♥ HI-LO!

You just know everything best; ♥

woke up kinda late today and gave teachers' day celebration at sj a miss today. and apparently moh and LH both didn't turn up last minute oso cos one was slping lyk a pigg and th other busy working. soyupp, ended up slacking arnd at home; wit lappy as my companion for th few hours until best called. and since both of us didn't have plans and all, decided to meet up to town. and i was late for 1hr15min. suppose to meet at 2 but i only reached at 315. tell me abt punctuality man! HAHA :>

walk-ed arnd in search of some stuff before lunch-ing graffiti cafe for pohtian wanton mee! me loves it alot! :> soyupp, walk-ed arnd and off to ion to explore. lyk seriously took tym to walk every level and all. chit chatted here and thr. small catching up session! :> sher loves this ttm too! :> and i promised best to bring her to icc and 18chefs before she leave for thailand for 1mth1wk. ohman! :<

E,C,M,KL,K,V,S ♥

off to meet some of peeps as best headed home. dinner-ed @ BEDOK85 today! food was shiok and all. laugh-ed and all. bus wit KL,K,V. we took a townlink bus; and it went one big round. laugh-ed alot though thr were speechless moments. not those dk what to say kinds, but those dk how to react kinds. HAHA! KL is definietly a joker. ohwells, company enjoyment though! LOVES! :>

and i'm staying home th whole day tmr;
i don't want mum to start nagging abt me gg home late again :<

♥ RED-LINE!

Having fun is what we know best! ♥

trial & error baking wit V and K in th early afternoon. and i spent a few moments at K's hse sleeping while they do th moulding and stuff. HAHA! >.<

arcade-ed for abt 2hours. before heading to some kopitiam opp yishun safra for dinner. and for pool over at safra. didn't really play much, but daidee-ed for abit. took pictures and off! :> meeting E,C,V,K for dinner at bedok tmr night. back to sec school tmr for teachers' day in th morning. meeting up wit a few of th girls! YAY! :>

ohyes, CONGRATS TO DARWIN for coming in 3rd for th fashion competition! :>

♥ IJ LOVE!

Reminiscence; ♥

back to IJ for family day; it was a mixture of feeling at home and a total stranger. it was a joy to see so many familiar faces and ofc laughing it out together. miss those IJ days; it seems just lyk ytd tht each of us got caught for various offences and got a pink form for it. it's just worth thinking back to those good old days :>

ohwells, apart from those memories; th carnival was kinda boring though outside vendors were brought in and stuff. but seriously, we spent most of th tym stoning. stone-d quite alot in th canteen and headed to cp for lunch. then town-ed wit joan,cindy,moh,jy,beth,yl. though beth and yl went off for din tai fung. HAHA. and yupp, got my pink havaianas!! WHOOO! E can be jealous for this! :>

off to marina barrage randomly and we waited for th shuttle bus for superr long tht th sun even set-ed. and by th tym we reached thr, it was lyk super dark alrdy. attempted to play murderer, but failed badly. and daidee didn't last long too. so we just decided to cam-whore! HAHA. photos are upp on facebook alrdy. do check it out. but pardon those unglam/spastic photos. everyone was having a bad hair day apparently. HAHA.

cab-ed to cp after tht. jy and joan left after buying bbt. then off for some heart-to-heart wit moh and cindy at some random chair at th bus interchange. chat-ed quite abit; sort of an update of ourselves basically. picturessss taken again as usual, but cam battery died on me half way. so just settled using my dear viewty, tht moh just can't take stable shots wit. HAHA. and lastly was ofc home! :>

today was not bad a day in conclusion. lots of catch-ing up. and ofc laughter! :>

♥ SOLITUDE

over th moon! ♥

today was an okay day i suppose. baking in th morning, composing hmwk in th afternoon, school in th late afternoon to meet jamine, C and E for abit before heading to toapayoh for music theory. didn't meet mayp for dinner, cos had it wit dad. oh and had a long convo wit T and A today after say a good 8mths? HAHA. major catching up! and i lyk it ttm! :>
IJ SJC family day tmr wit 4E'08 tmr. and town in th evening wit J. can't wait.

and thinking/looking at my pink slippers makes me feel over th moon.
high possibility of getting it tmr!

