♥ THAT'S IT?

through th quiet tyms these few days, what i realise and what i notice brought everythng to an end i suppose. th important-cy tht you've taken into account by just simple things that you always do is a clear message that was brought across; to me at least. but somehow or rather, what i felt was as if it's lyk a long long long long story that was left untold and left unknown by many. mayb you were just not sensitive enough to at least notice somethng wasn't right wit me, or thngs were just plain and simple as it is. sometyms i do wonder if things you told me were really things that you really wanted to tell me, but not just out of pure courtesy. i can't make myself believe or think of thngs that are right smack at th back of my mind. mayb afterall, i was just another friend, another friend that you wanted to get over with. i was an irritant. i got th message now i hope. and yes, i will shut up. and ofc, i think you wouldn't even notice and ofc i wouldn't dare to think you would even ask. yes sher, just shut th hell up!

blogging yet again using hp!! :>
Hahah, lazy to switch on lappy since it's just so convenient!! so well, slept until it was time to get reading for work. work-ed closing today!! Fun fun fun but tiring as usual. and at work today i made a drink and serve it!! whoooo!! Happy much plssssss :> tmr is going to be a long day yet again, but doing somethng very meaningful. You guys will find out what isit soon luhh okayy?? Hahah. Will have a detailed blogpost abt it very very very soon!! :>stay tune for nxt weeeeekkkk!! :>

♥ TIME-OUT!

If time can slow down; how nice? ♥

work from 12-6 today. when thr's customers, all just keep coming. when thr's no customers, minutes seems lyk hours! HAHA! :> was late for work today for say a few minutes cos 139 took forever to come.\ lucky-ly shop wasn't busy when i reached. if not wilfred and shah wld have just slaughtered me thr! HAHA. was a enjoyment working wit th rest of them today :>

salvo was okayy ytd. didn't really do much though. learnt th front part of xuan only. then spent th rest of th tym stoning/slacking/talking to yuanwei and a few others. dinner-ed and then bus-ed wit cheryl and amanda. found a new route back ytd, and it's gg to be th route i take back whenever dinner is at cpf alrdy. cos i won't miss my last bus anymore. cos th last bus from serangoon interchange to my hse is at 1245! YAY! :> hk-drama-ed abit when reach home. then chatt-ed abit on th phone until it's tym for both of us to slp! :>

wells, thr's work tmr. then piano. ohman, i just rmb-ed. i need to get stuff from spotlight prolly before th weekends. thr's alot of things to be done! time, why are you slipping away so quickly? after this coming wk, i'm gg to be super busy wit chalets,camps,workshop and all. i'll see how i can update this space wit photos lyk always kayy?? :> miss me plssssssssssss.

♥ SELF-LOVE!

It's good to do some self-praiser sometyms; ♥

day was good today cos it started off wit movie-ing. it has been a super long tym since i last catch a movie man. think th last show was PROPOSAL wit V. and that's that. so yupp, met wj for WHITEOUT today. show was not bad, just tht got some parts, my heart seriously almost drop out. and all wj did was laugh at me. super anyhow, but ty alot for th jacket and your arm tht i grab so hard when th scary parts came. HAHA! :> walk-ed over to millenia walk to find K. chit-chatting on th way thr was nice! and yupp, just slack-ed and waited until K ended work. walk over to suntec to find KL before dinner-ing at subway@raffles city. by then wj went off to find his friend alrdy.

and well, i think it's kinda a norm for me to get what i'm getting now alrdy. lyk i don't miss not getting it back, and i don't wait for it to come lyk stupid-ly anymore. what i gave, it's really what i feel alrdy. but i uds th fact tht what i feel is not necessary-ly what you feel. i don't want to be a pest. come back to find me when you feel lyk it, idk how long i'll wait. but for now, i shall just stop being an irritant. i guess, by now you guys must be wondering what i'm typing abt right. but i'm not gg to tell you :>

♥ MESS-Y!

