it was lyk a training+fun+laughter+bonding kinda camp. not those kinds whereby everythng was just th way it is as stated in th programme sheet! seriously. anyways, picture right on top are my companies throughout this entire camp. yeesin, vivian, yours'truely, kaleryn (:

DAY 1 :
reported to sch at 9am. then had some ice-breaker games. actualli not alot of thngs happen on day 1 though. all we did was stay in LT19, located at business, watching videos. kinda slack. ended at 6pm sharp, then went to have dinner wit th usual peeps and left half way cos dad came to fetch! (:

DAY 2:



ohwells... as such, reporting tym at 9am. starting training, and yupp, learnt th starting of B 大组. th beats of this score very catchy mans! i lyk! :DDDDDDDDD HAHA. okay, after training was lunch then was drum maintainance. drum maintainance was kinda fun; painting both th red/black parts. and somehow or another a "paint war" thngy started after everyone sorta got washed up and stuff. it's lyk everyone was running arnd attacking each other wit paint. clement got sa-bo-ed th most though. his legs/face/hair all kena until quite badly. HAHAH. but vivian and i was kinda enough to help him get rid of them! (: ohohoh, and had fun "bully-ing" eric to0. and i found out tht eric wld jump when kena poke-ed. damn funny! HHAHAHAH.

so settled here and thr alrdy. had dinner all alrdy, then night games started. was grp-ed into CLEMENT aka CONGCONG grp and we literally named our grp congcong! damn cute :DDDDDDDDD alright play-ed play-ed play-ed. and played water games as last station. was really fun cos everybody got wet and stuff. i mean, since when water games wasn't fun. hahah. shan't get into details!! (: after wet games, we were dismissed to go bathe and slp. but since 4 of us didn't want to lyk snatch for th toilet we went to stadium podium to chit-chat. lyk a short heart-to-heart talk kinda thng. chat-ed until abt 1245am we decided to go bathe. bathed alrdy then went back to stadium to join th rest. talk here talk thr wit th rest including eric and SL. shld say crap la uh. then, we had photo-taking session. i lyk! :DDDDDDD th only thng was tht th lighting wasn't tht bright thr. so pictures taken were actuali quite dark. tried my best to brighten it alrdy, using photo soft-ware :( what you all see wld be lyk th best i cld go. so sorry...

sher, eric! (:


sher; kelvin! (:

sher, weijing;qing ai de! (:


sher, wanyi! (:



sher, hady! (:



sher, songleng! (:

DAY3:



day 3 started off wit PT in th morning. then had breakfast, and off for training. was kinda in th stone mood most of th tym since didn't really slp well th previous night. imagining waking up almost every half hour automatically. OMG! TERRIBLE ! :( hahah. alright. training was kinda cool. lyk learnt th criss-cross hands thngy. didn't really catch it though. but I WILL!! (: after tht we were giving tym to compile up th score for score challenge as a grp. th congcongs did a cool+cute theme. and guess wat, and since yours'truely is lyk kinda tall but not tht tall yet; in th formation i was on th first line. being 1 out of 3 in th first role. OMG! totally freaked out. hahah (: score turn-ed out quite well in th end. considering th fact tht it is our first tym! (: at th end of th day, ruo han's grp got first, and us, th congcongs, came in second! :( still alright though, cos i really enjoy tym wit th grp (:

okay, tht's abt all for th 3days camp. was really fun as a conclusion!!! :DDDDDDDDDDD
really thank th seniors for organizing such camps mans (: it's was an awesome experience! (:

hellos!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
no picture of th day today. cos, this is just a random post!!!!
GOSH! i shld just stop procrastinating and go pack for camp which is tmr!
it's only a one night kinda thng and i'm lazy to go pack.
anyways, lets see;
i'm gg to bring my golden dupe slippers, FO tee, FBT shorts, towels, bathing neccessity, my grey hoodie, cutie stitch!!, my pink towel, plasters for my blister, hair clips/rubberbands, my yellow comb. OHS NOS!
shld i bring slping bag? th girls are bringing though. and now i can't decided which bag to bring!
i think i shld just bring my bagpack. then stuff everythng inside! :DDDDDDD
okay, i shld go and pack now.
reporting tym is 9am tmr, meeting th girls at 845am. hope i don't be late lyk today.
&&& i needa go rmb th 24seasons!!
BYE for now. blog wld sure be updated wit photos/videos of th camp.
DAY ONE of camp was sure a funny thng to start wit. lots of laughter. i lyk.



captivating images. something tht i can't take my eyes off. disapperance depicts th insercurity. lowest of th valley, i'm sure you're able to pick me up wit just tht smile. i think i'm addicted.

♥ SPEECHLESS!

pic of th day taken wit ERIC aka JIE MEI! at design concourse today.and it'll be my hp wallpaper for th nxt one wk!!! (: anyways, was suppose to lyk only meet him for awhile. but apparently, he was really nice to accompany me for nearly an hour to keep me away from boredom while waiting for jamine to end her lecture.
THANKS JIE MEI! (:

yupp. anyways, his new hair isn't tht bad. or actually think he look better in it! lyk no more curtain hair, now become binds hair!!! HAHAHAHHA (: had fun lyk crapping/slacking/chatting wit him. but just realise tht thr is alot of stuff i haven't complain to him about!!! OH NO!!! HAHAH. ohwells, what do you expect when you put 2 retarded ppl together? we'll just end up having retarded conversations! (:

and stupid eric hiah liken me to a television! WTH! " i can imagine putting you into a television box, having a on/off switch. and when i switch it on, i'll just see you making a fool out of yourself. it's lyk watching a comedy!" damn WTH right! HAHAHAHA :DDDDDDDD & thts not th end of it okay. he made up this entire "schedule" on what we're all gg to do for salvo camp. which is total rubbish/anyhow/crap! you won't want to knw th content! cos it's a total waste of tym. seriously. HAHA. tym kinda passed quite quickly at design concourse. but yeah. (:

in conclusion; MR ERIC HIAH & MISS JAMINE CHUA made my day today!