finally can make E jealous! HAHA!! :>

♥ HOME-Y!

home-y thursday; ♥

yes, th picture explains what i have been doing th entire day today. cos i slept in all th way until 2plus in th afternoon before i woke up. and was kinda lazy to leave th hse; so decided tht today i shall just stay in th entire day! :> nth productive today, just a matter of fact tht i watch-ed a few movies and dramas online. then txt-ed a few people. created a new collage for my lappy wallpaper. and edited a few photos. ohya, and i went for night jog today after so long. enjoy-ed th night breeze blowing against my face as i pace myself. and ofc i challenged myself to climb up th stairs instead of taking th lift after a good nice jog! HAHA! total shiok-ness! ♥

ohyes! i'm going to bake tmr!! making cornflake cookies i think. trying out a new recipe tht i found on th internet! YAY! then off to school to meet jamine for a tad bit. then to meet E and C i suppose. just for a short while before heading to toapayoh for theory lesson! might be meeting mayp at night too! :>

♥ 18-CHEFS!

All present except one;
E,C,YW,GW,YS,S,V,K,KL,M,ED ♥

last paper today, and i can scream WHOO!!! :>
met C in th morning to mugg, and V came wit cereal and bbt then ED pop by before meeting his friend. lunch-ed wit M and C before meeting J to go exam venue tgt. Dfund was kinda easy unlike ckt! ckt is lyk a " oh-shit! i totally dk how to do!" thng, but both dfund and maths is lyk " sectionA confirm full mark alrdy" thng. see th difference?

ohwells; met ED,V,C,K,KL after paper and movie-d. freak th shit out of me while watching "the ring". but apparently it not tht scary. just th sound effect i suppose. HAHA. off to simei for 18chefs after E and M came. slack-ed around. and gg into details can't explain th company of joy tht we had. but sadly WJ didn't join us : <

♥ FAINT!

tied down; & not very happy about it :<

soyupp, met J up in th morning before heading to school. wanted to get my pink slippers from NUM actually, but they neither have my size nor th colour i want. and thus E can continue making me jealous over his imba Red slippers that he bought ytd. ohwells, went singtel to reserve BB first before heading to subway then back to school. meet up wit th usuals at design to get some stuff then off to engine canteen to study. and tht was when i serioulsy freak out. cos when J showed me th past year papers, th initial questions were still do-able. but subsequently i blank-ed out. and yes, i panicked. so back to design to "de-stress".

emaths1 wasn't as bad as i thought it was. though couldn't do some questions here and there but still. confirm pass-able. but being able to score well is another story. ohwells, now i've ckt paper to worry abt and tht sucks alot. haven't really finish studying though was at school studying all th way until 8plus. guess ckt isn't my cup of tea. just suck at physics.

headed for dinner wit C,K,M,KL at tm. E dropped by. and bus-ed back home. was totally shag. oh, and thanks E for th coffee.
it kept me awake throughout th maths paper :>

♥ POST-IT!

A step closer to something nicer; ♥

study session today was over @ downtown east. and th main point was to make sure C study or shld say force him to study. but apparently everyone just got so distracted and carried away when he got inspiration for his score. ohman, spent a good hour or two "brain-storming" and at th same tym just pure slacking! HAHA.

soyupp, study session was wit C,K,V and ED today. E came to find us after his work though by tht tym ED and V have already left for home. accompanied E to get tht red pair of havanias which made me super envious. cos th pink pair tht i want doesn't have my size. and up to today, only did i realise tht my feet is actually super small. th current dupe slippers i'm wearing is a size 6. but for havanias, size 6 is too big and apparently tht brown pair, size4/5 seriously made my feet look super small. and E kept makinng fun of me! :<

emaths 1 tmr. wish me luck as i head off to bed. and my throat is starting to hurt a lil. tell me abt it. i don't want to fall sick during this exam period. ohya, before i go. a random note. i saw E 7 times this week, and there's SJC dinner tmr. and tht will make it 8 times in a row. ohman, this big brother of mine. just enjoy irritating me! HAHA! :>

♥ STONE-Y!