Sometyms it's just pure silence; ♥

today was k session wit E,C,M,MP,RH,YS,V,K. a total of 9 person squeezing in such a small room. but was nice and all, especially during those high-high songs and duet songs. kinda fun. head-ed off to bugis for dinner after that. wj drop-ed by. arcade-d abit, didn't really play only watched. and yupp, had a mini-catchup session wit wj while th rest were playing. HAHA! sher lyks it! :>

short post for today. dk what to type. not really in th feel, cos i still feel bad abt what happen-ed just now though idk if it's my fault or not. meeting wj in th afternoon to catch a movie i suppose, then to paper-market to look for some stuff, then to meet K and YS for dinner. yes, that's my life so far. busy, but it's gg to get even more busy come october! :>

♥ K CUISINE-ING!

one of those sundays, that i slept in all th way until 3pm before waking up. woke up wit a few miss calls and messages. found it quite amazing how i manage to slp through of them when my hp was on my bed all th while since last night. HAHA. it turn out to be quite a norm falling aslp next to my laptop this few days, cos i have been watching gossip girls through until th wee hours of th morning.

dinner-ed wit mayp at some korean restuarant located at chinatown today to have a somesort belated bday celebration for her. food was not bad, but a tad bit expensive. photos taken using her camera, so shall ask her to send me when she's online. am craving for ice-cream. but look at th tym now. 2:07am! HAHA. and well, am looking forward to more stayovers at mayp's hse soon! YAY! :>

k session wit th few usuals tmr. will only be working for 3days this week. and yes, i'm gg to meet WJ up to movie soon! can't wait. just chat-ed wit him on msn not long, he just went offline though. man, seriously missing him man. ohwells, shall plan some group dinner again since he didn't come by tht tym. okay, off to gossip girl again. shall blog again tmr.

♥ 17/18 SEPT '09!

Sometyms random-ness goes a long way; ♥

FRIDAY.A good yet tiring day. day was filled wit bus rides and train rides almost from th start of my day. first day at work@Bakerzin today. and i've no idea why was i posted to UEsquare of all places. need to travel wit both train and bus just to get to work. and well, work was kinda slacky today. 6hours seems to be forever. learnt quite a bit though! and wilfred praised me for th good work today! YAY! :> off for piano after work then to woondlands to meet E,C,M,KL,K,V,YS for dinner at 515 after their audition over at rp. dinner was nice; company was awesome! :>

SATURDAY. Met up wit J and M for town today after what seem lyk ages since we 3girls meet up to shop or just walk arnd. sadly S couldn't join us. was suppose to meet up at an earlier tyming but ended up meeting 2hours ltr. walk-ed arnd fareast, and thr was a blogshop bazzare gg on at th basement. M got a biker-jacket from thr. nice! then roam-ed arnd town, before settle-ing for dinner at shokudo@heeren! chit-chatted here and there. update-d each other abt what was going on since didn't really meet up since hols started. lots of fun plus laughter! :> E drop-ed by later before heading to find K after tht. took bus-ed wit J and M before gg seperate ways. timbre-d abit. then off for home.

tmr shall be a good girl and stay at home. don't want mum to start nagging abt me gg home late everyday! and i'm still wondering if i shld go work banquet during th F1 period. person contacted me alrdy. lyk just.

♥ CIRCLE-S!

How i wish things can go this way;

alright, so today was a slack-y/stone-y day actaully. pretty tired and zonk-ed out after so many sleepless nights. and seriously think i'm suffering from insomnia. and a matter of fact is tht my eyebags are really bad. need to find a day whereby i really slp th whole day kind soon man! :>

school earlier to supposed-ly revise ckt wit J and G before supp paper starts at 230. but apparently was kinda a fail-thng cos we ended up crapping and talking rubbish. YS dropp-ed by for awhile. then chat-ted for a abit when i spotted my ckt lecturer. so decided to ask questions abt impedence that drove th brain out of me and E ytd, and that was when YS went off to find her akido mates.

paper was alright i guess, lyk can pass and all. left 1-hour earlier though. but i have got a better feeling for this than for th main paper i had th last tym round. hope everythng just turns out fine. really don't want to retake this module nxt sem. so off to tm to get my working pants before heading home. home-d and slept.

went to find K ltr in th night. walk-ed from suntec area to rochor tauhuey. talk-ed quite abit today. but well, what's th conclusion over so many matters? thr ain't a need for me to change myself just because thr's someone out thr tht i can't stand. speaking when thr's a need, taking th iniative when nesscary. apart from that, i think a full-stop is all we need. agree wit this statement K ? :>

♥ OH-WELLS!

