♥ HOME-Y!

home-y thursday; ♥

yes, th picture explains what i have been doing th entire day today. cos i slept in all th way until 2plus in th afternoon before i woke up. and was kinda lazy to leave th hse; so decided tht today i shall just stay in th entire day! :> nth productive today, just a matter of fact tht i watch-ed a few movies and dramas online. then txt-ed a few people. created a new collage for my lappy wallpaper. and edited a few photos. ohya, and i went for night jog today after so long. enjoy-ed th night breeze blowing against my face as i pace myself. and ofc i challenged myself to climb up th stairs instead of taking th lift after a good nice jog! HAHA! total shiok-ness! ♥

ohyes! i'm going to bake tmr!! making cornflake cookies i think. trying out a new recipe tht i found on th internet! YAY! then off to school to meet jamine for a tad bit. then to meet E and C i suppose. just for a short while before heading to toapayoh for theory lesson! might be meeting mayp at night too! :>

♥ 18-CHEFS!

All present except one;
E,C,YW,GW,YS,S,V,K,KL,M,ED ♥

last paper today, and i can scream WHOO!!! :>
met C in th morning to mugg, and V came wit cereal and bbt then ED pop by before meeting his friend. lunch-ed wit M and C before meeting J to go exam venue tgt. Dfund was kinda easy unlike ckt! ckt is lyk a " oh-shit! i totally dk how to do!" thng, but both dfund and maths is lyk " sectionA confirm full mark alrdy" thng. see th difference?

ohwells; met ED,V,C,K,KL after paper and movie-d. freak th shit out of me while watching "the ring". but apparently it not tht scary. just th sound effect i suppose. HAHA. off to simei for 18chefs after E and M came. slack-ed around. and gg into details can't explain th company of joy tht we had. but sadly WJ didn't join us : <

♥ FAINT!

tied down; & not very happy about it :<

soyupp, met J up in th morning before heading to school. wanted to get my pink slippers from NUM actually, but they neither have my size nor th colour i want. and thus E can continue making me jealous over his imba Red slippers that he bought ytd. ohwells, went singtel to reserve BB first before heading to subway then back to school. meet up wit th usuals at design to get some stuff then off to engine canteen to study. and tht was when i serioulsy freak out. cos when J showed me th past year papers, th initial questions were still do-able. but subsequently i blank-ed out. and yes, i panicked. so back to design to "de-stress".

emaths1 wasn't as bad as i thought it was. though couldn't do some questions here and there but still. confirm pass-able. but being able to score well is another story. ohwells, now i've ckt paper to worry abt and tht sucks alot. haven't really finish studying though was at school studying all th way until 8plus. guess ckt isn't my cup of tea. just suck at physics.

headed for dinner wit C,K,M,KL at tm. E dropped by. and bus-ed back home. was totally shag. oh, and thanks E for th coffee.
it kept me awake throughout th maths paper :>

♥ POST-IT!

A step closer to something nicer; ♥

study session today was over @ downtown east. and th main point was to make sure C study or shld say force him to study. but apparently everyone just got so distracted and carried away when he got inspiration for his score. ohman, spent a good hour or two "brain-storming" and at th same tym just pure slacking! HAHA.

soyupp, study session was wit C,K,V and ED today. E came to find us after his work though by tht tym ED and V have already left for home. accompanied E to get tht red pair of havanias which made me super envious. cos th pink pair tht i want doesn't have my size. and up to today, only did i realise tht my feet is actually super small. th current dupe slippers i'm wearing is a size 6. but for havanias, size 6 is too big and apparently tht brown pair, size4/5 seriously made my feet look super small. and E kept makinng fun of me! :<

emaths 1 tmr. wish me luck as i head off to bed. and my throat is starting to hurt a lil. tell me abt it. i don't want to fall sick during this exam period. ohya, before i go. a random note. i saw E 7 times this week, and there's SJC dinner tmr. and tht will make it 8 times in a row. ohman, this big brother of mine. just enjoy irritating me! HAHA! :>

♥ STONE-Y!

sth bloody happen today; sad-ed :<

just got home a while ago cos apparently i missed my last bus from hg but caught th last bus from woodlands. and ended up walking home from yck primary school which took say a good 30mins. was on th phone wit E all th way from there to th door step of my hse though. thanks for company yo! much appreciated! (:

anyways, woke up late this morning at abt 1015 when i'm suppose to meet V at woodlands @ 11. met her at amk before training down tgt though. so sorry my dear. was totally zonk-ed out from th previous night. slept lyk around 3plus4 in th morning. soyupp, chit-chatted here and there. a small ranting session for both of us actually. soyupp, tym flew quite quickly and met up wit K after her CO. lunch-ed at KFC. yes again! ohmans, so unhealthy. must start to eat healthy alrdy. where's my subway? where's my greens? HAHA!

