changes?

today is definitely a tiring day out for me. PHYSICALLY!

had a whole day school as usual,

and surprising-ly i was lyk quite awake during most of th lessons in school;

including chinese whr i usually found myself kinda dosing off!

during cme today, had some random chat wit Avril,

and we sort of come a conclusion that ppl are changing; be it for th good or bad.

we should have more of those chats yeah? it seems lyk ages.

talking abt changes in people and friends-used-to-be and friends-used-to-be-close.

i find myself changing quite drastically,

within that very few mnths since last yr till now.

as compared to th previous-self which was emo, self kept and wat so u called

to th very person i am now;

regarded as to be someone striaght forward - to th extreme

i was just sharing wit avril earlier today that i changed to be someone

who is more "heartless" as compared to what i was last tym.

it's lyk for now,

i can't seem to tolerate behaviour that it's not out of my expectation.

okays, lets see. erm...

it's lyk for instance, if u stab-ed me for th first tym; i'll forgive you.

it u stab-ed me th second tym; i'll forgive you.

& th third tym u stab-ed me,

thats it! my attitude towards you will change for th worse.

i knw, you all might say that since i dare to admit my weaknesses and all,

why can't i change for th better?

it's true. talk-ed to jared before,

and indeed i'm aware of who i am,

what my strength's are and what my weaknesses are.

& it's sure th tym for me to look thngs at perspective and not over-expect!

maybe, it's a test given to me;

a test given to me upon if i have an open heart for God to change me,

to th person He want me to be.

& that leads me back to what jared preach-ed just 2weeks ago during cg.

" u can't forever stay upon th shelf, half moulded.

when God put you on, and start moulding you,

He too starts to take out th dirt in you,

and thus make u into a perfect and wondering role-model to th society.

& it's a choice you make if u want to anot.

if your choice is to stay un-changed,

even how hard God tries, you'll just stay th same."