random-ness.

emotions of th day : -

i wonder what's my imporatance?

or is there even an importance.

what would happen if something happens to me,

will things be the same as the individual will recieve? ;

left alone after just a simple word from an individual.

feelings of useless-ness filled my mind.

facades after faceades.

do i deserve all this?

or things i do is just not enough to be made compared to any other individuals.

useless. the word just kepy coming back.

& maybe that is what it is.

situations after situations.

is it for real?

or is it just me?

being just too dependant;

jest being too ordinary;

just being left un-noticed.

nobody really cares do they?

i doubt so.

high content.

high content of photos. so shall let th pictures do th talking!! (:

17 october 2007

happy 15th to sher_tang!! (:

down to town wit vanessa, yilin and my beloved wife!
at far east.

19 october 2007

surprised by beloved friends: debbie & huiwen.

celebrated eunice's and sher_tang's bday at pizza hut.

sher_tang & debbie (:

debbie wit th bday girls! (:
sisters of W212! (:

hawaiian!! (:

hawaiian and pepperoni!! (:
foursome!!! <3

& then they bought dhougnuts for our bday! (:
in conclusion; W212 th cg to be in! <3

hongkong.

didn't go school today,

and sent parents off to th airport early in th morning.

gosh!! parents will be away until sunday night,

and thr's noone at home except me myself and tina.

okays, anyways was at home practically th whole day today.

left home to send parents off at 630am

and they entered th gates at 745am.

and yeah, after that was alone and lots ran thru my mind.

tinking of questions that have been harping me for weeks.

train-ed to ICA building to make IC just to find out that

i didn't bring along my birth cert wit me.

so called aunt to bring it down for me and honestly,

i feel th waiting tym of a total of 1.5 hours quite worth it and fruitful.

was thinking thru lots of stuff and just felt lyk praying.

so i found myself a quiet corner, settle-ed down,

switched songs that i'm listening to, to worship songs;

took out a piece of paper, wrote all i was feeling down;

folded it into a heart and started praying.

i prayed so hard that during this tym, God would reali come speak to me.

and tell me what to do; tell me what is right to do.

& i prayed that God wld take away all those unspoken burdens.

i prayed and prayed,

& i heard this inner voice telling me,

"thr's nth to worry abt. it doesn't matter what ppl are thinking,

you just have to reali trust that what reali matters is what God thinks.

th issues of ur heart, God knws it all. and now it is a test of faith. th test of how

much faith you have in Him. are you willing to carry your cross and

follow him?"

th voice was just so clear,

and from that moment i prayed

that God would renew my heart; renew my everythng wit his love.

and from that moment, i knew i was renew-ed.

and from that moment, i made a promise to God,

that whatever happens i'll sure put Him first in my life.

and letting him take control of everythng that is happening to me.

ALLELUIA! PRAISE TH LORD!

late night.

somehow, i feel confuesed.

sometyms i feel sad for reasons that i'm not sure abt.

and i'll just go crazy over th slight-liest thng th nxt moment.

okays, i'm wierd. period (:

oh i wrote this on th journey back home a few hours ago -

trains pass by just like past tense.

& whatever happens, happens like trains passing by.

looking back is not a point;

looking forward is something too far ahead.

past tense can't be present tense

& that can't be changed.

feelings is something explainable

but something unchangable.

so what's the point of harping on something that is unchangable?

althought present tense is what you're living in,

but past tense is what you're living for.

living in; living for.

two different times that you're adapting.

can you take it ?

breaking down is not a point

but keeping in is not bearable.

end result?

just the same.

okays, i'm out!

ciao! :DDDDDDDD

15hours of slp!

hello people!!! :DDDDDDDDD

EOY are over and it's time to shout for joy!!

say YAY wit me!!! :DDDDDDDD

hahahha :DDDDDDDDD

okays, anyways didn't go school today cos

needa catch up wit my slp!!

and guess wat, i reali did and slept for 15 hours.

gosh!!! haven' t done that for a very very long tym.

soyeah, stayed at home today cos wasn't reali in th mood to go out.

anyways, i'll try to update more for th nxt couple of wks yeah?

cos' schedule will be quite pack since thr's lots of upcoming camps.

lots of planning to do and co-ordinating.

lets see.......

humanities camp coming up starting on th 26th.

choir camp will be early november; dates not confirm.

humanities trip to korea; departing 22nd november.

church camp 1st week of december.

and many many many other more activities

not forgetting th extra lessons in school.

ohgosh, busy man.

hahahah :DDDDDDD

but no worries, i won't forget to have fun wit my girls!!

hols haven't started, but we'll be heading to town on tues!!!!

YAYAY!!!!! (:

panda's! (:

hello world!!! :DDDDDD

amaths is tmr and it's my last paper of EOY!!!

say YAY man!!! hahahahha (:

have been very worned out lately,

partly due to th very long study hours that i clogged everyday;

and th many late nights almost everyday.

gosh!! wat i need now is a really good slp after amaths paper.

hahahhah :DDDDDDDD

shall just enjoy now and start to buck up for my coming

grade6 papers which is on 3rd november.

and it's only a few weeks away.

have been praying so hard that i will be able to achieve th 50pounds!!

ARH!! i want my distinction!!!! :DDDDDDDD

okays anyways, updates on th past few papers that i've completed.

firstly, english was okays i guess except paper 2.

secondly, chinese was okays i guess except for paper 2 too.

thirdly, social studies and emaths paper 1.

social studies was okays overall for me, but i'm a lil worried,

cos' a lot of them actuali wrote much more as compared to me.

emaths paper1 was easy except some questions whr i got mental block.

fourthly, physics and literature.

physics was a killer; not only to me but to many others. no elaboration (:

literature was okays, and i hope it'll help pull

my combined humanities marks up a lil.

fifthly, chemistry and o's theory paper.

chemistry was okays except for section C,

cos th method that i state as my answer was different from others.

o's theory was okays i guess, though paper 1 was a lil tough.

sixly, emaths paper 2 and geog paper 2.

emaths paper 2 was a killer, i almost died from th paper okays. haha (:

geog paper 2 was okays, but yeah some point of tym i still got mental block.

seventhly, geog paper 1.

it was okays in general, but i totally screwed map work;

which for once i totally don't know how to do th question asked.

okays, and tmr is amaths. GOSH!

soyeah, wish me luck and keep me in prayers yeah?

hahaha :DDDDDDDDDDD

ciao people! (:

screw-ed.

hello people!! :DDDDDDDD

yesyes, i knw at this timing i shld be studying and all.

but yeah, i'm feeling a mix-ed kind of feeling now

and i can't seem to concentrate.

i need to rant to someone reali badly,

but apparently i can't seem to find anyone i could talk to.

tear-ed a few moments ago when i hung up th phone.

it's just heartbreaking hearing a close friend feeling terrible;

having a close friend feeling going under depression.

it's just an unspoken kind of solace when it's kind of heartbreaking.

thr's nth i can do to help

since whatever that need to be said,

has alrdy been said and somewhat, it just don't seem to help.

it's lyk wondering if my existance reali matters.

jus feel terrible!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARH! how man?

and now i'm feeling lyk as if i'm kind of useless in whatever i'm doing.

i've been trying my best to do th best i know how,

but everythng jus does not seems to go right at all?

Oh Lord, i reali pray you'll give me th strength and wisdom.

i reali need them. need them reali badly.