headed to RP for our study session soon after meeting YS. and we "drumm-ed" our way to RP while walking there. i bet ppl was lyk giving those weird expression, wondering what are th 4girls doing "singing" in th middle of nowhere. as in not literally singing, but lyk saying out th drum-ing beats and stuff. reach-ed, and everyone sort of get settle-d and started studying. all was fine until sth bloody happened. lucky E and C wasn't arnd to witness! seriously. such a embarassment.

ohwells, shan't elaborate in details what happen-ed already. soyupp, V head-ed off to work while i went cwp to get some things done and ofc getting bubble tea for th girls before heading back RP. back to intense studying upon reaching, and tht was lyk arnd 5plus6 alrdy. and that was also went th girls told me they manage to wake E up! ohyupp, did i mention earlier that C didn't join us to study this morning cos apparently both E and C partied until 4am this morning, and ton for 2hours before catching th first bus home? HAHAH.

soyupp, to continue this post; E reach-ed around 8plus lyk finally. and th duration he took to travel to RP was equals th tym i took to finish a complete maths paper which consist of 8 different topics. ohwells, what's new? HAHA. studied and doddled a lil longer until about 9plus and it was when i got addicted to "dear angel by april sixth." totally pwn luh th song! i lyk! HAHA. "drumm-ed" bdazhu once before leaving for dinner.

that's about it actually. fun wit E and th girls around as usual. and i just realised. just this week alone i saw; K 5 times. YS 5 times. V 5 times. C 3 times. E 6 times. HAHA! it's lyk such a salvo peeps week! :> and i'm meeting K,V,C tmr again! YS is not joining us and i'm not sure if E's popping by though. i'm just loving it! :>

♥ WEIRD!

C.U.T.E ♥

i just bathe-d and th water is freezing cold.
i regrett-ed not switching on th heater :<

ohanyways, was wit salvo peeps th entire day today;
from th start of th day until i took bus home (Y).
was suppose to meet K and C at 11am today but i was slightly late and C was even later. it took 3person to give him morning call, to have him really woken up and stuff. how amazing. HAHA! soyupp, didn't really touch books today actually. attempted to complete my theory hmwk but failed terribly.

E came to meet us for a bit after A and V came. left shortly for lunch wit his friends, and C went lib to use th computer. A left soon after and K left wit her friends for her paper. smart C left his hp wit us unknowingly only to find out minutes before he went for his exam. HAHA. best. totally.

started raining really heavily and stuff. so V and sher decided to go engine to concourse to study cos, there's lyk usually th quiet-tess as compared to th other schools. walked all th way until blk25 and we settled. attempted to lyk really get serious work done, but we lyk only manage say 70%? we spent th rest of th 30% cam-whoring, roaming arnd engine, "drumming", and ofc doing stupid things! (:

left school arnd 5plus6 after meeting M.soyupp. and as usual, i was late for lesson.

stupid traffic! seriously dislike peak hours! :<

met up wit th rest after lesson for wanton mee and E came back to join us.

look-ed kinda different today, someone was lyk all dress-ed up.

style-d hair, formal shirt, dark jeans, leather shoes. HAHA. not bad not bad at all. HAHA.considering th fact tht most of th tym he's lyk in tee/berms/slippers/cap. HAHA.

ohwells, head-ed off to train. C and E off to clarke quay to meet their friends to club/pub; and M,K,V and sher train-ed th other direction. okay, anyways. i've got th sudden urge to go down jog now. but th tym is lyk 125am. tell me abt it, it's th 7th month somemore :X and since, a matter of fact is tht i'm in FBT attire now; FBT running shorts/singlet. i'm so in th mood. i shall wake up early to have morning jog tmr before gg off to meet V and th rest to study.
and i've got th sudden craving for tau huey!! :>

♥ PERFECT!

bestf love ♥

Met bestf up in th early after for study session @ airport! On our way there, did some major catching up lyk updating each other on our individual lives as it has been ages since i last met up wit her to chit-chat and stuff. and i find it uniquely amazing tht i've known her for 8years, and our friendship is still going strong. but it just felt as if i have known her forever.

studied here and there; and we both just got distracted. chat-ed here and there-randomly again and finally did some serious studying. cam-whored for abit and she left while i stayed a lil longer. left around 7plus8 to meet E at pasir ris for dinner.

hidden talent ♥

soyupp, met up at whitesands before heading over to ehub for mr.chicken rice. and we race-d up th escalator. as in lyk i took th escalator and E took th stairs (: but anyways, shop was closed when we reached. so walked over to another place for chicken rice! HAHA. thanks for th treat E! (: chit-chatted here and there. childhood memories brought up. i lyk! (: as we talk talk talk talk and talk even more, it was lyk alrdy nearly 11. so walk-ed to busstop.
had lots of laughter throughout dinner and stuff.

