mid-yrs! dreads!

hello wello earth-lings!!!! (:

i'm feeling better i suppose, apart from th bad cough i'm suffering now.

ohgosh! i can't stand the weather this few days,

it's lyk so so so so so so so so so so soso so so HOT! HUMID!! :(

okays, anyways, enligsh social studies chinese emaths/amaths paper 1 is officially over!!!

reali thank God for giving me strength throughout this period of tym

when i'm down with bad headaches and fever-ish temperature esp during english and ss papers.

was practically on the verge of giving up during those papers

cos i could hardly concentrate and think straight.

when english paper1 started first thng in th morning,

my head was really spinning, hurting --- it was as if a hammer was knocking into it.

my head was really hanging heavy. :(

and as usual before the start of every test or exams,

i'll say a short prayer asking God's grace to come upon me,

and asking the holy spirit to guide me thru th paper that i'm gg to sit for.

at th start, it doesn't seem to work at all.

so i just tolerated th pain and all, & continued doing th paper.

as i could not squeeze out any brain juice on wat to write for compo,

i started on situational writing first --- it was a fairly alright topin to write abt.

then i went back to compo and guess wat, i wasted 3papers just on the starting.

oh btw, i wrote on "DREAMS".

i didn't know how to start, and seriously had no inspiration for anythng.

so just randomly wrote somethng, and somehow it progresses to

a story that i tink can enable myself to score (:

YAY!!!! PTL! :DDDDDDDDDDD

soyeah, anyways.

5papers down. and i screwed both my a/emaths.

but for the other papers that i've alrdy taken,

i've fairly high confidence that i can secure my scores and do up to my expectations! (:

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L1R4 = 10pts! L1R5 = 12pts! I'M COMING!!!! :DDDDD

feeling blue! :(

hello people!

i'm currently down wit a high temperature.

& i can't stand th feeling of my head spinning!!! :((((

temperature have been shooting higher and higher each tym.

how man? thr's SS paper and emaths paper1 on monday!

i can't possible think clearly!!!

ARH!!!! how ? how ? how ?

oh God, please heal me!!

i can't afford to fall sick-er this period.

it's SA1 period!

guys, pray for me okays!

mid-yr coming!

okays, lets see.

mid-yr first paper is starting this coming friday.

ENGLISH!

not that stress-ed up yet, though haven't reali completed revision yet.

but yeah, i find myself paying almost 100% attention in class except for chinese.

so shld be alright la hors. hahahaaha (:

anyways, tym table has been up lyk for a few weeks alrdy.

okays, so here is it:

25th April: 1) English
28th April: 1) social studies 2) Emaths paper1
29th April: 1) Chinese
30th April: 1) Amaths paper1
2nd May: 1) Pure Geography paper1
5th May: 1) Chemistry
6th May: 1) Literature
7th May: 1) Emaths paper2
8th May: 1) Physics 2) Amaths paper2
9th May: 1) Physics/chemistry 2) Pure geography paper2

okays, seems kinda "jar-ing" right ?

but i don't seem to have any form of motivation.

all i do everyday is to wake up uber early in th morning before sch starts

to mug on subjects that i haven't reali touched on.

other then that, i spend my free tym in school

reading my story book as if it's th nicest book on earth - maybe it is! (:

when at this point of tym, textbooks supposed to be my bestfriend!

ohno! MOTIVATION! WHERE ARE YOU? I'M LOST!

but looking at th brighter sight.

it's not that bad either - having consistency is better than having to mug 24/7

& at th point of th exam having test-fright and end up having mental blockages.

soyeah, it's not too bad a thng for me i guess.

hahahaah (:

yeahyeah, i knw u guys shld be thinking that saying such thngs to myself

might set me on my pants when o's is nearing.

but sometyms self encouragement is a good thng you see,

it's better than giving up completely!

hohoho!! okays, i think that's abt it!