Black coffee + calculator; ♥

ohwells, as stated. th two things above became my best-buddy for th past 2days. cos apparently supp paper for ckt is tmr and i've been mugging and studying my utmost best for th past 2days. camp-ing at coffee bean for say almost practically half th day; reaching thr when th sky is bright, and leaving only when th sky is pitch black! HAHAH.

so today was th same as ytd and saturday. was over at ehub's coffee bean studying ckt. ytd was alone wit really focus productive study but went almost crazy towards th back part when i couldn't get a bit of this particular chapter. today was wit th company of E. really admire his patience sometimes, lyk explaining over and over again when i cannot get it. ohman, i must be really irritating. and if not for E, i think dinner is a sure skip for me today yet again. but he "pull-ed" me over for mr-chicken rice for dinner before more studying. and impedence is seriously such a bitch. just can't figure it out.

studied abit then slack-ed then off to take bus home. E took bus wit me today. slack-ed and chatted abit before walking me home though. nice; and sher lyks it! :> and for today, i really want to thank E alot alot alot alot alot alot alot and alot more! dk how to put it into words, but seriously greatly appreciated. will definietly treat him to a nice meal or somethng one! :>

♥ SECURE-D!

Thank you for what you said ; ♥

school-ed in th early afternoon to study for abit before ckt supp remedial starts at 2. E came down too. teh-bing treat from him before heading to LT. remedial was okay i suppose, but all th lecturer did was go thru th main exam paper, and that's it. found myself quite stupid for not knowing how to do those questions before since a matter of fact was that if i really went to practice those tutorial questions, i would have just easily just pass th paper. ohwells, all is done and i can't rewind time. anyways, really want to thank E for accompany-ing me for th supp remedial though. greatly appreciated! :>

head-ed off to dhouby after remedial wit E and J. E had to get some mat for his friend and i had papers/rub-ons that i want to get from make-with-love. soyupp, head-ed there. and finally set my hands on th stickers that i want! :> but it cost me $21.45 just for 4 pieces of stickers/papers. quite expensive to think that it's just stickers and papers. but it's really really really nice and useful when it comes to card-making and stuff, which is apparently sth tht i enjoy doing alot. E had to go centerpt to get th mat since th outlet at ps don't have, which means more tym that i have to spend in th shop. stay-ed a lil longer before gg to th busstop to meet E to bus back to sch for cca tgt since we're both alrdy late.
J head-ed home soonly after getting her bbt.

bus ride back to school was nice. chat-ed here and there, abt almost everything randomly. HAHA! was late for training today for an hour, and for tht i think i screwed th "test" today. mistakes from th starting of th score that made me freak out, and tht made me make more mistakes at th back. okay, i shan't talk abt it. just mistakes after mistakes to sum it all up. and we celebrated th september babies bday after training. and then off for dinner.

and i learnt sth new today on th way back home. bus-ed wit jiamin and senior huiying(??) today. ask-ed quite abit abt th drum that we are learning. which includes things from th meaning of scores to history abt how salvo came abt and stuff. it was enlighting i must say. interesting overall,
made me uds more abt th drum that i'm playing!! WHOO! totally loving it.

ohwells, tiring day afterall. and i think i shld stop slping at th wee hours of th morning anymore. must force myself to slp lyk earlier. if not nxt day confirm cui. alright, supp exam paper is on a thurs. studying over at downtown again,
since i seriously lyk th atmosphere.
and i'm meeting V for lunch too. E might pop by in th evening. but not sure yet.

shall end here for now. i'm super tired. eyes aren't really closing yet though.
but ohwells.

♥ DOWN-TOWN!

afraid; very afraid that you'll feel annoy-ed.

didn't meet up wit J and C for tanning today partly due to th fact tht i couldn't drag myself out of bed and also th fact tht th sun was on-off today. and apparently, we end-ed up conferencing and deciding if we're gg to meet for lunch or sth since tanning was cancelled. but while conference-ing, i actually fell aslp. yes, literally. but not for very long i suppose. cos i was just resting my hp on my ear, and using my 2arms to hug stitch! HAHA! but yeah, didn't meet J in th end, cos someone was lazy to leave hse. so end-ed up slacking arnd at home until abt 1plus before leaving th hse for downtown to mugg for ckt.

and here's th not-so-good-for-me story tht happen to me from th moment 109 reach-ed pasir ris. as in lyk th bus just set wheel into pasir ris. okay, this is what happen. when th bus was still at umc, it looked as if it's gg to rain, but it did not. so i was hoping really hard tht it do not rain until i board 89 and reach downtown. but apparently, it started raining super heavy way before it reach-ed th 89 busstop. and upon alighting from th bus, it rain-ed even heavier, and th best part was th busstop was so small that thr isn't a place whereby i can stand and hide myself from th rain. apart from this, th busstop was pack wit so many people. ohmy ohmy. and by th tym 89 arrived, i was almost totally drench-ed; wit my bag,clothes,slippers totally wet. rain water was practically dripping off me, nad a matter of fact is tht i was alrdy shivering at th busstop. anddth air-con on bus 89 was blasting. crapp! :<>