; all in all, todayy was a day of laughter+joy.
thanks to E & bestf! ♥

♥ STAYOVER-S!

yet-to-be-name! ♥

YESTERDAY; all was there to add in tht lil amount of joy! ♥
E,C,YW,GW,ED,V,K,YS came to stayover.
couple of words to summarize; GREAT COMPANY! (:

♥ JOY-S!

ENDLESS SMILES! ♥

TODAY; sher was kinda reluctant to drag herself to school for dfund/emaths/ckt make-up plus revision lesson. and while on th bus, sher's ckt lab tutor called her to inform tht ckt session will be cancelled which will thus leave sher a whole hour of doing nth while waiting for YS to end lecture! day was kinda bore until later part when met up wit E for a bit. and as quoted by him; "MY MARVERLOUS STORY!" haha. full of crapp and stuff. made me laugh lyk there's no tmr. it all started when i started wit his "gf-s" storryy, and someone just had to come out wit sth else! HAHA! (:

MORAL; ♥

so as stated in th pictures above, th moral of th story is tht

" ERIC IS A FLIRT. E LIKES TO MAKE ME=sher DIE!" :X

th story was kinda funny and all, doesn't really make sense actually,
but made me laugh lyk crazy.

YS, YY and her friend joined later; more laughters was introduced!!! YAY! I LYK! :D

oh and then head-ed to yishun to study wit; Ed,V,K.

walk back home was scary, thanks D for th company! (:

YOG 1YR COUNTDOWN; ZINGO PERFORMANCE! ♥

back track a lil; FRIDAY; down at padang to watch zingo's performance as well as to witness th 1year countdown of YOG. everything was good until sth happen-ed, that made me tear-ed in public. ohwells, things are fine as it is now. thanks for that long chat on th phone E! much appreciated :D

WEDNESDAY; off to airport straight after school to pick cousin stanley and his family up plus sharon who's going to return to ny very very soon. went wit dad, and off to their apartment which was located at somerset. settle-ed down a lil, and went walking around town area before heading to chinatown to find aunty wendy for dinner. ohwells, it's good to have overseas relative over at sg sometyms; everythng just get paid for. WHOOOOO!!!!!

anyways, random for now; i've made up my mind to leave for awhile. i've set aside tym for myself to do some thinking, and i've thought it through. don't ask me why i've came up wit such an abdrupt decision, even though many of you thought tht i was just hanging by th thread. and hopefully, i'll be back on fire lyk i was last tym. but, it's just a sad fact tht need to be face-d. haven't really spoken to any of you about this decision that i've made. but somehow or rather, it's difficult. but i'll stay firm onto th decision i made. i shld say that now is just not th tym. yet. i need tym to adjust. mayb i'm just too comfortable.

♥ NAPPS!

chains of long words ♥

just came back from supper wit darwin, edo and kenneth @ ave8 (:
manage-ed to catch th last bus!

not going to post th other grp pic wit kenneth, cos it's not very nice plus ken was th one moving and stuff! hahah! so yupp, supper was fun today. talk-ed abit here and there; laughters as usual. and up to today then i realised that i'm actually quite "platium 1" regarding church stuff alrdy. lyk sort of long never talk to th churchies alrdy! ohwells. and sth learnt today; darwin's qoute: " Randomness sprouts conversation. being confident=can be random!"
YAY! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

; school was alright today i guess. kinda slack actually. all i did was; wrtoral submission, dfund make-up class and ckt lab. i seriously need to buck up on my ckt theory. it's lyk i'm okay at lab, always merely almost full marks. but in theory it's lyk down th drain. going to force myself to study and memorize all th formulas. and ofc trying my best to uds th concepts and stuff. SHER! GOGOGOGO! i can't afford to let this particular module pull my GPA down. cos my other modules are okay! or shld say, i'm quite confident in!

and th girls; J,M,S & i went for th rice walk thngy before lunch-ing today! 2rounds only though. M and i pose-ed for th camera man!!! HAHAHAHA. hilarious. okay, i'm done here! more posts soon! (:

♥ LONG-DAY!

sher累了!