sth bloody happen today; sad-ed :<

just got home a while ago cos apparently i missed my last bus from hg but caught th last bus from woodlands. and ended up walking home from yck primary school which took say a good 30mins. was on th phone wit E all th way from there to th door step of my hse though. thanks for company yo! much appreciated! (:

anyways, woke up late this morning at abt 1015 when i'm suppose to meet V at woodlands @ 11. met her at amk before training down tgt though. so sorry my dear. was totally zonk-ed out from th previous night. slept lyk around 3plus4 in th morning. soyupp, chit-chatted here and there. a small ranting session for both of us actually. soyupp, tym flew quite quickly and met up wit K after her CO. lunch-ed at KFC. yes again! ohmans, so unhealthy. must start to eat healthy alrdy. where's my subway? where's my greens? HAHA!

headed to RP for our study session soon after meeting YS. and we "drumm-ed" our way to RP while walking there. i bet ppl was lyk giving those weird expression, wondering what are th 4girls doing "singing" in th middle of nowhere. as in not literally singing, but lyk saying out th drum-ing beats and stuff. reach-ed, and everyone sort of get settle-d and started studying. all was fine until sth bloody happened. lucky E and C wasn't arnd to witness! seriously. such a embarassment.

ohwells, shan't elaborate in details what happen-ed already. soyupp, V head-ed off to work while i went cwp to get some things done and ofc getting bubble tea for th girls before heading back RP. back to intense studying upon reaching, and tht was lyk arnd 5plus6 alrdy. and that was also went th girls told me they manage to wake E up! ohyupp, did i mention earlier that C didn't join us to study this morning cos apparently both E and C partied until 4am this morning, and ton for 2hours before catching th first bus home? HAHAH.

soyupp, to continue this post; E reach-ed around 8plus lyk finally. and th duration he took to travel to RP was equals th tym i took to finish a complete maths paper which consist of 8 different topics. ohwells, what's new? HAHA. studied and doddled a lil longer until about 9plus and it was when i got addicted to "dear angel by april sixth." totally pwn luh th song! i lyk! HAHA. "drumm-ed" bdazhu once before leaving for dinner.

that's about it actually. fun wit E and th girls around as usual. and i just realised. just this week alone i saw; K 5 times. YS 5 times. V 5 times. C 3 times. E 6 times. HAHA! it's lyk such a salvo peeps week! :> and i'm meeting K,V,C tmr again! YS is not joining us and i'm not sure if E's popping by though. i'm just loving it! :>

♥ WEIRD!

C.U.T.E ♥

i just bathe-d and th water is freezing cold.
i regrett-ed not switching on th heater :<

ohanyways, was wit salvo peeps th entire day today;
from th start of th day until i took bus home (Y).
was suppose to meet K and C at 11am today but i was slightly late and C was even later. it took 3person to give him morning call, to have him really woken up and stuff. how amazing. HAHA! soyupp, didn't really touch books today actually. attempted to complete my theory hmwk but failed terribly.

E came to meet us for a bit after A and V came. left shortly for lunch wit his friends, and C went lib to use th computer. A left soon after and K left wit her friends for her paper. smart C left his hp wit us unknowingly only to find out minutes before he went for his exam. HAHA. best. totally.

started raining really heavily and stuff. so V and sher decided to go engine to concourse to study cos, there's lyk usually th quiet-tess as compared to th other schools. walked all th way until blk25 and we settled. attempted to lyk really get serious work done, but we lyk only manage say 70%? we spent th rest of th 30% cam-whoring, roaming arnd engine, "drumming", and ofc doing stupid things! (:

left school arnd 5plus6 after meeting M.soyupp. and as usual, i was late for lesson.

stupid traffic! seriously dislike peak hours! :<

met up wit th rest after lesson for wanton mee and E came back to join us.

look-ed kinda different today, someone was lyk all dress-ed up.

style-d hair, formal shirt, dark jeans, leather shoes. HAHA. not bad not bad at all. HAHA.considering th fact tht most of th tym he's lyk in tee/berms/slippers/cap. HAHA.

ohwells, head-ed off to train. C and E off to clarke quay to meet their friends to club/pub; and M,K,V and sher train-ed th other direction. okay, anyways. i've got th sudden urge to go down jog now. but th tym is lyk 125am. tell me abt it, it's th 7th month somemore :X and since, a matter of fact is tht i'm in FBT attire now; FBT running shorts/singlet. i'm so in th mood. i shall wake up early to have morning jog tmr before gg off to meet V and th rest to study.
and i've got th sudden craving for tau huey!! :>