all this did not end here. having th thought tht i can finally sit down, drink a hot beverage and lyk settle down abit then study. went mac cafe, since i felt tht th studying atmosphere was actually not bad. foudn a corner, put down my bags, dry-up abit using tissue paper. then went to buy hot chocolate. when i was lyk in th mood to study all, one of th mac cafe staff came and told me tht studying was not permitted at all tyms. when apparently at tht tym, there was practically noone thr, eat;drinking or what so ever. was kinda piss actually, cos thr was another person from th nxt table who was also studying, but she wasn't chased. WTH! so, finished up my cup of hot choc and headed over to bk to mugg. and from bk, as i take random glances over to mac cafe, there were lyk soooo many people studying there can. WTH! this can really set my blood boiling, very much.

ohwells, study until abt 5plus. then YS came down find me. talk-ed abit here and there, and settle-d my breakfast-cum-lunch-cum dinner. discuss-ed abt some stuff too, and everythng is sort of finalized actually .lyk have alrdy in mind, what to expect and all. YAY! i lyk ! : >

studied abit more, until dad ring-ed me up saying tht he could pick me up. so went home earlier without meeting my aim of finishing until chap10. but chap6 is an achievement too i suppose. at least, right now. i can do questions from chap1-6!! YAY! and thr's supp remedial tmr. meeting E for lunch before tht though. alright, training starts at 6 tmr, so i guess i'm gg to spend th 2hours before tht mugging ckt yet again! wish me luck! :>

♥ IRONY-S!





& it's easier said than done.

work from 7-3 today; and it's darn tiring. lunch rush was crazy, that i felt as if i was going to faint from th nosy/unreasonable/undecisive customers to supervisors tht are unwilling to help when th rush is lyk crazy. but apart from this, work was tiring but fun considering tht i had a good tym laughing my head off doing opening wit S. alright, so head-ed home straight after work to catch-up some slp. but Ryan rang me up randomly when i was on th bus home, and we chatted for a good half hour. i lyk! :>

alright, tym for some random moments again; sth happen in th ltr part of th day today tht left me kinda stone-y. lyk th same old feeling of not knowing what to feel came back after tht phone call. mayb afterall, it's just me, me and me myself. i shld just go bang my head against th wall. and at this moment i feel lyk bungee-jumping. to clear th thoughts tht i have in my head. sometyms i really hate myself for being human; cos human speaks in ironies. perhaps, i wasn't good enough.

alone time at downtown tmr to mug for CKT supp paper. and i hope it's good!

helloooooo!!!!! <3
am blog-ing using hp right now cos i'm kinda lazy to switch on my dear lappy!! haha. ohwells, today was a slack-y day for me. woke up at abt 8 actually, to give E morning call. but to no avail, cos apparently he didn't answer. so fell back to slp. woke up at abt 10, rang E up again, and thankfully he was alrdy in school plus was on time to clock-in. then i went back to slp again!! :> and this tym round, i slept all th way until 3plus then wake up!! did some work before heading to toapyoh for for lesson. HeadKed to suntec ltr to meet M,C,K,V,Kl & MARCUS. Settled dinner and train-ed home wit mM. And thank God i catch-edlast bus home!!! .>

♥ THAT'S IT!

idk what to feel; & tht suck.

okay, so anyway. met up wit JY and LH today for abit before heading to school for training. satisfied BnJ cravings at cathay. and went seperate ways after a tad bit over at made wit love. seriously think i shld make a trip thr and mayb just spend a few hours thr choosing pretty papers, rub-ons, and to mayb gain some inspiration on card-making since quite a number of friend's bdays are coming up! :>

training was great today-at least for me; though th skin area outside th blister tht i have on my thumb sort of tear after th first full-score drumming straight after PT. PT wasn't as bad today as compared to monday though th muscleaches were almost everywhr recap-ed here and there; brush-ed up here and thr. and thr'll be sort of a test thngy nxt wk on B.DAZHU. and this tym round is without any guidance from th seniors. but well, shld be alright i guess, only a few parts tht i'm not really confident in. shall watch videos, and practice on my own!! HAHA :>

okay, apart from those above. i've just got sth tht i want rant out, or shld say make it a point to. at least i'm trying to, and yes. human speaks in ironies. so well, after this 2days. or shld i say, i'm giving myself another 2more days. after these 2days, i'm just gg to put myself on th "wait-ing list". shan't elaborate further. but even if i were to give in a couple of tyms, i shall force myself into a mindset whereby i won't be anticipating a response. and tht what i'm doing is just a form of stupidity tht i'm wallowing myself into. plus a matter of fact; i don't think th other party even take into account or putting it in a blunt way. th other party can't even be bothered. and ofc it's not a big issue either. FUCK IT! :<

