SHER TANG HAVE TO DO HOUSEHOLD CHORES! :(

okays, as th words in bold suggests ;

yes i've to do household chores for th nxt 2weeks as Tina

flew back to philippines to attend her cousin's funeral.

gosh! i can't imagine myself doing household chores you knw !

and mayb becos' of this, i start to realise i'm actuali quite pamper-ed.

1) i've to iron my own clothes.

2) i've to wash my own clothes.

3) i've to mop/sweep th floor everyday for mamaTANG!

4) i've to wash my own cups/plates.

5) i've to slp alone for 2wks.

6) i've to wake up on my own in th morning when sch re-opens.

7) i've to wake up early when sch re-opens to make bread to bring to sch.

8) i've to return to an empty hse after sch.

9) i've to pack my own bed.

10) i've got noone to complain to abt th day when i reach home.

11) i've got noone to cook lunch/dinner for me.

12) i've got noone to slp at th same tym as me when i reach home late.

13) i've got noone to watch CSI wit me for th nxt 2 tues.

gosh! i didn't knw i was so dependant on Tina;

i can't help it, she has been taking care of me since i'm 18mnths.

okays, i promise to cherish her when she's back! :D

INFERIOR

thts exactly what i've been feeling th entire day.

it's lyk everyone is lyk comparing saying how badly they scored,

but as i compared my self to their 10+ points.

feelings of inferior-ity starts to overtake me,

and indeed i've got th thoughts of just giving up on everythng.

& as i've those thoughts hovering in my mind, i did tear.

but what can i do? who can i tell?

when i told mel how terrible i was feeling at tht point of tym,

all he said was don't get too disappointed wit myself,

and just work harder. and try harder.

but it's lyk i've worked so hard,

studied until i cried due to th pressure tht i've ; myself/parents.

mayb th expectation tht i've set for myself is way to high to wat i can achieve.

i'm drain, almost totally drain-ed.

i don't knw what to do. seriously.

i observed my surrounding,

and comfortably blend myself into those noises,

putting on those facades tht i thought was history.

okays, mayb all i needed was just a break away from these stress,

indulging myself in a tub of B&J's icecream, in front of th tv, watching kids central.

& laughing at those silly cartoons tht i used to watch.

PS: don't question/talk to me abt this post. thks !

i've got a story to tell today ;
it's abt my friend named
AVRIL aka sheck aka table aka ASmen.


okays, and this is how th story goes...

T, sheck and sher was studying at CP's mac after school one afternoon.
and as we study study study study and study somemore;
& sharmaine, who decided to give sheck a surprise
"blind-ed" her from behind when sheck was happily doing emaths.

sheck was indeed surprised. and then she started guess-ing.
"eee.. okays. who whr watch? then th hand."
"ehs, better let me go uh. if not i *bloobbloob**touches arm* you uh."
"ehs. must be lijie. *sheck then grab-ed T's hand"."
"ehs no, this is teresa's hand. hahaha"

then finally, sharmaine let her go.

she turn-ed and was indeed surprised! (:
then she started laughing lyk crazy.



THE END! (:


PS; sheck don't kill me after you see this ! :D

I'M SURE GONNA MISS EDDIE!
eddie's departing from SG soon, and i can't bare to see him leave.
it has been a good 5mths tht he has been in our CG,
and has definitely been a joy having Him around man!
& since he'd just graduated from SOT last sunday,
he'll be departing soon!!! :(
okays, here's th worst thng. i can't sent him off,
cos he'll be flying off to taiwan on a morning flight!
and i've got school in th morning!!! :(
gosh! i'm sure gonna miss eddie in th CG man.
lyk you knw, miss th tyms whr i'll go "heyo yo EDDIE!",
and then he'll flash he's big wide smile. hahahah (:
but yeah, we can still contact thru msn and facebook!!! (:

I SHALL PUSH IT TO 40HRS!
this week have a very hetic wk for me man.
and i think this week is also one of those weeks
tht i did emaths lyk crazy; papers after papers. (:
but at least i've seen improvement in my emaths! PTL! (:
soyeah, nxt wk will be one of those shiong wk for PPP in sch man.
at least for geography; okays, let me explain.
for geog PPP nxt wk will be focus-ing on PAPER1 which is physical geog.
&& what th teachers gg to do is tht,
they'll give us 2questions, out of th 4topics tested.
and th thng is we'll not be given th privellage(sp?)
to chose which question to do out of th 2.
and they are gg to give 1 question at a tym, giving us 45mins to finish each.
and if you don't finish it in th designated tym, too bad. ):
though it's kinda pressurizing, but i think it's a good form of practise;
cos lyk it'll give us practise for time management for o's papers.
&&& i've decided;
I'M GG TO PASS THIS PPP WIT FLYING COLOURS! :D