one made me laugh lyk crazy every single tym i see him,

and th other made me smile when i talk to her :DDDDDDDDD

today is seriously a day for me ! (:

♥ STEAD!

pic of th day was randomly taken at bedok interchange ytd (: ohyes! i finally found a random partner whereby i can just any-oh-how call her at any-oh-tym on any-oh-day for a any-oh-how date! HAHAHHA (:

today's random date was wit JOVINA aka MY STEAD. whe just randomly call me at arnd 4plus in th afternoon to ask if i wanna go kallang to watch movie. and since i was feeling kinda random and haven't have any plans and decided to go. come to think abt it, if jo didn't call to date me out. i wld have stayed home th entire day staring at this screen i'm staring at right now, watching my "90210" th whole day, cos miss yours'truely woke up at 2pm completely clueless how i manage to slp tht long!!!! HAHAHHA :DDDD

caught Hannah Montena: The movie. not bad a show. pls go watch, cos th main lead is damn HOT/CUTE! ; LUCAS TILL!!!! but sad to say is tht, he onli look damn freaking hot/cute onli in this particular movie and th talor swift's MV tht he appeared in. other than tht? thts it. sad-ed isn't it. 16-ed back to bedok, had short heart-to-heart wit jo on th bus. ohohohoh. random again; i finally satisfy my crave for STRAWBERRY SNOWSHAKE @ EACH-A-CUP!

random thoughts; relationship is just somethng tht ppl get in and out wit and it's just bits and parcel of our lives. talking abt it, sometyms it gets too in th way tht sometyms a laugh to bring it over is somethng tht ppl ever want to do. but a bad relationship just haunts a person so badly, tht it becomes traumatising. is it as easy as wat ppl say? " it's easier to be loved than to love someone. it's very tiring. so just let it go." sometyms it's just th satisfaction of seeing th one you love getting along wit life tht makes you happy. ohwells, don't get misunderstood. i'm currently not in any r/s. it's just some random thoughts as i consider th situations some of my friends are in right now. and seriously, i'm not emo. since when was i? (:

♥ EVER-LASTING LOVE!

pic of th day taken at raffles city's BnJ (:

alright, paper ends today. which marks th beginning of my term break for this semester!!!! YAY! (:

so went to crash nyp today, cos i was given a choice. since my both best-est friends studies at nyp. and since i end sch at 1030 i have to be th one travelling down to nyp to meet them before heading to town. HAHA. suppose to meet eric to see his hair since he just cut-ed his hair, but class left sch early, so didn't manage to see!! :( ohwells...

soyeah, 72-ed to yck from tampines interchange. chains of thoughts ran thru my mind through th long bus journey. but yeah, i was glad to meet up wit th girls ! (: i sorta got lost here and thr, but moh came to th rescue! HAHAH (: watched "90210" on laptop while waiting for bird to end lecture which was arnd 3plus. took a train down to cityhall, and both moh and i had subway- all tym favourite while bird had her youguru! chit-chatt-ed here and thr. did some catching up and decided to head over to BnJ to chill (: had waffle cones! (: catch-ed up even more and cam-whored! pic above are one of my favourites of th day!

walk-ed arnd citylink and headed to marina square- muji to get pencil boxes/stationary/sweets. shopp-ed arnd and actuali moh and i wanted to get a top from mango, but was hesistating cos we preferred th top to be black instead of white. &&& saw this flora printed skirt at mango too. but it cost lyk $69 :( broke! :( sad-ed. cos just bought a crumpler for bro which cost a bomb-$183. alright, walk-ed arnd. didn't see any other thngs tht catch my eye. so just ended up getting a wallet from fourskin, while bird and moh both got themselves jeans from some random shop. (: chill-ed at starbucks after tht. and tht's when my hp died on me! :( sad-ed. totally.

alright, no random thoughts today. cos th girls totally made my day! :DDDDDDDD

♥ NEWLY-WED; 31MAY'09

cousin wedding ytd (: and as th saying goes; " women is always th prettiest on their wedding day." it's so true. jiejie was really very very very pretty ytd!!! :DDDDDDD

wedding dinner at grand hyatt! (:

and it isn't a joke to be walking arnd in 2-3inches heels for 6hours! :(

okays, lets see. had emaths1 test today. it was generally an easy paper. but stupid-ly, idk why i got stuck at questions tht i've done before ytd! OMG! seriously felt so dumb when i couldn't solve th questions. i lost a total of 28marks and still counting. ohshit! thr goes my A for emaths1. shittos! :( ohwell, what done cannot be undone. what i can do now is to concentrate on my other 2subs which is ckt and dfund. one of which i just dislike - ckt! ohgosh! trying my best to lyk do th past-term test papers right now, still not bad. but... okay, lets hope what happened to ckt quiz can happen to ckt term test too. HAHAH (:

alright, my mind is kinda blank at th moment. no thoughts or another, just blank. don't lyk this feeling; hope it vanishes! :( come to think abt it, it's kinda dumb to wonder abt stuff tht is just so obvious. ohwells, i'm just random. i'm a random individual having complicated/random thoughts almost majority of th tym either i'm with company or not :DDDDDDDDDDDDD