today was a long day for me though school officially ends at 12pm. cousin stanley and his family arrived in singapore this afternoon, and was wit them all th way from 2plus until lyk kinda late. just reached home not long ago. really tiring to be walking walking and more walking just around town, when a matter of fact is tht i don't really knw how to converse wit them. ohwells, had wanton mee and vietnamese food today. and i'm so sorry C for ps-ing you way before you reach airport. really really sorry.

anyways, justa few days back i came about th realisation abt some stuff and i'm here to rant it out. but after reading, please don't ask me anything. cos i don't think, i'll tell anyone abt it plus, if th person that i'm referring here reads it, i don't think he/she will even knw that i'm talking about him/her. cos sher being sher; is very good in keeping and covering emotions! ;

th ranting shall start now;

i guess as much this will happen from th moment i decided to once again rekindle this thought inside me. cos at least thr was a glimpse of hope here and there. and having th thought in mind that, mere contact was more than enough to bring me through th day. but later, i found myself falling deeper into it. and i start to question myself if this is what i really want. and mayb i was just not good enough. cos comparing my assumptions, i was nowhere nearby.

and i guess right now, i'm tired of making excuses to make myself feel better. cos th feeling sucks lyk mad. lyk totally to th max. i want to try to isolate myself from th entire situation tht only i am aware of, but on th other hand. i can't bring myself to. and this i have to be honest to myself. i can't let this cycle of self-decieve-ing go on and it seems lyk no end. i can't see whr i'm leading myself to. i hate to admit tht i'm kinda lost now. one part of me is telling me to just move on; act as if i'm totally comfortable. but th other part of me is telling me to just hold on to it; cos there might be a finishing line to it.

confuse-d. idk what to do. idk who to talk to. i've attempted those countless long busrides, that allow myself to do some serious deep thinking; but it don't seem to work anymore. somehow, i feel tht there will be a day whereby you'll come straight to my face and tell me to shut th hell up. and just mind my own business; and not to be a try-hard tht you dislike. i'm trying to shut myself up to. it's lyk, i even tried to isolate myself from th hp. lyk just totally ignore. but there's always this weird feeling. idk why. me myself oso dk. and this suck even more. not knowing yourself. so much for self-assurance.

i'm starting to wonder if i practice what i preach. it's lyk i'm giving advices to people who situation i'm in before, but i'm not doing it. sometyms, i feel lyk giving myself a super hard tight-slap across th face, to wake myself up. cos it's seriously tym for me to clear up this big mess tht i've gotten myself into.

♥ DINNER TREATS!

company of endless joy & laughter! ♥

school was as per normal today, just tht i really had difficulty waking up this morning. totally shag to th max. idk how many tyms E shouted into th phone just to make sure i'm awake. HAHA. but thanks for th morning call though! (:

so anyways, th hightlight of today was dinner wit E, C, WJ, K & YS! went to meet C, K and YS first at business, as we slack off our tym while waiting for E and WJ. completed quite a bit of final report which is due on thursday. K and YS was studying. WJ came to join us shortly, and obviously E was th latest! HAHA! and guess what, wit th help of K and YS, both E and WJ had their hair tied up! WHOO! (:

HAHA! alright, soyupp; slacked around for abit before deciding to leave and stuff. can't really decide whr to settle down for dinner though. and C suggested tht he should just lead th way, but apparently he made us walk a big round and lost his way. he even attempted to call his friend to ask whr's th exact location can. and guess what, th so called "korean-food" thingy was just at th basement! HAHAH. joke of th day man, seriously. anyways, settled down at BBQ CHICKEN!! (:

took quite a long tym to decide what to eat. or should say i took a very long tym to decide! HAHA. didn't really have th appetite and stuff. but still ordered though. and sitting opposite E is a joke. he ate his "original chicken" lyk eating KFC chicken! and his attempt to use fork/knife to "cut" th chicken failed, and ended up using his hands! HAHA. super funny. and ohya, th pics above this right, E came up wit a story!

(fish) seniors/juniors still not very comfortable wit each other; cos everybody still new. & that explains why all so straight.
(chicken cutlet)seniors/juniors starting to loosen up and start to talk and stuff. that explains why abit clutered alrdy.
(black-pepper chicken)seniors/juniors very comfortable wit each other. and talk/play and stuff. that explains why got sauce whereby everything mix tgt!(:

kinda funny actually, but sorta made sense! HAHAHAH.

