breaking th hiatus.

hello people! :DDDDDDDD

i know i know, i'm on a hiatus and i'm not suppose to blog

but to be spending time wit my books.

but somehow, i jus needa break th hiatus!!!

hahahah :DDDDDDD

anyways, i'm feeling reali stressed up.

thinking back upon those study hours that i've clogged

i just wonder if all that i've studied reali got into my head.

th first paper of EOY has started,

and th nxt is this coming wednesday!!

gosh!! then wld be ss and emaths on thursday.

i'm seriously feeling th stress and all!!

peer pressure, parents pressure, teacher pressure, self expectations.

everythng is jus starting to build up.

and th worse is tt when thngs arnd starts

to happen jus so quickly that you can hardly catch a breather.

tyms when i'm feeling lost; staring out into th blanks.

and hoping that as thngs goes by every now and then,

everythng wld jus become better, and thoughts won't go wild.

somehow, i feel reali down at tyms when i find it hard to

express what i'm reali feeling, and that nobody reali knws anythng.

but life just have to move on i guess.

cos' i'm happy that i'm in th reign of th Almighty,

and thru this period of tym when i'm saffocating,

i knw He's always thr and He cares for me.

everytym i rant it out on Him, i knw He'll listen

and somehow show me th way, and light up th path i shld take.

" delight yourself also in the Lord,

and He shall give you the desires of your heart." - Psalm 37:4

hiatus.

hello world! :DDDDDDD

i'm gg on a mini hiatus all th way until my EOY is over.

i'm onli left wit 19 more days to my main paper which is geog and emaths.

english is on th 28sept. 3rd oct is chi.

so yeah, updates!!

Sunday; 090907

went for bs in th morning then followed by service.

service was good.

th speaker, nick vujivic was inspiring and trust me he's reali cute!

check this web out: http://www.lifewithoutlimbs.org/

anyways, after service went clark quay to fellowship

but somehow, halfway thru i wasn't reali in th mood.

oh then waited for eunice and kenneth's bs to finish

then we headed to hg point to study.

for some results i wasn't feeling reali good and stuff

soyeah, when sheck called i some sort broke down.

and i love huiwen okays! ahhahah :DDDDDDDDDD

thanks girl! (:

Monday; 100907

school was as per normal,

then went nv to have o's music lyk i always did.

lesson ended near 7 and by then i was super duper tired.

thank God that dad was arnd that area! (:

Tuesday; 110907

school was as per normal.

was suppose to have pm wit dannon and th rest

but was cancelled in th end.

was kinda down cos yeah, have been waiting for pm for very long.

soyeah, didn't feel lyk gg home,

so stayed in school to mug wit kim.

went home at arnd 5.

reache home banged th piano cos' was feeling a lil stress la.

haiz. EOY is coming who's not stress?

Wednesday; 120907

thank God cca was cancelled cos' i need to mug!

ARH! soyeah, cca was cancelled at th very last minute

and sheck and i was some what delighted.

after school headed to vivo to study wit kenneth.

as usual study session wasn't that productive, cos' we ended up chatting.

hahahah :DDDDDDDDD

but day was quite fun at th DIY shop

playing wit th kid's ball thng and dirtying th bear that was on display.

hahhah :DDDDDDDD

train-ed back to serangoon 315-ed home,

while kenneth headed to his grandparent's house. (:

Thursday; 130907

i love amaths!!! i'm falling in love wit amaths everyday!!!

hahhaha :DDDDDDDD

reali wanna thank God for everythng man.

thank God that i was able to do th amaths test wit much confidence

that i'm sure that i'll be able to pass this test.

oh praise th Lord.

after amaths, headed home changed then went kovan mac.

studied wit kenneth.

but this tym round, it was productive.

i was concentrating on my goeg, and he, his physics.

studied until arnd 9 then left to buy his dinner

and my blueberry waffle!!! (:

reached home arnd 945 and slept!

okays, thats all for updates! see you guys in 3weeks tym?

i'm off for bs wit eugene!

bye!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

amaths!!

hello world!!! :DDDDDDDD

for some reason i'm reali happy today!!

i oso dunno why la. hahaha :DDDDDDDD

anyways, i woke up at 12 noon today after soooooo long!!!

love it man. super shiok!!!! (:

and due to me waking up late, didn't meet deb and trena for study session.

slack arnd at home until i felt lyk moving,

then packed and headed to lav hse for amaths tuition.

