♥ TRAINS-OF-THOUGHTS.

lots have happened over th past wk(s). & really set me thinking abt alot of thngs. i was just wondering how come thr's a need to accept ppl for who they are when in return, they portray a fact tht they don't accept for who you really are. mayb a life of a puppet is just th way it is. ohwells, i'm just complicated. ppl don't really uds my thoughts, and i've alrdy learnt to accept it.

alright, enough of those random thoughts. during th past 2weeks, got back quiz results and it is as follows;
digifund: 15/20
ckt:31/50
engine-maths:16/20
wrtoral presentaion:A
was kinda taken aback when i got back ckt quiz. cos' it's lyk when doing th quiz, i was alrdy stuck at th first question. moving on to th 2 diagram questions, all i did was just throwing in formulas, not even sure if i was using th correct formulas. but ya, i still managed to pass, even though thr was a total of 60% failures. and th second was wrtoral presentation; lyk some of u guys knw, i was really nervous even way before it was my turn to present. i didn't expect myself to get a "A" cos i seriously did fumble alot in th process.

what more can i conclude? i really thank God for rewarding me wit such good grades. it really give me a very good start to yr1.1 despite th fact tht thr was alot of ups and downs along th way. it's really true wat th bible says, "what you do in silence, when your Lord God sees it, He will reward you openly."

on a random side note; i really feel insulted when ppl look down on my capabilities. and i don't lyk to be compared to ppl who appear to be more capable than me. it's an insult to my intelligence. do not judge me just because of what i appear to be. & if you think you're far better off than i am, why not proof it by actions, and not by words. at least i'm able to show tht i'm capable to score in minority, not lyk you boasting abt sth tht majority can score in. think abt it. it all just shows tht you're a loser.

♥ CHICKEN LITTLE! (:

picture of th day is taken after ckt lab today! (: kinda random how to photo was taken. it all happened during break, and th entire grp was at ITAS having lunch. then junwen and bryan was taking photo. wanted to "intrude", but then failed to. HAHAH (: so ya, requested to take when ckt lab ended ! (:

alright, lets see what happened today. lessons was alright today i suppose. but lyk not alot of laughter. put up a facade of cheer-y attitude, though i knw i wasn't wat i am portraying. how ironic. ohohoh, i saw eric in sch today!!! so happy. okays, it's kinda random i knw! but you knw, i'm a complicated individual tht me myself kinda don't really uds myself fully, and i kinda doubt some ppl who say they actuali do uds me. ohgosh! this is lyk a messed up jigsaw puzzle. HAHAH!

sch ended at 5 today. bus-ed to macpherson before changing bus to go to kovan to meet bettina and richard for chcc visitation. today wasn't really exactly a good day to visit though. cos of th weather and all. th kids are oso falling sick! ohgosh! not forgetting th fact tht both bettina and i are both sick too! :( visitation ended at arnd 8plus, went over to gardens to find bird! totally miss her lyk crap mans. it has been a long tym since i really sat down to do some catching up! MISS IT SO MUCH MANS ! :(

okays, a random side note; chatted wit bryan over msn just now.

felt what he say was kinda true;
"people dont know what they have, until they lost it." recently have been experiencing things tht i've nvr had experience before, not ever once. and really felt kinda weird and was seriously wondering how come i'm th only one being treated differently as compared to th rest. even a bystander agree wit th statement tht i just made. if it all seems so obvious, maybe he's th only one tht is being oblivious to whatever he's doing and the resultant of th causes. i've tried my best to just ignore th entire situation, but it's really kinda hard for me to totally shut a person totally away from my world/life. but i'm just human, it's really tough to be th happy person always. swallowing everythng deep down and just burying it till noone but myself can see.

DOES IT REALLY PAY TO BE THIS NICE?

♥ NEW CHAPTER!

