♥ TWIRLS!

exactly how i'm feeling now actually; abit here and abit there. it's until up to today tht i realise, i actually wanted more. it's until up to today tht i realise, how badly i wanted things to happen th way i've imagine. it is kinda heart wrenching thinking about it, but somethngs just can't be helped. for now, it's up to a point whereby, things are going on repeat. it's lyk a de javu once again. th familiar feeling is somewhat there, but somewhat not. ohsnos, i'm speaking in ironies again. this isn't going anywhr, and it isn't good at all. not a fair bit.

for things do happen for a reason, i really hope dreams come true sometyms. not normal daydreams that you imagine yourself inside. but those dreams that you usually have while sleeping and stuff. in those dreams, things just felt so surreal; it will just feel as if i'm directly in th dream, experiencing what i thought was just a dream/wish worth wishing for. but at th end of th day, it's just a dream afterall. upon waking up, it's all gone. just by a breathe. and that's that - period.

i wanted it so much, tht i found myself smiling just by having a thought of it. i wanted it so much, that i held myself back tyms and tyms again; coming up wit stupid excuses just to make myself feel better. sometyms, simple actions was all it takes to make my heart just skip a a beat. but when awkwardness strikes in, my heart really sank. attention seeking is not my forte; i want to engage but idk how. ohwells, being just me. sometyms i hope understanding will sink in. but peep-ing is all i can do i guess. i should learn to just accept it.