in th midst of dinner; crap-ed, crap-ed and crap-ed somemore. it's lyk laughter after laugher after laughter. talk-ed about alot of random stuff, and discuss-ed about what movie we're gg to watch during th stayover at my hse on th 18th. everything's kinda plann-ed out alrdy. but sad to say, E and YS have to go school th nxt day :( ohwells, i'm still excited for it! it's in one week's tym! WHOO! (:

then somehow, everyone was in th take-photo mood. so we just take take take take take take take. and luckily my dear viewty is super guai today. resolution and quality of pictures taken is not bad at all (: ohya, somethng random here for a bit. E knock-ed into th hanging lamp twice within th duration of th dinner when he stands up! HAHA. damn funny, and he keeps apologising to th person there. HAHA. oh anyways, slack-ed abit. and started playing some chinese words game thngy randomly. to sum it up? i think E's chinese is th "best" man!! HAHAHAHAHA :D

bill-ed and off for grp shots again after E went off to meet his friend. and guess we spent a good half-an-hour or so, taking photos even after E left. HAHA. we just stand there and spammmm. and tht's th reason why i've decided to put all th photos in anigif instead of posting each photo as itself. if i did tht right, i think this post will never going to end! HAHA. soon after, decided to go walk around since C was looking for wallet. but ended up spending money on a top from topman! (:

picture taken when C was trying out th top in th changing room, which seems forever! HAHA.

; to sum up th entire day - HAPPY;JOY;LAUGHTER!

though was actually kinda moodless throughout th day and stuff, but this seriously brightens up and lightens up my dad. apart from th convo i had wit E in th morning on th way to school. but ohwells, th only thng i can say is tht, wit this grp of company around; that's when you see th colours in your life! ♥

post update about today soon.
not really in th mood and stuff;
cos i don't feel myself. moodless. expressionless.
don't knw what's wrong.
i need a breather. i need to let it out.
i need to cry.
and this sucks totally.
mayb i'm just clueless about myself.

♥ NATIONAL DAY!

• Time check: 2 13 AM
• Day: Monday.
  

great company! ♥

so much for being patrotic, and a singaporean uh. majority in black. or shld i say R and YS were th only two that weren't in black today! HAHA(:

FIRST thing up was over at tampines central park whereby we watch-ed th seniors perform! as good as always, at least for me. and i'm really sorry for being late today. lyk made K, YS and PS run since salvo was lyk gg to start to perform and stuff >.< anyways, helped to move th drum stands and all; back to school to slack wit th seniors until abt 1115, before heading to carl's jr for lunch. picture above is not th full grp cos some of th seniors left for home, some for performance and etc. soyeah, but nevertheless, they were great company. lyk lots of laughter and stuff. can't wait man, think they are lyk planning a chalet thingy this coming hols!!! WHOOO!! (:

SLICE; dessert! ♥

head-ed off to town wit YS and K after tht to meet V to shop around! (: had dessert at SLICE before walking around. YS left early when i was putting my silver strips hair extentions, which prolly just took a few minutes or so. K did th same too though! (: lyk finally, i put it after so long of indecisive-ness! was considering to put more and stuff, cos it's lyk 4strands isn't that visible actually. HAHA. ohwells. shop-ed around before heading over to paragon. went muji and didn't find what i wanted. sad-ed, so end up just getting milk tea from there. walk-around before heading for K's house. was a total change of plan. initial plan was to lyk catch fireworks display at marina, but apparently too many ppl arldy. soyeah. bus-ed over to woodlands.

lots of love! ♥

TON-ED quite a bit here and there. more of chatting than anything else actuali. watch-ed snakes on plane as well as SI auditions that set all of us laughing our ass-es off some really ridiculous performances! HAHA(: crap-ed here and there before leaving for dinner/supper at some coffeeshop. where we really did some chit-chat sessions. not much of a heart-to-heart. but at least, th conversation did make us get to knw each other better and all. YAY! (:

kway-chap! ♥

KWAY-CHAP-ED for dinner/supper. and had a heart-warming conversation wit both V and K. chatt-ed quite abit until about 11plus, before V and i decided to head home and stuff, if not we'll miss th last bus home. but end-ed up train-ing instead. was really glad to share wit V things that i never thought i would. but sharing those things, really do make me think back upon alot of things. alot of things that had happened, of which some that i regretted not putting in more effort to change th situation/circumstance and all. ohwells, lyk what i told V. along th path, there will always be falls/trips that we'll come across that will definitely hurt; but through this experiences and falls, it forces us to stand up once again, and tht is when we learn. though it will be tough. but we just have to persevere on and when we look back, we'll find it all worth it. lyk what th saying goes, what doesn't make you fall, makes you stronger!

it sets me thinking once again tonight, about this 20% that i've always been trying to avoid. but recently, i realised that not only am i living in it, i am lyk trying to run away from it. false fronts become sth that is habitual to me. hiding from it seems to be sth that i'm getting a hang off alrdy. and tht isn't sth tht i want to portray. it's lyk i've been doing alot of deep thinking recently, be it randomly or whatsoever. i'm lyk getting myself stuck. stuck in this mess that i've created myself. i see myself falling deeper inside. but truely and deeply, i knw tht it's a one-sided thng tht i'm facing. i've to learn how to protect myself. too much deep thinking is not good. ohwells, i guess i'm just not good at words. th mind works in a way whereby i'm totally speechless.