JOJO;SHER - (:

picture of th day taken during dfund lab today! (: was sort of a random shot, cos i was kinda not in th mood to listen to th first few explaination on th challenging question part, then felt lyk taking photo! HAHAH(:

alright, day was not bad until got back maths quiz result. 16/20. though i sort of alrdy expected it, but was still disappointed. cos it's lyk i knw i could do better and all. it's lyk tested topics are topics tht i've alrdy learnt before! STUPID SHER! :( i knw it's lyk kinda stupid to think such thngs, cos others did worse than me and i shld just be contented wit th score i have which is a on-th-dot "A". mayb it's just th expectation tht i have for myself. ohgosh! i'll make sure i'll do better nxt tym !! :DDDDDDDD
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okays, random again. i'm currently feeling hungry. but at th same tym don't feel lyk eating ehs. clever me stupid-ly just ate some vegetables just now. HAHAHA. &&& i can't stand my voice. it's lyk croaking frog la. oh, i'm excited ! tmr thr's CCA, which means, we'll learn new strumming beats, and which means, i think i'll laugh even more when i see kelvin and eric! OHGOSH! but i lyk! HAHAHA :DDDDDDD

♥ RIGHT DECISION! (:



Pic of th day taken wit Moh 2wks back at cine hkcafe.(: really really miss her alot mans, it's lyk both of us th schedule don't match. totally. it's lyk i've got cca on monday and wed. and supposedly out meeting day- tues, became her cca day! gosh! how difficult to meet up mans! sad-ed :(

alright anyway, on a lighter note. SALVO really made my day today! (: though it might be kinda tiring for me since sch ends at 4, and cca starts at 6. but i feel tht th 3hours of drumming paid off really well. i'm starting to get th momentum and all alrdy, PASSION COMES NEXT I SUPPOSE! (: was really fun during salvo today. kelvin was th "teacher" to guide us for th new strumming beat, and trust me. he's really very funny. it's lyk i see his face alrdy want to laugh lo. then all 4 of us who are under him, plus song leng, keep on making fun of him la. keep saying tht he's bi and all. damn funny. I LYK! (:

CCA ended at arnd 930pm. washed up and waited for th seniors as they have their de-bried and headed to opp sch to have our dinner tgt. during dinner, it was damn funny. me and kaleryn keep on laughing cos of wat chiawei, eric, marc and clement say. really had a great tym laughing and chatting wit them mans! (: & thr's this particular convo b/w kaleryn and chiawei tht made me laugh until i seh. it's super classic la! (:
K: ehs chiawei, you cantonese, hokkien or teochew?

chiawei: huh? i'm free thinker!
everyone bursted out lauhing la. chiawei's expression/reaction was priceless! HAHAHA. &&& eric still dk how to spell my name can. wth! HAHAHAH.

ate until abt 11plus, and decided to bus-ed down to tamp int to catch th last bus home. but dad was fetching me. soya, just acc them back to bus int. alright, lets see. th short trip from sch area to int was damn entertaining. it's lyk clament and marc was acting gay, and th rest of us kept shouting for them to kiss ! HAHA. and guess wat, MARC KISSED CLAMENT ON TH NOSE! damn gay la. all of us practically can't stop laughing lo. it's lyk. OMG la. and i was lyk sitting just right in front of them!!! OMG! HAHAHHA.

alright; so in conclusion SALVO IS SUPER HAPPENING!

random side note; i'm having a running nose right now. it can't seem to stop! my throat is feeling super irritated, and i've no idea why. okays. i think i'm really ill alrdy. period. :(

♥ NIGHT GAZING!

picture of th day taken at marina barrage on saturday, 16May'09.

okays, basically th post today is to do an update on yesterday! (:

started th day off wit badminton at TP wit darwin,eugene,shelley,esther,kenneth,fred.

played for 2hrs then off to bathe before making my way down to cityhall

to meet some of th salvo ppl to have dinner before heading to marina barrage.

met up wit wanyi, charmaine, chia wei, jiamin, xiao xuan and a few others.

had subway for dinner, and train-ed down to marina bay to meet eric

before taking th shuttle bus down to marina barrage. (:

performance by Zingo- a local drum grp; was AWESOME!

marc, salvo's president performed too!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDD

alright, after seeing performance we all walked up to slack slack;

trust me, th night scene was lyk woah!

it'll be even better if it was a clear sky mans, can star gaze all!!! (:

okays, left marina barrage after firework!!! (:

and guess wat, while almost everyone is trying not to get hit by th fireworks,

our dear eric still sits at exactly th same spot whr he was sitting at,

eating his chicken rice!