STUDY!
i told myself i cannot score 5points higher than you!!

though i've th determination and drive to do so,

but somehow i feel inferior.

i can't help but tear when i was msn-ing T just now.

is it just me ; or th stress building up?

everyone arnd me seems to be improving BUT me.

okays, mayb a facade wld help,

btw who notices? one; no mayb none.

i had a conversation wit God this morning;

it touch-ed me so deeply tht i stop-ed tearing (:

motivations. determinations. encouragements.

nth more i could ask for; He's more then enough (:

God assured me once again ;

" Even if thr's no one thr to support you,

and give u words of encouragement. i'm always here.

for now, study and put in as much effort as u knw how,

and i will perform th miracles!

A1 FOR O'S CHINESE+DISTINCTION FOR ORAL! (:
before i got th results. i had a small/short conversation wit God
during recess, when i was relevently scared ;

ME: oh God my Lord, i'm freaking out. mdm zhang just said thr's 1failure in my class,
and tht our class did fairly okays, and not fairly well. moreover, th expression on her face
was th disappointed kinda face. howhowhow? i'm reali nervous.
GOD: don't worry shermagne. put ur heart at ease. i will nvr make empty promises.
i'll give you th A1 you wanted. don't worry. since when did i lie to you.
ME: but God, i seriously do not have a good feeling abt my results. are you sure
i'm gg to attain th A1 tht i want?
GOD: do not worry my child. when i say i'm gg to give u, i will. i will nvr break my promises.

okays, so having a peace and calm mood after tht conversation.
it was lyk 45mintues to taking of results.
but much as expected, th sch drag and drag and drag over th many talks.
and soon mrs crossley took over th mic to give us an over-view of th results.
then again i had doubts and i was at th brink of tearing ;

ME: God it's nearing. i'm gg to get my results soon. but guess what,
mrs crosslet had just told us tht onli 18% of th cohort had distinction. wld i be 1 of them?
GOD: shermagne, do not have doubts in Me, your Lord. thru me,
you will get what u desire. do you have such lil faith in Me?
ME: no my God. i knw tht i knw tht i can do all thngs thru Christ who strengthens me!
God, i knw. I CAN DO ALL THNGS THRU CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME! *repeats.
GOD: always rmb, when u've put in th effort. pray-ed and confess-ed to me,
th results has alrdy been reveal-ed.

and for th nxt 15-20mins,
i just repeated "I CAN DO ALL THNGS THRU CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!"
and soon it was my turn to collect results.
tense-d, sweaty palms, freezing finger tips.
finally, results reveal-ed; i could not believe th score tht i've attain-ed.
*ran back to sit, slaps fall, face down, joys-of-tears! :D
what's more, in th class ;
thr's onli 2 A1s, 4 A2s; 15 B3s and having th rest pass-ed.
GOD WAS INDEED FAITHFUL!
GOD IS INDEED A GREAT GOD THT NVR FAILS TO PROVIDE.

EUGENE GAVE ME A STITCH!!! (:

it came to a surprise to me man. seriously. totally.

was walking to mrt/bus from CA stuff canteen after lunch when

eugene ask me if i wanted th stitch his friend got from taiwan.

at tht moment i thought he was kidding.

but th moment i reach-ed home, he sent me a file tht contain th plushie's pic.

but unfortunately, i can't seem to open it.

so i've to wait for him to reach home, thus sending it to me thru msn.

and guess what he said tht reali touch-ed me?

he said " lol. i got my friend to get th stitch for you. actuali

ask my friend to get a large one but he couldn't find. so just bought this."

I'M SO SO SO SO SO TOUCH MR EUGENE!!!!! (:

i'm tired ; but i can't seem to slp. ):

okays, rant-ings.

when th rest of my sch friends are slping in and waking up late tmr,

i've music o's lesson at nvss as early as 9am to 12pm.

which means, i'll be deprived from my beauty again.

i think th tym when i can reali slp slp slp will be lyk after o's.

oh and guess what, I'LL BE GETTING BACK MY CHI O'S ON TUES!

wow! didn't expect tym to past so so so so fast within a blink of th eye.

and on thurs, it'll be o's english oral in th afternoon.

gosh! schedule is pack pack pack to core seriously;

which means, i NEED to PRAY PRAY PRAY;

and tht explains why i'm determined to make it for every possible PM!! :D

next week's rough schedule:

1) PM at heart-of-God church on MONDAY! 7am-8am

2) MUSIC O's lesson at NVSS on MONDAY! 9am-12pm

3) DUET prac wit steph on MONDAY! 1pm

4) CGC meeting at JW on TUESDAY! 7.45pm-9.45pm

5) CHI O's result collection on TUESDAY!