♥ PERFECT!

bestf love ♥

Met bestf up in th early after for study session @ airport! On our way there, did some major catching up lyk updating each other on our individual lives as it has been ages since i last met up wit her to chit-chat and stuff. and i find it uniquely amazing tht i've known her for 8years, and our friendship is still going strong. but it just felt as if i have known her forever.

studied here and there; and we both just got distracted. chat-ed here and there-randomly again and finally did some serious studying. cam-whored for abit and she left while i stayed a lil longer. left around 7plus8 to meet E at pasir ris for dinner.

hidden talent ♥

soyupp, met up at whitesands before heading over to ehub for mr.chicken rice. and we race-d up th escalator. as in lyk i took th escalator and E took th stairs (: but anyways, shop was closed when we reached. so walked over to another place for chicken rice! HAHA. thanks for th treat E! (: chit-chatted here and there. childhood memories brought up. i lyk! (: as we talk talk talk talk and talk even more, it was lyk alrdy nearly 11. so walk-ed to busstop.
had lots of laughter throughout dinner and stuff.

; all in all, todayy was a day of laughter+joy.
thanks to E & bestf! ♥

♥ STAYOVER-S!

yet-to-be-name! ♥

YESTERDAY; all was there to add in tht lil amount of joy! ♥
E,C,YW,GW,ED,V,K,YS came to stayover.
couple of words to summarize; GREAT COMPANY! (:

♥ JOY-S!

ENDLESS SMILES! ♥

TODAY; sher was kinda reluctant to drag herself to school for dfund/emaths/ckt make-up plus revision lesson. and while on th bus, sher's ckt lab tutor called her to inform tht ckt session will be cancelled which will thus leave sher a whole hour of doing nth while waiting for YS to end lecture! day was kinda bore until later part when met up wit E for a bit. and as quoted by him; "MY MARVERLOUS STORY!" haha. full of crapp and stuff. made me laugh lyk there's no tmr. it all started when i started wit his "gf-s" storryy, and someone just had to come out wit sth else! HAHA! (:

MORAL; ♥

so as stated in th pictures above, th moral of th story is tht

" ERIC IS A FLIRT. E LIKES TO MAKE ME=sher DIE!" :X

th story was kinda funny and all, doesn't really make sense actually,
but made me laugh lyk crazy.

YS, YY and her friend joined later; more laughters was introduced!!! YAY! I LYK! :D

oh and then head-ed to yishun to study wit; Ed,V,K.

walk back home was scary, thanks D for th company! (:

YOG 1YR COUNTDOWN; ZINGO PERFORMANCE! ♥

back track a lil; FRIDAY; down at padang to watch zingo's performance as well as to witness th 1year countdown of YOG. everything was good until sth happen-ed, that made me tear-ed in public. ohwells, things are fine as it is now. thanks for that long chat on th phone E! much appreciated :D

WEDNESDAY; off to airport straight after school to pick cousin stanley and his family up plus sharon who's going to return to ny very very soon. went wit dad, and off to their apartment which was located at somerset. settle-ed down a lil, and went walking around town area before heading to chinatown to find aunty wendy for dinner. ohwells, it's good to have overseas relative over at sg sometyms; everythng just get paid for. WHOOOOO!!!!!

anyways, random for now; i've made up my mind to leave for awhile. i've set aside tym for myself to do some thinking, and i've thought it through. don't ask me why i've came up wit such an abdrupt decision, even though many of you thought tht i was just hanging by th thread. and hopefully, i'll be back on fire lyk i was last tym. but, it's just a sad fact tht need to be face-d. haven't really spoken to any of you about this decision that i've made. but somehow or rather, it's difficult. but i'll stay firm onto th decision i made. i shld say that now is just not th tym. yet. i need tym to adjust. mayb i'm just too comfortable.