&&& while everyone was lyk trying to get away, he got up;

and when to take th coke bottle which was still at th bench area! OMG!

damn funny can. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

after tht took shuttle bus back to tanjong pagar

and decided to head back to raffles city.

settled at bk, whrbe some of them ate; and i satisfied my yoghurt crave; YOGURU! (:

chit chat here and thr; left arnd 1045 and train-ed home wit chiawei.

in conclusion; salvo is lyk one big family.

th seniors are one whole big grp of fun ppl to hang out wit man!!! ILYK!

looking forward to more outings coming my way! so excited ! (:

♥ SELF-COMPLICATIONS!

picture of the day was taken in TP's library, when i was total bored of doing wrtoral. and thr was mr shaun, using mine laptop's camera to zilian. so i suggested why not we just take a decent photo! hahaha (: okays, i find th pic not bad, but someone uh. say not nice cos can't see his blue contacts. -.-

hahah. alright, back to updates on today. nth much happen today, until when i reach hm. i realise tht everythng from my thumbdrive is GONE ! yes, you've read it right. my thumbdrive was completely empty, without any of my photographs, photo-edits plus wrtoral material. i had th shock of life, and called jovina immediately to complain. i couldn't retrieve anythng, and was seriously on th brink of crying. cos it's lyk th photographs tht i've inside includes all my oversea trips to japan, hk and korea! but i couldn't do anythng at tht point of tym cos i needa rush off for piano theory at toapayoh which starts at 745. but, i was still at home at 720. gosh! ended up cab-ing down. couldn't concentrate throughout th entire lesson. tht 45mins lesson, for once felt lyk 10yrs! OMG! anyways, email-ed ms alice not long ago. really pray hard tht she can return me my RJ and speech outline so tht i can make a copy and then use it for presentation. (:

okays, another random note; i think i'm such a complicated individual. was just having some random thoughts otw home from sch in th afternoon. was just wondering how come i said i wld let go, but at th same tym wished that you'll not treat me indifferently. sometyms i wonder what's wrong wit me, that i deserve such treatment. shld i look it at th optimistic way or just th opp?

♥ BURIED-DOWN EMOTIONS!

gerald; SHER; fy. (:

alright, picture of the day today was taken at cyber centre last wk.

kinda hilarious, how we actually got that photo taken. but i find it quite nice. i lyk! (:

okays, lets get straight to th point. (:

i'm currently taking a break from

wrtoral RJ and speech outline preperation which is due on thurs.

kinda tired of squeezing out brain's juice and all alrdy.

after so many hours, i'm still left wit th last part of both assignments. how saddening.

but at least, i've completed more than half of it right.

needa think of closing/conclusion mans, then tmr can just type into th template! (:

pls pray hard tht i dream of th closing! then i'll de javu on thurs ! (: HAHAHA.

anyways, on a random note;

i don't really like wat happened today; it just made me feel kinda werid.

lyk not in place and not well-blended.

but it wasn't tht obvious anyways, no questions ask-ed.

so lets take it that everythng's fine, lyk we always do.

tmr will just be another happy day filled wit LAUGHTER+LOVE+JOY! :D

♥ COUSIN LOVE!

sent mayp off today,

had a really good long chat wit her before she depart for korea.

hope everythng will be fine for her say 2wks at korea and 1wk at hk trip mans.

kinda worried for her, cos it's th first tym that she's flying alone after 7yrs ! HAHHA.

alright, enough of those. i'm kinda lazy to do wrtoral mans! :(

have to hand in hard copy of research journal, speech outline and all by this thurs.

and i haven't even started a single shit on it yet. GOSH!

hand in by thurs means i have to get almost everythng done by tmr night,

so tht i can get it printed by wed afternoon in sch,

since i don't have a printer at home, which is kinda sad to say mans.

&&& i seriously need my beauty slp(s) very badly mans,

eye bags are getting seriously heavy and i just can't stand it.

i think i suffer from terrible insomnia mans; TERRIBLE ! :(

th case is tht i can't seem to slp until it's lyk 2-3am in th morning

even though i'm really tht tired ! GOSH! :(

okays, i shld stop procrastinating and start working on my wrtoral now! :D

oh lord, i really pray tht i can pull thru this phase of my life.

thngs aren't really gg th way i want it to go and it's really kinda tough.

oh father lord, i pray tht you wld give me th strength and th will and th wisdom

to really do things right this tym. AMEN!