♥ LONG-WAY!

was suppose to be enjoying myself at sentosa today. but my dear moh, choose slp over me. and stupid me still happily waiting at home, looking forward as th clock ticks closer to th meeting tym :< ohwells, slacked arnd at home watching cantonese drama on dvd. met V up for movie at amk in th evening. THE PROPOSAL was nice. made me tear abit towards th ending of th show. ohwells, th show was just overall nice la. and SG, pls be jealous tht i watch-ed it before you did! HAHA! (:

bus-ed over to chomps for dinner-cum-desserts. chatted alot here and there. walk-ed from chomps to 854 busstop. had a good long talk! abt almost everythng? and it's just hard to believe tht we only knw each other for 6mths! but i'm just loving it ! :> this is how IJ girls click i suppose!

alright, there's training tmr! PT's before that, and i seriously have no idea how am i gg to survive through it; aching mmuscles that cause me to walk lyk a duck! ohman! :<

♥ DRUMM-ING!

Do Re Me Fa So La Ti; ♥

marine drive-d in th early afternoon before heading to school to meet up wit V and YS. A1 bbt-ed after what seem lyk ages. then off to meet C and ED. slacked for abit in studio before PT officially start. after PT, i was lyk almost half cui alrdy. then training started. was abit blur at th beginning. but start to get th hang of it after a few re-caps. and i got distracted half of th tym. dk what got into me though, couldn't really focus and stuff. ohwells..

dinner after tht didn't really help much i guess. idk if it's th tired-ness or whatsoever. but it was until super late in th night, or shld i say early morning th nxt day that made me cheer up. at least a lil; SHER SUCCESSFULLY GOT INTO ESC!!! :> was happy and all.

♥ INTERVIEWS!

Interlink-ed; ♥

met up wit my dear girl in th morning at serene center for a job interview that end-ed quite adbrupt-ly. can't stand th way th boss talks, and even if he offers th job, i think i won't take it up! okay, so we bus-ed to cityhall in search of eating good food. but ended up buying youtiao from food republic near convention center and ock at suntec. HAHA! walk-ed arnd, and soon it became sort of a job-hunting session. walk-in interview at bakerzin seem to be a confirm job alrdy. though th pay is quite low. but well, i quite lyk th atmosphere there! :>

bus-ed to simei for 18chefs. but we took th super long way. which is bus from cityhall to marine parade, hoping tht teoheng had space, so tht we can k. but apparently it doesn't, so bus-ed to pasir ris then train-ed to simei after tht. HAHA! 18chefs was kinda empty today. but we still had our meals there. chit-chatted here and there, but realised tht it just revolves around th same old topic! HAHA! taiko-ed a lil after tht. then home-d! :>

♥ F-it!

cried on th way back while walking tht dark route back from th back busstop. brave-d it thru tonight without calling anyone to accompany me; lyk over th phone. but was totally freak-ed out first by th grp of bangalas drinking under th block near th dark-glass-painted kindergarden, then by th out of th blue sneeze under th block out of nowhere, then to th smoking china man walking at th shelter, and then tht rat tht ran out out of nowhere, then to cockroaches tht crawl-ed pass th tip of my slippers down th slope; all freaked th shit out of me. lyk literally. was in a state of shock tht i stone-d for say a good 10-15mins upon reaching home.

ohwells, today wasn't a good day for me. just screw that! :<

♥ LAZY

slept practically th whole day today, and tht makes me a good girl today too. cos i stayed home th entire day, and today was th one of those rare days tht you see both bro and i home tgt at th same tym. cos usually it's either i'm out, or he's out or both of us are out. soyupp, tht practically explains my day. and hp's been quiet today too. feel kinda werid though. deep thinking at this moment is just not necessary.

ohwells, i'm meeting best tmr. mayb K for dinner at night. and tht's it. can't wait for next week, cos training is finally starting!! :> didn't drum for say 1 month alrdy. lyk literally hold dumsticks, and stand in front of a drum and drum. HAHA. if you get what i mean. okay, idk what to blog abt alrdy. lets hope saadiah get back to me for working schedule. and ka-chings! cos at th rate i'm spending, i'm gg broke soon!

and wait; bro's passing me his hp this friday if nth goes as plan-ed. can't wait. finally a qwerty keypad phone. i'm seriously kinda bored of touch screen alrdy. YAY! :>