BYEEEEEEEEE! :DDDDDDDDDD

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andrea kane's "no way out" is love! (:

changes?

today is definitely a tiring day out for me. PHYSICALLY!

had a whole day school as usual,

and surprising-ly i was lyk quite awake during most of th lessons in school;

including chinese whr i usually found myself kinda dosing off!

during cme today, had some random chat wit Avril,

and we sort of come a conclusion that ppl are changing; be it for th good or bad.

we should have more of those chats yeah? it seems lyk ages.

talking abt changes in people and friends-used-to-be and friends-used-to-be-close.

i find myself changing quite drastically,

within that very few mnths since last yr till now.

as compared to th previous-self which was emo, self kept and wat so u called

to th very person i am now;

regarded as to be someone striaght forward - to th extreme

i was just sharing wit avril earlier today that i changed to be someone

who is more "heartless" as compared to what i was last tym.

it's lyk for now,

i can't seem to tolerate behaviour that it's not out of my expectation.

okays, lets see. erm...

it's lyk for instance, if u stab-ed me for th first tym; i'll forgive you.

it u stab-ed me th second tym; i'll forgive you.

& th third tym u stab-ed me,

thats it! my attitude towards you will change for th worse.

i knw, you all might say that since i dare to admit my weaknesses and all,

why can't i change for th better?

it's true. talk-ed to jared before,

and indeed i'm aware of who i am,

what my strength's are and what my weaknesses are.

& it's sure th tym for me to look thngs at perspective and not over-expect!

maybe, it's a test given to me;

a test given to me upon if i have an open heart for God to change me,

to th person He want me to be.

& that leads me back to what jared preach-ed just 2weeks ago during cg.

" u can't forever stay upon th shelf, half moulded.

when God put you on, and start moulding you,

He too starts to take out th dirt in you,

and thus make u into a perfect and wondering role-model to th society.

& it's a choice you make if u want to anot.

if your choice is to stay un-changed,

even how hard God tries, you'll just stay th same."

panic-ing!

heyo heyo people! :DDDDDD

i just realised that i haven't wish BABE'S bday public-ly.

hahahah (: so here is it.

anyways, as u all can see from my "wish upon a star" list,

and i typed somethng lyk surprise gift for babe!

yup, got her a notice board, which on it is pictures that i've taken with her; 7 in total.

from th very 1st pic that i took wit her at aiport during emerge'07 intermission.

hahaha, still rmb-ed it was at th corner seat of airport's mac. (:

gave her on sunday before service, cos th original plan was that we weren't be meeting on her bday.

ohyes, her bday is 8 APRIL 1992!!! and that means she's 16th this yr.

hahaha (: soyeah, plan changed abit, and huiwen & i had dinner

wit her at chomp's as a celebration. (:

it was a great tym of catching up and all,

when we laugh at everythng under that starry night,

and also chatted abt whr we want to head to after o's and whr our aims are.

after which we headed over to ice cube for th actual cake cutting and all.

hahaha (: shan't mention wat happened thr.

hahaha (: but yeah, babe was seriously touch and all !!! :DDDDDDDD

soyeah, last but not least....

SHER LOVES YOU DEBBIE LIM! <3

CCHC!!!! LOVE IT ! (:

th week that had just passed was indeed a meaningfull and engaging week for me.

having to thrust thru th stressful wk at school,

th pressure that have been building on as th days to O level approaches.

however, not forgetting that SATURDAY, 12April2008! that i serve busing for CHCC!

here's an overview of wat happened on that day:

met shuling and some kids at bishan mrt at 1115am.

th coach then went off to th various locations to pick th kids up namely,

sim lim ave, thomson, yiochukang, serangoon gardens.

after which every one of them was so excited as they were abt to go

for a day visit to SINGAPORE'S ARMY MUSUEM!!!!

upon reaching the place lawrence picked us up, and guess what,

he's reali favoured by mojarity of th kids and anni says he has his own fanclub.

hahaha (: anyways, shuling, lawrence, anni are th teachers in CHCC.

soyeah, reached and got to knw paul one of th ZS for CHCC.

went thru th whole musuem, and before th kids go off,

paul actuali conducted a short bible study lesson wit th kids, teaching them

one of th 10commandment I SHALL NOT MURDER!

while he was teaching and all, th kids were reali paying attention and all.

in b/w th session, shuling then ask me to help her tabulate who paid

for th entrance fee to th musuem.

quickly had it done and helped out in gathering th kids in line

and then was heading back to th kids houses.

