much was spoken today; thoughts and disappointments was shared. tears were shed, some even got up and left th room in a bang. after so much was spoken, i felt numb somehow. numb-ed not because i didn't take in anything tht was said, numb-ed cos of what i've tried to put in but did not achieve. a contradiction isn't it?

but, i really did put in th effort to remember, to put into place what was taught. but i just can't. sometyms learning it, almost brings me to tears. cos i just can't get it right. me too, want to find back tht "fighting spirit" i had during concert preparation. those pushing over th limit feel tht almost everyone of us can feel from each other. i believe we can, we just need to push ourselves harder; beyond th improvements we alrdy have.