overnight-ing at airport cancell-ed today cos J have sth on tonight.
sad-ed ttm, cos if tht's th case;
i've to wake up super early tmr just to make my way over to tampines.
if's thts th case, i'm not sure if i'll sleep tonight.
considering th fact tht i woke up at 3pm today
and i can't decide if i shld make my way down to bedok to meet th rest to study.
cos apparently, dk what tym J have to leave and dk what tym B and th rest are studying until.
if i make my way down now, it's lyk not here and not there! HAHA!
i'm kinda lazy to leave th house right now ;
but if i don't go and study wit them, i'm not sure if i'll hit th books ltr on my own.
plus, i'm not sure if will be meeting up wit K for prata ltr.
and on top of all this, i don't feel myslf.
and tht sucks big time.

♥ READING!

• Time check: 3 04 AM.
• Day: Thursday.

marked; betrayed; chosen! ♥

reading, reading and more reading! this few days, have been spending my tym reading a while new lot of vampyre series, and got really sucked into th book. think about this way, i spend 30$ on 2books just within 3days. not as if it's a big woohaa about me spending on books and stuff. cos 30$ is actually not alot as compared to alot of other great books out there and stuff. but my point here is that; so much for th saving scheme tht i've been working on. so much for only spending 30$ a week from th allowance i get! HAHA! anyways, i bought th 2nd book on monday and th 3rd book today! WHOOOOO!! (:

so anyway, cca training today as usual. revised here and there on th actions that we learnt on monday. and learnt more today, or shld say, we completed learning all th actions that are required in B DAZHU!. quite an achievement, but well mistakes here and there for me during last drumming. but practice makes perfect! whats more th nxt training would only be lyk during th hols in september. going to really miss training and stuff man. both th company plus th th enjoyment/challenge in learning th different drumming stuff. ohwells, time flies and soon it'll be holidays alrdy. plus, August is ending super soon. making it sound a long way to go, september is next month. but technically, it's just lyk say 3 weeks to go! HAHA! (:

dinner after training as usual, but C and E didn't join us. table was kinda quiet without C there to lyk make noise and all. but there was laughter though. lyk laugh-ed quite abit over CW's chinese. bus-ed home with ryan after that and thanks D for th company over th phone while i was walking home. was kinda freaked out as i walked back home just now actually. thuogh th path was just beside th main road and stuff, but it was super quiet. no traffic and all. all i heard was crickets. plus as always, big shady trees at night do not help much in th situation; plus th fact tht there's a man sitting in th middle of no whr on th side benches. freak-ed me out totally! actually wanted to call E. but being as nice as always, decided not to disturb as E was project-ing. soyeah! thanks D! :D

overnight movie marathon over at my place somehow settled alrdy. can't wait. and ask me why i'm still online at this tym? rushing wrtoral as always. but that's only part of th reason. i think my bio-clock is screwed. lyk seriously. it's kinda rare finding my aslp at lyk before 12 every night. unless i'm seriously very tired! HAHAHA! and thankfully, E is giving me morning call tmr. okay, toodles! (:

♥ TWIRLS!

exactly how i'm feeling now actually; abit here and abit there. it's until up to today tht i realise, i actually wanted more. it's until up to today tht i realise, how badly i wanted things to happen th way i've imagine. it is kinda heart wrenching thinking about it, but somethngs just can't be helped. for now, it's up to a point whereby, things are going on repeat. it's lyk a de javu once again. th familiar feeling is somewhat there, but somewhat not. ohsnos, i'm speaking in ironies again. this isn't going anywhr, and it isn't good at all. not a fair bit.

for things do happen for a reason, i really hope dreams come true sometyms. not normal daydreams that you imagine yourself inside. but those dreams that you usually have while sleeping and stuff. in those dreams, things just felt so surreal; it will just feel as if i'm directly in th dream, experiencing what i thought was just a dream/wish worth wishing for. but at th end of th day, it's just a dream afterall. upon waking up, it's all gone. just by a breathe. and that's that - period.

i wanted it so much, tht i found myself smiling just by having a thought of it. i wanted it so much, that i held myself back tyms and tyms again; coming up wit stupid excuses just to make myself feel better. sometyms, simple actions was all it takes to make my heart just skip a a beat. but when awkwardness strikes in, my heart really sank. attention seeking is not my forte; i want to engage but idk how. ohwells, being just me. sometyms i hope understanding will sink in. but peep-ing is all i can do i guess. i should learn to just accept it.