thru this short period of tym b/w 1115am to abt 430pm,

i've learnt alot of thngs and most imptly,

had built a r/s wit majority of th kids on bus N08.

it's jus th sense of satisfaction that you'll feel even though you are reali that worn out.

th sense of having th kids enjoying themselves and all.

and that very thng that one of th kid, kelly said to me before she alighted th bus

reali made an impact; even though it's jus simple words:

"teacher shermagne, nxt wk must come visit me okays?

if not i'll miss you. then i'll call teacher tim to call u come!

children church! (:

I MISS DANNON HAR!!!! :((((((

hahaha.

just felt lyk typing that down somehow.

but seriously speaking, thr's a reason why i'm gg to miss this good friend of mine.

i didn't get to see him during cg earlier today,

and apparently i'm not gg to get to see him any tym soon until 2weeks ltr.

he's in camp right now, and can onli book out on 16April2008!

how come so long ? :((((

but anyways, back to th main point of what i'm gg to blog abt !

started serving for chc's children church on friday night starting 7pm.

some might ask why i'm serving on a weekday;

but yeah, thr's actuali a few categories in chcc,

and fall under th visitation category whr i go round visiting

and building r/s with kids b/w th age of 4 to 12.

soyeah, had my very very first visitation wit timothy on friday

arnd sin ming ave and amk ave 5; arnd yck area.

reali learnt alot thru th 3.5hours of gg arnd every kid's hse,

understanding abt their living conditions, and how tim actuali carry out

a simple visitation to kids for that very short 5-10mins to every household.

majority of th kids whose parents are arldy a believer,

or of whom came for easter celebration jus a couple of weeks ago.

i also understand that some kids come from families whoe parents are actuali

once believers, but they still do allow their child to attend church.

among all this, thr's this very one short convo,

during th very last visitation which is to 2 small boys namely shawn and bryan;

*i shall skip th front part of th convo.

tim: so shawn, u all coming for service tmr?

shawn: cannot! tmr ahma's bday.

tim: huh? sunday lehs ?

shawn: sunday also cannot! mummy bringing gorgor and me go zoo!

tim: wah!! go zoo uh. means cannot join us alrdy la. :(

(shawn started getting distracted and played his gameboy)

tim: heys shawn, u knw wat's gg to happen in church this wk? (:

shawn: i know i know!! i giving us th chopchop(stamp)!

tim: yes! so smart uh! i tell u, we give u all th chops right, very nice and special one.

shawn: huh. but i gg zoo on sunday. then saturday got ahma's bday.

they all coming my hse.

shawn: heys teacher tim, wait uh. i go ask my mummy first.

shawn: mummy. this sunday cancel okays? i want go church.

teacher tim say will get very nice chops. so this sunday cancel okays?

shawn: teacher tim!!! my mummy say can! gorgor, sunday don't go zoo okays? (:

bryan: huh! i don't want, i want go zoo!

(shawn apparently ignored his bro and called his dad to tell him he wanted to come church on sun)

shawn: teacher tim!!! my daddy and mummy say can go church

on sunday to take very nice chops !

(tim and i was obviosly happy for him and left after saying goodnight)

and while we were walking away, s

hawn suddenly shouted: BYE TEACHER SHERMAGNE!!!!

then i was seriously kinda shocked cos that day was th first day he ever saw me.

th whole visitation thng that lasted 3hours, was reali tiring

and we were rushing arnd just in case th kids slept early.

however, th hardwork pays off when u see th innocent; genuine smile

on th faces of th kids.

it's jus satisfying and comforting to see th joy that th kids when they see you visiting them.

in all, reali want to thank God for giving me such an opportunty.

lyk seriously speaking i started serving lyk reali fast.

a few days before easter, BJ submitted my ministry registration form.

that very monday after easter sunday, i received a msg from joanna saying that

i'm in for an interview after service on sunday for chcc.

a few days after th interview, i was dial-ed up by tim to serve that very week.

gosh! it's just amazing how God moves in my lives, and those out thr.

it's just amazing how God actuali wants you to experience his love thru anyone,

even to th very young kid that u barely even knw.

i just find it simply to amazing on how God express his love towards us.

oh alleluia, Praise th Lord! :DDDDDDD

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p.s sorry for pics delay. will be up soon after editing!