her teaching reali super man!

can u imagine that sherman tang is able to understand amaths

in such a short period of time!!!

hahahah :DDDDD YAY!!!!!!

all thanks to lav th super patient teacher.

anyways, then slacked arnd for awhile, snapped some

super retarded photo of both myself and lav's.

hahaha :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

i love you lav!!! <3333333

then 153-ed to hg to meet deb and trena for dinner.

reali miss both of them man.

had a reali long chat wit them though dinner

and yes i still love my girls lots man!! <3

headed home a arnd 7plus and was suppose to meet kenneth,

but yeah in th end didn't.

and now i'm still in th mist of finishing my theory papers.

got 2 yrs paper to complete by tmr!!

ARH!! how???

hahahha :DDDDDDDDDDD

okays, ciao ppl!! (:

better day than ytd.

today is so much of a better day than ytd,

and i wanna thank God for it. :DDDDDD

anyways, reported to school as early as 8 today.

then went to do some wellness check up thng ,

and that cause me to miss amaths lesson okays.

butyeah, i reali thank God that lav is tutoring me on

what ms ong went thru in class today.

hahaha :DDDDDDD

everythng ended arnd almos 12, then bus-ed home.

slept, and kenneth's call woke me up can!

told me that his tuition cancelled, so can meet up earlier.

soyeah, washed up; packed my stuff and headed off to kovan mac.

reached thr earlier than expected couldn't find place,

oh and saw charmaine, joanne, joycelyn and her friend thr.

chit-chatted for ahwile, and finally got place to seat le.

soyeah, was th table beside joycelyn and her friend can!

hahah :DDDDDDDDD

soyeah, kenneth reached soon after and started studying.

i did amaths, and he did english and physics.

study study, then study half way started chatting.

th mini heart talk wasn't that bad i guess.

very comforting when u actuali found someone to talk and

understand how u feel man.

thanks kenneth!! hahahahah :DDDDDDDDDD

then arnd 5plus6, headed off to ps to meet tian and th rest.

went arcade see them play play

then headed to have dinner at kopitiam thr.

after that went yamaha to see my "love" since 2years.

that C5 grandpiano that i always wanted cost $43,800.00

ARH!!! anyone kind enough to get me one?

hahahhaha :DDDDDDDDD

anyways, then started random-ing on th keyboard lyk i always do.

th tune sounded not bad i guess;

expressed how i was actuali feeling at that moment. (:

soyeah, then eunice, fiona, dannon and kenneth

keep on taking books from th shelf and ask me play lo.

make me feel so lyk piano performer.

hahahah :DDDDDDDDD

not bad eh, th feeling of being able to hit bk to piano after so long .

then headed home after that wit th rest. :DDDDDDDD

to love: heys, cheer up okays? must always rmb that God loves you,

and i love you too! hope that my prayers did make u feel better after we hanged up.

anythng, jus give me a call okays? my hp 24/7 on!! :DDDDD

irritations. tolerance.

hello people!

thr's this somethng that i jus need to get off my chest.

so just bear wit me for awhile.

okays, i'm just not myself this few days.

or shld i say weeks? ARH!!

i'll just get irritated by almos every single thng,

and i seriously don't know wat's gg on.

i've been trying to be as normal as myself but it doesn't seem to work.

i seriously don't know what's wrong wit me!

i want to tell someone, but i can't.

it seems lyk somethng is holding me back whenever i want to do so.

i jus can't stand myself.

everytym when i act everythng is normal,

it jus doesn't seem that way.

ohgosh! wat's happening to me?

i can't stand it! i can't stand myself!!!!!

i need to talk to PERSON, but i can't.

i seriously don't know what's happening?

i feel lyk crying it out, but somethng is stopping me from doing so.

i feel lyk screaming my lungs out,

but somethng is stopping me from doing so.

when i do my QT, i always end up ranting to God

and praying that He'll take away all my unspoken worries;

all my unspoken burdens; all my unknown troubles that have

been harping me for th past few weeks.

i'll listen to PnW songs everytym i couldn't slp,

and end up crying myself to slp.

this must stop!

i'm breaking down soon, but i can't seem to tell anyone.

i want to call PERSON! but i can't.

oh God, pls show me a vision, pls give me th wisdom of wat to do.

i can't stand it anymore.

i don't want to put on a facade in front of my friends.

i want to be th same me again.

unexpected.

updates!

monday; 030907

monday first day after return from KL.

day started off horrible,

cos' had a quarrel wit bro.

wasn't reali in th mood and as a result of th quarrel,

i broke down several tyms.

cooled down a lil, and seriously wanted to jus call PERSON.

but then, didn't and went school instead.

saw mano, was given a great big tight hug!! ARH! i like.

but this hug sort of spark th breaking down again.

so in short school was terrible.

in th evening met up wit eunice for study session.

th study session wasn't productive but inturn fruitful for us.

somehow, we started talking abt cg stuff,

and jus had th sudden urge to pray!!

so packed our stuff, went up to th roof top.

and at that point of tym, i just started speaking in tongues.