♥ BUS-RIDES!

happy 20th CHC! ♥

slept at 4am th previous night and woke up at 6am. tell me about it! explains why i was super tired throughout th 2 services today. and IS f&b seriously not worth paying man! it's lyk 8$ for a hotdog bun! totally LOL-ed la. but YM still bought th tuna sandwich which cost a whopping 4$. and edo bought a can of coke for 3$. dannon bought hello panda for 2.5$. and i spend 2$ on a cup of hot tea, which i think it's th onli thing tht's worth it! lyk cheap and stuff! HAHA! (:

alright, celebration was okay i suppose; th only sad fact was that i kept nodding off and all. jared hired a bus to dhouby so hitch-ed a ride, but didn't join churchies for lunch though. and J talk-ed to me today. set me thinking about alot of stuff. and coming to think of it, it's lyk in one way i've disappoint him, in one way i'm lyk bringing myself down and all. and in a matter of fact, i realise it's th choice i made tht made situation lyk this arise this day. so decided to bus home, since long bus rides always sets me thinking; deep thinking.

am now over a mayp's hse for stayover. doing nothing much actually, staying over for th sake of staying over i suppose. needa get up really early tmr. cos' i'm meeting JO at tampines before school starts as usual. and i'm having a random kinda of feeling right now. ohwells, making excuses is lyk my forte somehow. and it never fails to make me feel better. seriously. wondering what i'm talking about? just keep wondering then.

L.O.T.S

are running through my mind right now;

right decisions are vital to th direction things are going, be it any circumstances.

i was just wondering when will th fullstop come to this tedious sentence.

ohwells, speaking in ironics might be my cup of tea

but at th end of th day; i can't run away from reality.

♥ HAPPENINGS!

• Time check: 1 47 AM.
• Day: Saturday.

sing-ing, sing-ing, & more singing! ♥

today was a fruitful day for me though it was a lil daze-ly throughout th whole day. as always, i manage to put up a front and appear to be normal. but yeah, nothing much is going on inside. just some thoughts that have been running through my minds i guess.

FIRST thing up; met up wit E and C at bedok's mac first before YW, GW and marc came. then walked over to kcc for our k-singing session. didn't really sing much actually, cos i'm more to th english songs kind, and didn't really knw much chinese songs apart from those few that bro used to blaze at home. HAHA! K and V came by around 4plus5, and we continue-ed singing all th way until say 7plus. took a lift from marc, E and C to bugis as they cab-ed there; they went for meeting while i head off to town to meet J and M.

results of super-long escalators ♥

shopp-ed a lil around ion and sorta got lost cos it's our first tym thr plus thr is lyk super alot of people thr. lyk seriously. got th same pair of sandals from rubi shoes as M! (: walked around in search of food cos yours'truely was starving very badly. and gastrics didn't do much of a help. settle-ed down at macs for dinner; shaker fries is LOVE! (: chit-chatted abit here and there, and it was nearly 9plus10 alrdy. and since was craving for tauhuey, ask-ed E if meeting was over and stuff. soyeah, walk-ed down to dhouby to find E and WY while J and M headed home.

supper companies for th night! ♥

TAU-HUEY-ed at somewhr beside laselle! E's treat!! (:
th picture above is kinda funny actually. as what WY illustrates; she looks lyk she want to eat th food but E's "actions" looks as if he wants to eat her!!! HAHAH! (: was super funny and all. chit-chatted here and there. stuffed my share of youtiao/shui-jinbao to E as i really cmi alrdy. lyk full to th max alrdy. HAH! crap-ed quite alot and decided to leave for home.

Laughter; Peace & Joy! ♥

bus-ed to boon keng instead of cabbing home directly from paradize centre. WY and E alighted at th same stop as me just to accompany me to hail a cab home.
THANKS SO MUCH! (:

all in all, today was a tiring day. but i seriously had lots of fun!
I'M LOVING IT!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

♥ EARLY!