PICTURE PERFECT! (:

Picture of th day was taken wit mr chew; one of my best-est friends! (:

it's just kinda weird, how we both can still be so good friends though we do not always talk.

we can lyk not talk for a few mths, and th nxt tym we both talk,

it's lyk as if we've knw each other for decades ! I LYK! (:

okays, today's mothers' day; baked a vegetarian cake for my mum! (:

alright anyways, plans were not carried out as planned.

initial plan was to bring mum and grandma to linzhi to have buffet,

but sadly to say, it was fully booked; and we weren't very keen abt th t&c.

soya, slacked wit cg at airport until 3plus then made my way to toapayoh.

otw way thr, had a very long talk wit clara; was shocked by some stuff,

but enlighten-ed wit alot of stuff. AHHAHAH .

soyeah, had steamboat at mayp's hse. and tht's abt it!

on a random note,

I SUPER LYK KENNETH'S PENCIL CASE! COS IT'S RETARDED ! (:

♥ SPEECHLESS!

words; can hardly express joy+laughter+peace+love

alright, th above photo was taken at TP's cyber cafe. I LYK! (:

took it using YOURS'truely's laptop!!! YAY! (:

sadly, i haven't thought of a name for my laptop yet; i need one desperately.

okays, i'll cut th crap and go straight into th post.

did not start th day very well today cos i was late for sch.

mainly because th traffice was terrible+horrible+vegetable. seriously.

dad was practically moving in snail's speed can. buay tahan.

just as i thought th traffic was back to normal, th jam starts once over again.

gosh! what a cycle to follow.

just can't tolerate traffice jams, it makes my heart beats super fast.

okays, finally reached sch arnd 930, rushed for lab.

and tell me abt it, lab was so bad tht i have no words to explain.

it's lyk everythng was gg on well until he came out wit this 10pts awarding thngy.

how dumb mans, dk how he actuali tot of such thngs mans. (:

alright had lunch at ITAS,

and headed over to TAMP1 to shop arnd for backpack wit mel.

bought one leather/brown one finally.

I LYK I LYK!

okays, shan't elaborate into details wat exactly happen during th entire day! (:

ohyes, enjoy wat you're gg to see soon.

they took it using my laptop's camera can. tell me abt it; guys are cam-whoring!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! :D

THE END !

PICS-TAKING! ♥

i lyk th pic of th day today. cos those arnd me are one of th few tht make my day in sch! (:

alright, shld say tht onli part of them. excluding th girls, and th other guys.

lets begin by saying tht th 4 of us girls, decided and plan-ed to wear dresses to sch today,

with th same earring tht we bought from bugis th other day.

hahah, feeling was kinda weird; wearing a dress to sch. HHAHAHA. but i lyk! (:

lectures was alright, sat beside fengyuan! (:

digifund tutorial teacher finally changed, not more azam!

i'm lyk so glad, finally can uds wat th tutor is saying during tutorial!

had lunch/dinner wit th rest after sch ended

& headed off to tampines safra for pool/land gaming wit mel,shaun,gerald,jy,fy.

played pool wit mel and trust me, it was totally retarded.

we spend 1hr playing 3games, and we laugh-ed most of th tym. (:

went off to find th guys after tht; watch them play land.

OMG! jy is super funny, making th most noise amongst all of them. HAHHA (:

sidenote; i was really happy today. YOU made my day.

can't wait for sch tmr, cos ;

SCH TMR = MORE FUN + LAUGHTER ! (:

TIME CHECK: 0151AM, 1ST MAY'09


alright, have been having sleepless nights for th pass few nights.
can't believe i can fall aslp on th floor at 3am in th morning,
when then, my energy has been totally drain-ed out ;
right now, i'm feeling a lil lost and confused.
it's gg to be a long year ahead i suppose.
hopefully as th year progresses, and CCA starts to come in.
i won't be wondering over such matters anymore.
SHER! YOU GOTTA STAY FOCUS ! DON'T WEAVER! ;
right now i just can't get to slp.
but i'm tired, my eyelids are getting heavier.
gosh! thr must be sth wrong wit me alrdy. oh how now? ;
i feel myself falling deeper into this hole tht i've self-created.
okays, i'm gg to get to see you tmr.
i wonder how my reaction will be.
oh wells, hope everythng it's just not tht too obvious.
i can't afford th awkwardness. period. (:


shld i bring my laptop tmr? wld it thrfore be a source of distractions?