souper! sooper! super!

i'm feeling horrible now!! ARH!!

cannot stand my voice cos' i sound lyk a frog croaking! ARH!

anyways, went to see th docs on monday

and saw peggie thr too, both sick.

hahaha, better take care yeah love ? :DDDDDDD

anyways, to explain why i'm feeling horrible now. hahaha (:

th medicine that th doc gave don't seem to be working thats one;

it's making me feel sleepy everytym i take it.

th antibiotics th doctor gave is huge and i've difficulty swallowing one,

and i've to take two.

apparently, my head is lyk burning when i'm not running a fever;

my stomach is lyk " churning " for dunno what reason!

ARH! and to add on to all that is above,

everythng is not gg real well for me recently.

so many thngs is happening at th same tym, and reali wanna ask God why.

but i believe that whatever is happening right now,

God has His reason for everythng i'm gg through.

and i believe that through Him, in Him everythng is possible.

i'm praying very hard that i'll soon have a break through in my life.

and i reali wanna thank God for all those that is arnd me.

oh praise th Lord! :DDDDDDDD

God is good, all th time.

hello people! i'm back after so long!
by juding by my title
i tink u all shld have guess what i'm gonna blog abt. :DDDDDD
anyways, this few days have been very taxing for me.
and th major thng is somethng that is happening in th clique
.soyeah, me and lav wanted to help out to solve th prob.
had some reali serious talks on monday
and upon touching on sensitive topics i can't help but break down.
i broke down a couple of tyms cos it reali hurts.
so before tuition started, i knew i need to pray
cos onli through christ, will i find comfort and peace,
and thought Him, he'll guide me through everythng.
and true enough, after i ended my prayer wit Amen,
i recieved a msg that made me almost want to jump out!
upon recieving that msg, it made me so much more in love wit th Lord.
oh Praise The Lord! :DDDDD


other than that. somethng as amazing happened.
for th past few days, i haven't been on good terms wit my dad.
and cos of some recent incidents that started th spark again.
quarrel-ed so both of us left th hse in a huff.
soyeah, went to join th SAguys for study session at hg mac.
wasn't reali in th mood so all i did was jus reading frm th txt bk.
and soon after my mp3 died on me. so listened songs wit huiwen on her phone .
arnd 7plus, eliz came. then went over to her hse to slack
since i wasn't reali in th mood to do anythng.
soyeah, slept for awhile and i had a super wierd dream! hahahah :DDDDDDDD
left arnd 9. and when on th bus,
i jus kept hearing this voice asking me to pray to th Lord.
cast all my troubles and burdens onto th Lord. and yes, that was th holy spirit.
so i started praying. prayed reali hard tt th Lord will take away
everythng tt is bothering my heart.
oh i'm okays wit my dad arldy! everythng is back to normal! :DDDD
soyeah, upon reaching home, dialed th number
and thr goes my consoling and advicing.
and i reali wanna thank God that he reali did gave me th wisdom of speech.
reali thank God for sending forth th holy spirit to be my guide.
when i was giving advices and all,
i spoke words that didn't come from my mind for tt very instance.
and i reali wanna thank God for that!
oh Praise The Lord. :DDDDDDD

feelings.

haven't been blogging for th past week,
and my blog is somehow rotting alrdy i guess.
but yeah, i'm here to update as usual every wk. hahah :D
AH! contradictions seems to be revolving arnd my world!
okays, that was just so random.
but anyways, o's music is now at NV and that means that
i'll get to see th NV girls which include huiwen, debbie, trena, joey.
will be having dinner wit them as planned. :D
soyeah, everythng was quite screwed this wk ;
including acadamic, emotions, cca responsibilities and all. ARH!
EOY is arriving in just lyk 30++ days,
o's music exam approaching. grade 6 theory exam approaching. EOY!
gosh, and i'm not at all prepared.
how man? FOCUS MAN SHERMAN TANG! ARH!
and as mention earlier " mental screw-edness." ARH!
cannot take it man. everythng is soo screwed. and i'm confused.
it's a feeling of uncertain-ness. and my heart thumps whenever tink of it.
ohgosh, and breaking down seems to be a habit.
but that shouldn't be th way. must pray for mental strength for me okays? :D
but still, i want to thank God for sending my friends
that are willing to hear my rant and showing that they care whenever.
soyeah, I LOVE YOU GUYS yeah?

saturday!

hello world!! :DDDDDD

today was not bad i guess.

had cg in th morning and headed off to music at tp.

typical saturday for me as usual!

arh ha, study session wit th girls tmr!!!

okays! ciao :DDDDDDD

random thoughts.

i've been having reandom thoughts lately,

for apparently no particualr reasons.

for now, i feel lyk jus picking up th phone dial some random number,

and just say thngs that come straight to my mind at tt moment.

this feeling is terrible; it's a feeling of rojak.

it's neither this nor that; that's why it's rojak.

ARH! somethng wrong is happening to me,

but i've simply no idea wat is it.

sometyms i'm in a good mood, and sometyms in a bad mood.

i some sort get annoyed and irritated over lil thngs,

somethng is seriously wrong, but i just can't put it to words.

oh god, i reali pray that you'll take this terrible feeling away from me,

take away those unknown burdens, unspoken worries;

take all of them away from me!

expel th devils and demons within me,

take it all away from me oh lord!!

all this i pray

Amen.

post ndp!

random thoughts-
" walking down th narrow road to th nxt busstop;
wonders of friendships came into thoughts.
are friends true for lifetime?
will they be thr for you anywhr, anytym lyk promised?
then i cam to realise that all this while,
i'm th one who is always dependent on them and not th other way round.
sometimes making friens seems to be an everyday thng,
but when one very day
th person u trust and most dependent on,
have a sudden change in attitude towards you;
and when he/she turns their back on oneself.
wat are u to do? "

HAPPY NAITONAL DAY!

