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dear friend,

i've somehow came down to a painful decision. as i'm typing this down, i'm at my brink of tear-ing again. well, think it's okay. you won't be reading this, and won't be caring as much i suppose. you won't be caring if i was here alone crying my eyeballs out, for only one reason. things seems to change so fast, in just a day. i want to ask for an explaination, but i better not. i've cried enough.

i'll miss those days that we had endless conversation about anything. i'll miss those days that i can just randomly ask you out. i'll miss those days that we txt non-stop for th entire day. i'll miss those days when i wake up reading your text - wishing me good morning. i'll miss those days that we meet up almost every week, or twice a week. i'll miss those days that you waited for me to slp before you do. i'll miss those days tht we chat on th phone until th wee hours of th morning. i'll miss those days tht you whine not stop over th phone. i'll miss those days tht without fail you'll brighten up my days i'll miss those days tht we meet up for movies. i'll miss those days tht we cuddle up tgt in th cinemas. i'll miss th smell of your perfume. i'll miss everything about you.

but now, it seems lyk everythings down th drain. well, i can't lose something tht i nvr had i suppose. everything was just almost there, at least from what i feel. i don't trust tht th time spent was just for th sake of it. take care my dear friend, idk what else to do. i'll shut myself away from you, if that's what you want. i'll be more than happy if one of these days thru your busy schedule, you'll think of me and contact me.

trust me, it's painful. i feel th hole dwelling even deeper, whenever i think of you. but i guess, you're just far beyond my reach. i'll love you still th same, but i nvr got th chance to tell you. and i think i'll never will.
okayy, promise you'll take care.

love,
sher.

♥ WALLOW-ED



down beneath; let it be spoken.

i somehow. lyk it when someone speaks in parables. lyk speaking in a way, whereby th meaning is in it but not tht direct. i started to lyk it only recently, without any particular reason of whatsoever. reading parables are interesting too! but not those biblical stuff, of course.

lots have been running through my mind lately. things abt death, regrets, saying th right thing, being ignored; everything along those lines. it feels as if i'm back into a state of solitary, back to where i was last tym. it's getting scary. i even cried on th journey home, thinking back abt how stupid i was. but not regretting what i said and did. but just how stupid i was being such a pain in th ass when i could have acted in a better way.

it's tym for some self-reflection. thr's no tym for tears right now.

♥ TWEETS!



sentences of pure innocence

3-days of CCA recruitment, i went down for 2-days. and thru these 2-days, i roughly learnt how limit break is drum-ed. th different rhythm is all. &&& i "shang gu-ed" on th last day of CCA recruitment! th longest distance i've walked so far, so proud of myself.

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHIAWEI!
please stay as gay as ever. and stop getting scratches on your face by rubbing your face against your pillow. though i seriously find it kinda ridiculous. lyk how mans? HAHAH. everyone was amazed, plus puzzled at th same tym.

okayy, that's all. work for th nxt 2 days. opening to closing on sunday somemore. someone pls tell me abt it.

♥




happy birthday, boy! you're 20 now.
messages are very well self explaint(?) :>

F.



revive; from what it used to be

alright, i feel lyk typing writing and everything tht is along tht line. i feel th serenity of me pen-ing my thoughts down after swallowing it down so much till somehow, i feel as if my chest is a bottomless-pit. literally. lyk sometyms it gets so painful i feel lyk screaming, but thr isn't sound coming out from me. it was just, just now tht i felt as if i had breathing difficulty. ohwells, just fuck it.

reading thru what we were before, i felt my heart wrench-ed. th familiar feeling came back for a short while until you uttered th S-word. for what it may seem, everything tht was done; a word sorry was th only only word used. then, i start to wonder if sorry is such a big word, tht everyone is using it so freely that somehow it loses th meaning behind it.

i know i'm being a bitch now, making a big fuss out of everything. but well, how do you expect me to react? on th other hand, i can't blame you for anything too. thr wasn't any status between us to start with, and mayb afterall it's just me tht's taking everything so seriously; far too serious than what you expect. but thr wasn't any regrets of anything that i've said to you so far, it's just how you've taken it in. lyk what you told me, sometyms you just dk what to reply. okayy, i've gotten it. i will try to get use to it, just give me some tym.

ohmans, FML. shouldn't i? i think i read too much into everything's tht between us.

dear god,
i pray that it does not rain later on. th sky looks kinda gloomy, and i would rather perform under th scorching sun than performing on wet ground bare-foot-ed, cos tht will be a lil gross. pls not what happened ytd, happened today! rain rain go away, come back another day! oh, and pls don't let th rain come back on saturday oso. okayokayyy?

♥ UPDATES!



life's been great! :>

okayy, it's lyk ages since i last updated my blog, and i realized thr's alot of silent readers. seriously. well, i can't really rmb every single detail tht happen-ed for th past few weeks. just roughly, except for some really few incidents tht i can rmb kind of vaguely.

• trainings on monday and wednesday
• salvo outing @ seoul garden
  
• movie-d wit salvo peeps.
• met up wit WJ!
  
• movie-d wit WJ!
• company's chalet.
• salvo's chalet :>
• work-ed lyk a cow! :/
• shopping wit C!
  

okayy, tht's all i can recall. well, everything's been great! seriously. lyk th 5-hours HTHT wit K during company's chalet. th fun, laughter, peace and joy we all had during salvo chalet. spending tym wit people tht serve as super good company, laughing at th slight-iest things and such. think this space will be too small if i were to pen every single thing done into words. literally! &
SHER LIKES THIS! :>

i promise, i'll update lyk more regular-ly okay? i'll try not to be lazy to log into blogspot and type a few lines, or just simply post pictures! HAHA! kayy, off for now. training's starts at 5 today, and i think i'll be meeting KO after training. toodles! :>