♥ NAPPS!

chains of long words ♥

just came back from supper wit darwin, edo and kenneth @ ave8 (:
manage-ed to catch th last bus!

not going to post th other grp pic wit kenneth, cos it's not very nice plus ken was th one moving and stuff! hahah! so yupp, supper was fun today. talk-ed abit here and there; laughters as usual. and up to today then i realised that i'm actually quite "platium 1" regarding church stuff alrdy. lyk sort of long never talk to th churchies alrdy! ohwells. and sth learnt today; darwin's qoute: " Randomness sprouts conversation. being confident=can be random!"
YAY! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

; school was alright today i guess. kinda slack actually. all i did was; wrtoral submission, dfund make-up class and ckt lab. i seriously need to buck up on my ckt theory. it's lyk i'm okay at lab, always merely almost full marks. but in theory it's lyk down th drain. going to force myself to study and memorize all th formulas. and ofc trying my best to uds th concepts and stuff. SHER! GOGOGOGO! i can't afford to let this particular module pull my GPA down. cos my other modules are okay! or shld say, i'm quite confident in!

and th girls; J,M,S & i went for th rice walk thngy before lunch-ing today! 2rounds only though. M and i pose-ed for th camera man!!! HAHAHAHA. hilarious. okay, i'm done here! more posts soon! (:

♥ LONG-DAY!

sher累了!

today was a long day for me though school officially ends at 12pm. cousin stanley and his family arrived in singapore this afternoon, and was wit them all th way from 2plus until lyk kinda late. just reached home not long ago. really tiring to be walking walking and more walking just around town, when a matter of fact is tht i don't really knw how to converse wit them. ohwells, had wanton mee and vietnamese food today. and i'm so sorry C for ps-ing you way before you reach airport. really really sorry.

anyways, justa few days back i came about th realisation abt some stuff and i'm here to rant it out. but after reading, please don't ask me anything. cos i don't think, i'll tell anyone abt it plus, if th person that i'm referring here reads it, i don't think he/she will even knw that i'm talking about him/her. cos sher being sher; is very good in keeping and covering emotions! ;

th ranting shall start now;

i guess as much this will happen from th moment i decided to once again rekindle this thought inside me. cos at least thr was a glimpse of hope here and there. and having th thought in mind that, mere contact was more than enough to bring me through th day. but later, i found myself falling deeper into it. and i start to question myself if this is what i really want. and mayb i was just not good enough. cos comparing my assumptions, i was nowhere nearby.

and i guess right now, i'm tired of making excuses to make myself feel better. cos th feeling sucks lyk mad. lyk totally to th max. i want to try to isolate myself from th entire situation tht only i am aware of, but on th other hand. i can't bring myself to. and this i have to be honest to myself. i can't let this cycle of self-decieve-ing go on and it seems lyk no end. i can't see whr i'm leading myself to. i hate to admit tht i'm kinda lost now. one part of me is telling me to just move on; act as if i'm totally comfortable. but th other part of me is telling me to just hold on to it; cos there might be a finishing line to it.

confuse-d. idk what to do. idk who to talk to. i've attempted those countless long busrides, that allow myself to do some serious deep thinking; but it don't seem to work anymore. somehow, i feel tht there will be a day whereby you'll come straight to my face and tell me to shut th hell up. and just mind my own business; and not to be a try-hard tht you dislike. i'm trying to shut myself up to. it's lyk, i even tried to isolate myself from th hp. lyk just totally ignore. but there's always this weird feeling. idk why. me myself oso dk. and this suck even more. not knowing yourself. so much for self-assurance.

i'm starting to wonder if i practice what i preach. it's lyk i'm giving advices to people who situation i'm in before, but i'm not doing it. sometyms, i feel lyk giving myself a super hard tight-slap across th face, to wake myself up. cos it's seriously tym for me to clear up this big mess tht i've gotten myself into.

♥ DINNER TREATS!

company of endless joy & laughter! ♥

school was as per normal today, just tht i really had difficulty waking up this morning. totally shag to th max. idk how many tyms E shouted into th phone just to make sure i'm awake. HAHA. but thanks for th morning call though! (:

so anyways, th hightlight of today was dinner wit E, C, WJ, K & YS! went to meet C, K and YS first at business, as we slack off our tym while waiting for E and WJ. completed quite a bit of final report which is due on thursday. K and YS was studying. WJ came to join us shortly, and obviously E was th latest! HAHA! and guess what, wit th help of K and YS, both E and WJ had their hair tied up! WHOO! (:

HAHA! alright, soyupp; slacked around for abit before deciding to leave and stuff. can't really decide whr to settle down for dinner though. and C suggested tht he should just lead th way, but apparently he made us walk a big round and lost his way. he even attempted to call his friend to ask whr's th exact location can. and guess what, th so called "korean-food" thingy was just at th basement! HAHAH. joke of th day man, seriously. anyways, settled down at BBQ CHICKEN!! (:

took quite a long tym to decide what to eat. or should say i took a very long tym to decide! HAHA. didn't really have th appetite and stuff. but still ordered though. and sitting opposite E is a joke. he ate his "original chicken" lyk eating KFC chicken! and his attempt to use fork/knife to "cut" th chicken failed, and ended up using his hands! HAHA. super funny. and ohya, th pics above this right, E came up wit a story!

(fish) seniors/juniors still not very comfortable wit each other; cos everybody still new. & that explains why all so straight.
(chicken cutlet)seniors/juniors starting to loosen up and start to talk and stuff. that explains why abit clutered alrdy.
(black-pepper chicken)seniors/juniors very comfortable wit each other. and talk/play and stuff. that explains why got sauce whereby everything mix tgt!(:

kinda funny actually, but sorta made sense! HAHAHAH.

in th midst of dinner; crap-ed, crap-ed and crap-ed somemore. it's lyk laughter after laugher after laughter. talk-ed about alot of random stuff, and discuss-ed about what movie we're gg to watch during th stayover at my hse on th 18th. everything's kinda plann-ed out alrdy. but sad to say, E and YS have to go school th nxt day :( ohwells, i'm still excited for it! it's in one week's tym! WHOO! (:

then somehow, everyone was in th take-photo mood. so we just take take take take take take take. and luckily my dear viewty is super guai today. resolution and quality of pictures taken is not bad at all (: ohya, somethng random here for a bit. E knock-ed into th hanging lamp twice within th duration of th dinner when he stands up! HAHA. damn funny, and he keeps apologising to th person there. HAHA. oh anyways, slack-ed abit. and started playing some chinese words game thngy randomly. to sum it up? i think E's chinese is th "best" man!! HAHAHAHAHA :D

bill-ed and off for grp shots again after E went off to meet his friend. and guess we spent a good half-an-hour or so, taking photos even after E left. HAHA. we just stand there and spammmm. and tht's th reason why i've decided to put all th photos in anigif instead of posting each photo as itself. if i did tht right, i think this post will never going to end! HAHA. soon after, decided to go walk around since C was looking for wallet. but ended up spending money on a top from topman! (:

picture taken when C was trying out th top in th changing room, which seems forever! HAHA.

; to sum up th entire day - HAPPY;JOY;LAUGHTER!

though was actually kinda moodless throughout th day and stuff, but this seriously brightens up and lightens up my dad. apart from th convo i had wit E in th morning on th way to school. but ohwells, th only thng i can say is tht, wit this grp of company around; that's when you see th colours in your life! ♥

post update about today soon.
not really in th mood and stuff;
cos i don't feel myself. moodless. expressionless.
don't knw what's wrong.
i need a breather. i need to let it out.
i need to cry.
and this sucks totally.
mayb i'm just clueless about myself.

♥ NATIONAL DAY!

• Time check: 2 13 AM
• Day: Monday.
  

great company! ♥

so much for being patrotic, and a singaporean uh. majority in black. or shld i say R and YS were th only two that weren't in black today! HAHA(:

FIRST thing up was over at tampines central park whereby we watch-ed th seniors perform! as good as always, at least for me. and i'm really sorry for being late today. lyk made K, YS and PS run since salvo was lyk gg to start to perform and stuff >.< anyways, helped to move th drum stands and all; back to school to slack wit th seniors until abt 1115, before heading to carl's jr for lunch. picture above is not th full grp cos some of th seniors left for home, some for performance and etc. soyeah, but nevertheless, they were great company. lyk lots of laughter and stuff. can't wait man, think they are lyk planning a chalet thingy this coming hols!!! WHOOO!! (:

SLICE; dessert! ♥

head-ed off to town wit YS and K after tht to meet V to shop around! (: had dessert at SLICE before walking around. YS left early when i was putting my silver strips hair extentions, which prolly just took a few minutes or so. K did th same too though! (: lyk finally, i put it after so long of indecisive-ness! was considering to put more and stuff, cos it's lyk 4strands isn't that visible actually. HAHA. ohwells. shop-ed around before heading over to paragon. went muji and didn't find what i wanted. sad-ed, so end up just getting milk tea from there. walk-around before heading for K's house. was a total change of plan. initial plan was to lyk catch fireworks display at marina, but apparently too many ppl arldy. soyeah. bus-ed over to woodlands.

lots of love! ♥

TON-ED quite a bit here and there. more of chatting than anything else actuali. watch-ed snakes on plane as well as SI auditions that set all of us laughing our ass-es off some really ridiculous performances! HAHA(: crap-ed here and there before leaving for dinner/supper at some coffeeshop. where we really did some chit-chat sessions. not much of a heart-to-heart. but at least, th conversation did make us get to knw each other better and all. YAY! (:

kway-chap! ♥

KWAY-CHAP-ED for dinner/supper. and had a heart-warming conversation wit both V and K. chatt-ed quite abit until about 11plus, before V and i decided to head home and stuff, if not we'll miss th last bus home. but end-ed up train-ing instead. was really glad to share wit V things that i never thought i would. but sharing those things, really do make me think back upon alot of things. alot of things that had happened, of which some that i regretted not putting in more effort to change th situation/circumstance and all. ohwells, lyk what i told V. along th path, there will always be falls/trips that we'll come across that will definitely hurt; but through this experiences and falls, it forces us to stand up once again, and tht is when we learn. though it will be tough. but we just have to persevere on and when we look back, we'll find it all worth it. lyk what th saying goes, what doesn't make you fall, makes you stronger!

it sets me thinking once again tonight, about this 20% that i've always been trying to avoid. but recently, i realised that not only am i living in it, i am lyk trying to run away from it. false fronts become sth that is habitual to me. hiding from it seems to be sth that i'm getting a hang off alrdy. and tht isn't sth tht i want to portray. it's lyk i've been doing alot of deep thinking recently, be it randomly or whatsoever. i'm lyk getting myself stuck. stuck in this mess that i've created myself. i see myself falling deeper inside. but truely and deeply, i knw tht it's a one-sided thng tht i'm facing. i've to learn how to protect myself. too much deep thinking is not good. ohwells, i guess i'm just not good at words. th mind works in a way whereby i'm totally speechless.

overnight-ing at airport cancell-ed today cos J have sth on tonight.
sad-ed ttm, cos if tht's th case;
i've to wake up super early tmr just to make my way over to tampines.
if's thts th case, i'm not sure if i'll sleep tonight.
considering th fact tht i woke up at 3pm today
and i can't decide if i shld make my way down to bedok to meet th rest to study.
cos apparently, dk what tym J have to leave and dk what tym B and th rest are studying until.
if i make my way down now, it's lyk not here and not there! HAHA!
i'm kinda lazy to leave th house right now ;
but if i don't go and study wit them, i'm not sure if i'll hit th books ltr on my own.
plus, i'm not sure if will be meeting up wit K for prata ltr.
and on top of all this, i don't feel myslf.
and tht sucks big time.

♥ READING!

• Time check: 3 04 AM.
• Day: Thursday.

marked; betrayed; chosen! ♥

reading, reading and more reading! this few days, have been spending my tym reading a while new lot of vampyre series, and got really sucked into th book. think about this way, i spend 30$ on 2books just within 3days. not as if it's a big woohaa about me spending on books and stuff. cos 30$ is actually not alot as compared to alot of other great books out there and stuff. but my point here is that; so much for th saving scheme tht i've been working on. so much for only spending 30$ a week from th allowance i get! HAHA! anyways, i bought th 2nd book on monday and th 3rd book today! WHOOOOO!! (:

so anyway, cca training today as usual. revised here and there on th actions that we learnt on monday. and learnt more today, or shld say, we completed learning all th actions that are required in B DAZHU!. quite an achievement, but well mistakes here and there for me during last drumming. but practice makes perfect! whats more th nxt training would only be lyk during th hols in september. going to really miss training and stuff man. both th company plus th th enjoyment/challenge in learning th different drumming stuff. ohwells, time flies and soon it'll be holidays alrdy. plus, August is ending super soon. making it sound a long way to go, september is next month. but technically, it's just lyk say 3 weeks to go! HAHA! (:

dinner after training as usual, but C and E didn't join us. table was kinda quiet without C there to lyk make noise and all. but there was laughter though. lyk laugh-ed quite abit over CW's chinese. bus-ed home with ryan after that and thanks D for th company over th phone while i was walking home. was kinda freaked out as i walked back home just now actually. thuogh th path was just beside th main road and stuff, but it was super quiet. no traffic and all. all i heard was crickets. plus as always, big shady trees at night do not help much in th situation; plus th fact tht there's a man sitting in th middle of no whr on th side benches. freak-ed me out totally! actually wanted to call E. but being as nice as always, decided not to disturb as E was project-ing. soyeah! thanks D! :D

overnight movie marathon over at my place somehow settled alrdy. can't wait. and ask me why i'm still online at this tym? rushing wrtoral as always. but that's only part of th reason. i think my bio-clock is screwed. lyk seriously. it's kinda rare finding my aslp at lyk before 12 every night. unless i'm seriously very tired! HAHAHA! and thankfully, E is giving me morning call tmr. okay, toodles! (:

♥ TWIRLS!

exactly how i'm feeling now actually; abit here and abit there. it's until up to today tht i realise, i actually wanted more. it's until up to today tht i realise, how badly i wanted things to happen th way i've imagine. it is kinda heart wrenching thinking about it, but somethngs just can't be helped. for now, it's up to a point whereby, things are going on repeat. it's lyk a de javu once again. th familiar feeling is somewhat there, but somewhat not. ohsnos, i'm speaking in ironies again. this isn't going anywhr, and it isn't good at all. not a fair bit.

for things do happen for a reason, i really hope dreams come true sometyms. not normal daydreams that you imagine yourself inside. but those dreams that you usually have while sleeping and stuff. in those dreams, things just felt so surreal; it will just feel as if i'm directly in th dream, experiencing what i thought was just a dream/wish worth wishing for. but at th end of th day, it's just a dream afterall. upon waking up, it's all gone. just by a breathe. and that's that - period.

i wanted it so much, tht i found myself smiling just by having a thought of it. i wanted it so much, that i held myself back tyms and tyms again; coming up wit stupid excuses just to make myself feel better. sometyms, simple actions was all it takes to make my heart just skip a a beat. but when awkwardness strikes in, my heart really sank. attention seeking is not my forte; i want to engage but idk how. ohwells, being just me. sometyms i hope understanding will sink in. but peep-ing is all i can do i guess. i should learn to just accept it.

♥ BUS-RIDES!

happy 20th CHC! ♥

slept at 4am th previous night and woke up at 6am. tell me about it! explains why i was super tired throughout th 2 services today. and IS f&b seriously not worth paying man! it's lyk 8$ for a hotdog bun! totally LOL-ed la. but YM still bought th tuna sandwich which cost a whopping 4$. and edo bought a can of coke for 3$. dannon bought hello panda for 2.5$. and i spend 2$ on a cup of hot tea, which i think it's th onli thing tht's worth it! lyk cheap and stuff! HAHA! (:

alright, celebration was okay i suppose; th only sad fact was that i kept nodding off and all. jared hired a bus to dhouby so hitch-ed a ride, but didn't join churchies for lunch though. and J talk-ed to me today. set me thinking about alot of stuff. and coming to think of it, it's lyk in one way i've disappoint him, in one way i'm lyk bringing myself down and all. and in a matter of fact, i realise it's th choice i made tht made situation lyk this arise this day. so decided to bus home, since long bus rides always sets me thinking; deep thinking.

am now over a mayp's hse for stayover. doing nothing much actually, staying over for th sake of staying over i suppose. needa get up really early tmr. cos' i'm meeting JO at tampines before school starts as usual. and i'm having a random kinda of feeling right now. ohwells, making excuses is lyk my forte somehow. and it never fails to make me feel better. seriously. wondering what i'm talking about? just keep wondering then.

L.O.T.S

are running through my mind right now;

right decisions are vital to th direction things are going, be it any circumstances.

i was just wondering when will th fullstop come to this tedious sentence.

ohwells, speaking in ironics might be my cup of tea

but at th end of th day; i can't run away from reality.