memories.

once again, lots of thoughts came upon today;

went school in th morning, handed up stuff and cabbed home.

changed and off to vivo to meet bestfriend.

bought shower gel and body lotion from bodyshop for upcoming korea trip.

walked arnd, and didn't get to buy my toe socks.

abt 1plusl left vivo for pp, to collect bag.

on th trip back to pp, tears that i've been holding back

since th starting of th day start to flow,

& i knew bestfriend was sort of worried and pissed at th same tym.

i didn't knw how to put th reason i cried into words.

i'm reali sorry.

waited for bestfriend to return wit bag at some building as it was raining.

while waiting for bus, i told bestfriend th reason why i cried.

i cried cos, thoughts of th world arnd me changing upon my return from korea,

made me reali afraid and lost at th same tym.

i was reali fearful that everythng will just change when i'm away.

lyk having bestfriend and wife, turning a back at me;

having th CG totally forget that i even exist;

& worst of all, having noone realise that i'm not in SG for th past week,

& tt even if i've reali gone MIA, noone will even realise.

but somehow, i suddenly rmb-ed what bestfriend told me when having lunch

" if you go MIA, i'll call your phone until bao! & if u go MIA, i'm gg to kill u."

it some sort, comforted me in a sense.

& guess what, while playing a fool at th busstop,

and when my bus arrives, i suddenly wanted to hug bestfriend,

but it turned out to be a laughing stock.

saddening right?

for now, i seriously and reali feel lyk hugging someone reali tight.

okays, i'm done!!

ohohoh, i'm leaving for korea in less than 48hours tym.

& i'm starting to miss bestfriend;

i'm starting to miss church!!