God's presense was so strong!

this make me much more in love wit God.

He's just so real, He's so amazing!

oh alleluia! Praise the Lord! :DDDDDDD

Tuesday; 040907

had school today oso.

had amaths until 12, and headed to cp wit

joan, jy, yp, lav, avril, teresa, kim, yl and met mano thr.

had our lunch and i headed home to get tian's gift.

then bus-ed down to nv for o's music.

waited 45mins for marcelle at th busstop,

and when we arrived at th venue,

jus to find out tt lesson was cancelled cos mrs ng wasn't feeling well.

so 119-ed to cp to meet eunice, jiefang and triffany.

acc them for awhile then we 87-ed to hg to meet th guys for bball.

watched them play for th full 2-3hours i guess.

when jus reach thr that tym i was still feeling okays,

but somehow i started feeling terrible.

i dunno why. and started having questions in my mind.

and thoughts lyk " thngs that i do turn out well, but

th credits goes to someone else."

yes i know i shouldn't be tinking of that!

so i said a short prayer, cos i noe i could find peace in Him.

and i reali thank God that dannon was thr la.

though noone actuali noes wat's happening.

i thank God for you know Dannon was thr to cheer me up wit his silly jokes.

soyeah, watch them play until 7plus then headed to hgmall to meet tian.

but for some reasons, th mood tt i was feeling earlier came bk

in that very instance.

okays, shall not go in details.

then gave th gifts that i bought in KL to dannon, david and tian.

hope they like it la. :DDDDDDDD

then bought honey red tea and headed home.

and currently, i seriously feel lyk calling PERSON again!

ARH! nonono!! cannot, self control man sherman tang!

Gen 6:14

hello people!

just wanna thank God for th protection for th

3days2nights school science trip to KL.

th trip thr was okays i guess;

considering th fact that i actuali did enjoy myself!

hahahha :DDDDDDDDDD

i'll post th photos up another day okays guys? (:

anyways, thr's somethng wrong wit me this few weeks.

i simply have no idea wat is gg wrong wit me.

i'm getting more paraniod easier and easier this few tyms round.

and i'm getting pissed wit myself alrdy u noe .

ARH! how? pray for me alrights?
pray that God will take away all those unspoken worries,

unspoken burdens away from me.

oh Praise th Lord! :DDDDDDDDd

talking abt this, i wanna thank God in many many ways this wk.

first; i got back my piano grade 8 results alrdy.

and thanks mum for not opening th envelope as requested by me.

okays, i reached home from KL and this is wat happened:

me: mummy! hui lai le! wo hui lai le!!!

mum: okay. ur exam results come alrdy la. got confidence not?

me: erm... don't tell me u open th envelope alrdy uh .

mum: no la. th envelope in th room. u go open urself lo.

me: ARH!!!! ~~~ thank God! thank God! i pass i pass i pass i pass!!! mummy i pass lehs!!!

me: ARH!!! ~~~ mummy!! i pass!! quick quick tell me ms lee's number!! need to tell her!

me: hello ms lee!!! I PASS MY GRADE 8 PRACTICAL!!!!

ms lee: ARH!!! ~~~ u sure not?

me: ya!! sure!! i pass lehs, and guess wat i pass my aural!! touched not?

ms lee: hahahah reali uh? what's th examiner's comment.

me: section A and B was secured. section C was correct, with some help, as well as D.

ms lee: hahahah reali uh? okays.

mum: SHHH!!! don't laugh until u go gila can. SHHH!!

reali want to thank God!

oh Praise th Lord!!! Alleluia!!!

in short,

my God is good, and He nvr fails to do sth to cheer u up

at a tym when u are reali down and all.

oh I LOVE YOU JESUS!!! I LOVE YOU MY LORD! :DDDDDDDD