6) ORCHESTRA at JW on WEDNESDAY! 8pm-9.30pm

7) ENG O's oral on THURDAY! 2.15pm

8) MATHS tution at chec on THURSDAY! 7.30pm-9.30pm

9) CG at bedok on FRIDAY! 7.30pm-9.30pm

10) MUSIC THEORY on SATURDAY! 4.30pm-5.45pm

11) SERVICE on SUNDAY! 10am-12pm

i can forsee tht nxt week's tight schedule is just th beginning.

i'll be busier as o's approaches and stress level start to build up;

and by then i think my hair will start to turn white and drop! ):

ohgosh, what's more thr's orchestra performance at chi church on 24Aug.

HAPPY 18TH B'DAY MEL!! :DDDDD

it's melvin aka mascot's bday today!! YAY! :DDDDDDDDDD

very happy and honoured to knw you as a friend man! :DDDDDDDD

your childish-ness nvr fails to put a smile on my face,

and little thngs you do nvr fails to brigthen up my day! (:

everytym i not happy or feeling down tht tym, just give u a call,

then will suddenly happy alrdy! :D

&&& u nvr fail to lend me a listening ear whenever i need one! :D

so, i just wanna take this opportunity to thank you for being SUCH A GREAT FRIEND! (:

continue to grow in and with God alright?

i believe you'll fufil ur calling of being salt and light of this world for His Glory.

don't despise and be afraid of humble beginning!

lyk u always encourage me whenever i'm down;

" have faith can alrdy. God is with you. moreover, i'm your friend,

anythng can just call me and tell me."

JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU MASCOT!

so nxt tym anythng can just give me a call man! just a text/call away! (:

ohyes, must persevere on this race you are running okays?

i wanna see you at th finishing line! :D

SHER LOVES MEL!!! :D

wanted to post photo today, but then didn't knw which one.
then was browsing thru photoucket album, found this; so decided to post lo. (:
& yeah, tht's lihui!!! :DDDDDDD
anyways, today marks th day of END OF PRELIM! :D
hahaha, tht means at least i can take somethng off my chest alrdy;
though results is another thng,
but at least i sat thru all papers, and persevered thru all th late nights! (:
prac was kinda screwed for chemistry; physics was easy.
don't knw why i wrote zinc chloride instead of calcium chloride
when i tested for calcium, and knew tht calcium was present. ):
ohwell, come to think of it it's onli worth 1mark.
soyeah, bus-ed home wit rachel Mon today again;
went straight home to watch my cantonese dramas!!!! FINALLY! :D
and guess what other than La Femme Desperado,
The Seventh Day is yet th only canto drama tht made me tear quite badly.
so far, none of th canto drama had made me cry, no matter how sad it was u knw!
ohgosh ohgosh!! if it made me touch-ed until cry until so terribly,
means it's seriously i very very very nice show! must catch man! :D
hahahaha :DDDDDDDDDD
okays, lets see.
tmr's national day celebration in sch, was wondering if i shld go.
shld i? or shld i not?


P.S: stomach have been hurting since 2 days ago. don't knw what's wrong too.
lyk sometyms not pain, then will suddenly pain. unbearable man. ):

special dedication tym again ;

♥ CLARA!
my dear girl, must continue to stand strong alright?
though i might not be much of a help,
just be sure tht no matter what happens,
you can lean on me as a pillar of support.
we've been thru ups and downs together;
and this is just another boundary for you.
you've been thr for me when i cried over th small lil thngs and
moments tht i thought i could nvr endure.
you've been my first thought when i'm down, and cried lyk nobody business.
you were one of those who i felt comfortable pouring out my heart too.
so, lets switch roles now,
having me to do whatever i can to support you.
just persevere on okays? everythng will turn out fine.
hetic is th only word tht i can think of to decribe what you're gg through right now.
th road ahead might be kinda dim, but i'm sure you're able to conquer!! :D
God will definitely make a way for you!!!
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU CLARA! ILY! (:

okaysokays,
last written paper today!!! ;
& i'm here to declare that
PRELIMS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER tmr.
papers went well today except th fact tht mind was actuali wondering off
during science MCQ. :X
hahaha :DDDDDDDDDDDDD
but overall was alright i guess; tmr will be sci prac.
and sad to say mine's th last session which is from 2pm-330pm.
kinda late though, but at least i get to wake up later.
seriously need to catch up wit my beauty sleeps,
eye-bags are getting heavier due to th minimal amt of slp every night.
th cause of late studying for prelims. ):
come to think of it, it's kinda hard to believe tht
i onli got an average of 3hours or less of slp everyday, but yet i survived thru 2weeks.
THANK GOD for tht man.
how true can it be when th bible says;
"Man shall not live bread alone, but every word tht comes from God."
PTL man!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
ohyes, i'm kinda desperate to watch movies NOW!!! NOW!!! NOW!!!!
no particular reasons, but yeah. just wanna catch one.
anyone kind enough to acc me? hahha.
shld be catching MNE2 with either jas or yp or both on fri. (:
YAY! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
okays, updates soon!

this post is specailly for

♥ JOYCE aka JOYFULS!

joyce! even though i might onli knw you for 2-3mths,

and might not knw what you're gg thru;

th hurts, rejections, fears, insecurties, anxieties,

but i just wanna let you knw tht I'M ALWAYS HERE!>

i might not be th best listener tht you would ask for,

but at least, i'll be able to have my ears open for u to rant! (:

DON'T WORRY BE HAPPYALRIGHTS?

i read ur latest blogpost,

saying tht u feel drifted away from God,

and that u miss those tyms when you have an intimate r/s wit Him,

and reali yearns for such an encounter wit God once again,

and reali reali hope that once again, you can rely on God's strength.

i knw that sometyms you might feel tht thngs tht happen arnd you

does not turns out to be what u expected and all;

&& that is th tym when u start to question God, "why is this happening?"

joyce, always rmb tht whatever tht you're gg thru,

be it th good thng/bad thngs, God always has His reason for thngs to happen.

and mayb sometyms u might feel tht God has forgotten you as His daughter,

but in th Bible, God promises us in isiah 49

tht He've alrdy carved us on th palm of His hands, and will not forget us.

you just have to persevere on bravely;

and believing that God will eventually bring you thru this!!!! (:

and always always always rmb,

every valley tht u walk pass, will reach a submit eventually.

so, at this point tym for you,

it might be at th narrow ways of th valley,

but i believe as tym passes, u will reach ur submit!!!

and breakthru will be coming your way!!

JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JOYCE!!!

okays, lets see.
past few days was lyk study-ing study-ing study-ing.
but thanks to CHICKEN ESSENCE that mum nvr fails to prepare every morning,
i'll sort of don't feel sleepy when doing th papers.
anyways, an outline of th papers tht i've sitted for so far ;-

1) ENGLISH P1/P2 : average?
2) SOCIAL STUDIES : screwed.
3) EMATHS P1: manageable.
4) CHEMISTRY: average? shld manage a pass.
5) GEOGRAPHY P1: average? shld manage a pass.
6) LITERATURE : manageable.
7) EMATHS P2: screwed.
8) PHYSICS : manageable.

okays, thr's still science P3 and human geog tmr plus sci prac on thurs.
i'm praying very very very very hard, tht i'll score for th remaining papers man.
at least, it'll help to pull up my chem/geog P1 which is jus a maginal. ):
STUDY STUDY STUDY!
IT'S JUST A MERE 75DAYS TO O'S 1ST WRITTEN PAPER!


P.S: thts melvin aka mascot! :D notice th height difference!
okays, i'm short! ): hahah. he's a good friend to rant to man!
and he's a GREAT friend! :D hang out soon alright? :D

i feel kinda empty now, cos i haven't been to church this wk.
was intending to go for FOP today since wasn't able to go for friday's and sat's one.
but th sick spell just have to work on me at this point of tym. ):
was down with fever ytd; but PTL is gone this morning.
ohyes, it was a fun tym wit mascot and gang on friday,
though i might appear to be a lil listless. sorry guys.
but yeah, reali hope melvin lyk his gift/card!!! :DDDDD
hang out soon alright?? :D

P.S: that's damien! &yeah, he's reali a good friend to talk to man!! :DDD
haha. ohyes, go get a new hp soon alright! i miss text-ing you!!!!

i feel terrible NOW!!!

1) when i woke up, no voice seems to come out from my voicebox.

2) my throat hurts very BADLY!

3) head-spinning lyk as if i just woke up from a worse nightmare.

4) my nose is block and i have difficulty breathing.

5) my ears block TOO; i can't hear properly.

6) i can't taste ANYTHNG; everythng taste tasteless.

okays, how bad can it be man; tell me abt it! ):

physically; mentally drained

but thr's still prelims gg on nxt wk,

which means having less than 3hours of slp everynight again.

GOD I NEED HEALING!!! GOD I NEED STRENGTH!!!!