HAPPY 42nd BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!


hello people!
anyways, i'm a good girl today cos' staying home th whole day as promised.
okays, updates! (:


070807; TUESDAY

school wasn't that bad i guess,
th onli thng was that i sneezed th whole day in school la.
and wasn't reali feeling well,
and th meds given by th doc didn't reali work for me lehs. how ?
anyways, dad fetched me home after school
and i went meet eunice to study at kovan mac at arnd 4.00
settled down and started studying at 430pm.
fiona joined us arnd 530 and we studied all th way until 630.
took a break and started chit-chatting cos' th air condition was reali cold.
so we took turns to go out walk walk.
chit-chatted until arnd 730 until tianyi and mason joined us.
then from thr study until arnd 10pm.
accompanied tianyi for his dinner while mason sent fiona home.
didn't feel lyk eating so tianyi bought dessert for me and eunice.
arnd 1040 dad came fetch me home.
so in conclusion study session was productive!! :DDDDDDD


080807; WEDNESDAY

had school in th morning and was suppose to meet joanne at th busstop at 8.
but overslept and was late.
reached arnd 815 and avril and joanne was waiting for me. paiseh uh.
so decided not to perform since we were alrdy late for th rehearsals and all.
soyeah, celebration was okays i guess.
went home caught up wit some slp and went marina to celebrate yilin's bday.
thr was some sort of miscommunication la ,
so in th end didn't have th chance to bowl.
settled down for lunch at foodcourt at marina square
and stayed thr to chit-chat for quite some tym and soon left.
went bk to bowling alley and th rate was qutie ex,
so all decided to catch a movie.
didn't watch wit th rest cos' parents didn't allow la.
soyeah, accompanied tianyi walk to mrt and he went sch.
actuali planning to go home alrdy but met up wit shing and trena.
walk arnd raffles city and river island was having sales!
hahahhahaha :DDDDDDDDDDDDD
shop shop arnd le, then went bk chit chat.
left arnd 830.
while walking to mrt, thr's a crowd thr so went kapo.
and saw this man "min-ing". i find his super funny la.
hahahah :DDDDDD
then left for home wit trena at arnd 9.


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for all that has happened,
i reali wanna thank God for grace and filling me wit his love.
praise th lord!

ill-ness.

hello world! :DDDDDDDD

i'm sick today and i don't lyk th feeling. ARH!

anyways, early this morning when i woke up,

my forehead was lyk burning hot and i was running a fever.

took my temperature and tempt was 37.6

so decided to go school considering th fact thr's impt lessons

which includes ss, geog and double maths.

went to school and was feeling terrible wit headaches and all.

popped in penadol and slept through chi and lit lessons.

and guess wat all th subsequent temperature taking is lyk gg up and down.

so fever was subsiding and gg up so frequently.

then during recess couldn't take it anymore so went home.

i love lijie okays!!! hahahah :DDDDDDD

anyways, went home and slp cos th headache was lyk killing me,

slept and tianyi's call woke me up!

chatted for awhile and yeah he prayed for me.

which i reali thank God, cos fever subsided when i went to th docs.

got antibiotics which i don't reali lyk,

but still have to finish th whole cause, ARH!!!!!!

and now i'm down wit flu and infected throat!

but yeah anyways,

ciao!! :DDDDDDDDDD

random.

everythng that happens

a fake facade is used to cover up.

when everyone thinks thr's somethng hidden,

denying it and refusing thr's reali somethng wrong.

everythng is okay ; period.

wednesday.

today is quite a tiring day for me.

but luckily i was able to slp an hour later than usual

becuase school starts at 820 today

moreover dad sent me to school which allowed me to slp more!

hahahha :DDDDDDD

anyways, school was okays i guess.

lessons were as per normal nth special (:

after school had choir and choir was much of a disaster i feel.

starts at 4pm and sadly mr liew didn't come cos' he's down wit flu;

then both teacher IC didn't turn up too,

so the leaders were in charge and all we did was the NDP songs.

was quite a bore but was walking round and helping out wit th various sections.

working hand in hand wit th other leaders to maintain th choir.

however, thngs didn't reali went on smoothly as for me.

okays, i was helping out wit th sops and

spotted this particualr girl eating some sweet lollipop thng.

and thrfore, i told her to keep it cos' it was practice tym.

moreover i've alrdy told her to stop eating it and keep it during warm ups

but she didn't listen to wateva i told her apparently.

and that was th 2nd tym i told her.

and guess wat she still took it out in between sectionals.

told her th 3rd tym and she still won't listen and i was a lil pissed alrdy.

so ask rachelle to do th job instead cos' i didn't want to lose my cool.

but apparently she didn't listen to rachelle too.

then i was a lil impatient alrdy so told her to keep it in her bag.

inturn she showed attitude okays!!!

and thats somethng i cannot tolerate la.

but i just told myself to keep cool and thrfore walk to th alto sectionals.

tested individuals for th altos and they progressed quite alot la.

so decided to leave them wit dharshiney.

walked up to sops again, and guess wat

th whole bunch of juniors were lyk talking behind my back okays.

and thats somethng i cannot tolerate too!

if they have somethng to say why can't they jus say it in front of me la.

so tolerated; keep my cool and entered choir room to help th mezzos.

told rach abt it and wat she said sort of made sense.

" being a leader, this type of thngs are expected.

wateva u do that goes against them, criticizes are expected thr after."

soyeah, wasn't in th mood after that so charmian and rach dismissed th choir.

dad came fetch me home and had tuition.

but yeah, trust me after confiding everythng thats in you to God th holy spirit,

you'll feel so much better and relieved.

okays, i'm done!

ciao!! :DDDDDDDDDD