Thanks for the coffee, E! ♥

sher is home early today cos daddy offered to fetch her up from school th moment th thought of cabb-ing home came across her mind during lab just now
cramp's really kinda bad today, plus i'm super duper tired. after so many days of late nights, rushing out stuff, studying, or of course reading my story book! (: i think i'm heading off to bed after this blog post of th day, and shall only wake up when i feel lyk it. mayb during midnight? or say th next morning?
cos sher do not have school tmr! YAY! HAHA!

anyways, lucky i manage to wake up and get ready for school today! E was suppose to give me a wake up call at 8 since by tht tym he should alrdy be otw to sch since he needs to clock in by 830; but he didn't. when on th way to school,
dropped him a random txt and
"oh shit! your sms woke me up! ohman, i overslept!"
HAHA! it was then 930 alrdy can.
WTH right. HAHA. soyeah, as usual, he was late for sch AGAIN. HAHA (:

school was alright i guess. trying to pay attention during ckt lectures, which totally bores me cos i don't really lyk ckt as a subject. wrtoral room was super cold, tht i was practically freezing. smart me didn't bring a cardigan today. :X lunch at bistrowalk and E came wit coffee. emaths lec was alright. ckt lab was a mist. didn't really get it at first, but manage to when i did it a step by a step.
and BOOOO!!! I'M HOME!!! (:

might have outing wit some of th salvo seniors tmr, but C haven't got back to be on details yet. ohwells, shall see how it goes when i'm done wit my sleep!
now, my pink bed is calling me ♥

♥ ESCAPE!

escaping; but denying is not the solution. ♥

salvo wasn't that bad today. brushed up here and there for those actions that we've learnt on monday and stuff. proceeded to learn the crossing of hands today. but sad to say, my left hand is still kinda retarded. lyk can't seem to lock my wrist. Smay taught me and all, but true to say. i really did put in th effort to try to lock my wrist. practice makes perfect! :D

random-ness; i find myself quite wierd this few days/weeks. lyk being moodless now and then, or should say having moodswings. one moment i'm lyk as high as a aeroplane can go, and one moment i'm lyk just practically stone-ing with a blank mind. ohmans, this is bad. i'm not sure what is going on with me; totally clueless. shall have ranting sessions wit E soon!!!! (:
on top of that, i have been having splitting headaches every now and then. idk if it's th minimal hours of sleep that i have been having this few tyms that is causing it. moreover, i haven't been having proper meals as well. no appetite. lyk for today. all i had was cereal, red tea, bubble tea, biscuits for th entire day. ohwells.

okay, enough of those stuff alrdy; on a lighter note; i'm seriously considering of re-highlighting my hair and thus making it into lyk a 3-tone kinda thngy. base colour is lyk fading off and it looks more lyk black than brown to me. current light brown highlights are fading too much tht i doubt if it's even visible. i was thinking of putting near-blonde highlights. not sure if it suits me. plus red/pink extentions. okay, this is crazy. or i think i'm crazy. HAHA! ohwells, if it's not; then it's not me alrdy! YAY! (:

♥ MEET-UP!!



DAMIEN CHEW was my company of th day today! came down all th way from bukit batok to find me at tampines! felt so honoured! (: met E for awhile too; felt really bad. cos he came down from school to interchange to meet up for a tad bit before rushing off. ohwells, shan't elaborate further. HAHA!(:

dinner-ed at century square. crapp-ed quite abit and as always, we talked rubbish! but luckily he didn't lyk "shoot" me lyk machine gun today lo! HAHA! walked around and guess what! D is super duper childish! ohman! it's lyk we were in kiddy palace. and as always, i went to look for my stitch plushy, and D was at th robots/figurines/toys side. it's lyk he seemed all so fascinated over every toy he saw la. HAHA! i even have a picture to prove it! (:

HAHA! damn funny. slack-ed around and headed off to tamp1. and again, D kept singing under th sea... add my own lyrics to under th sea.. WTH! haha. made me laugh lyk made la. seriously. HAHA! after tht train-ed back home! (: enjoyable way to end my day i must say! :DDDDDDDDDDD

rantings for today; was really irritated by what happened this afternoon. i seriously can't stant it when ppl just make a passing remark when in actual fact you've put in th hard work to get things done and stuff. and in a matter of fact, th party who made th comment didn't even lift a single finger; all was done was just words, words and more words. i was just wondering how come to some people, what they do onto others can't be done back to them. but somehow or rather, this became my motivation. i'll push myself harder to achieve better than you people who talk th talk and not walk th talk. it just doesn't pay to be such arrogant. seriously. hate me, i don't really care. my life in school does not revolves arnd th classroom. it revolves arnd th campus. plus, th grp of you? it's just a minute part of my life. ohwells. as much said; i dislike th feeling of someone lie-ing to me. plus, th truth was not told by tht someone, but by me reading it off somewhr. man. this.suck.alot.

♥ un-PREDICTABLE!

lost; in wonderland! ♥

met up wit bestf today to catch HARRY POTTER & THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE after school today. and sad to say it was some sort of a disappointment for me apart for those few scenes thats manage to have me jumping out of my seat for tht few seconds. was actuali looking forward to more action and such, but was not. ohwells, at least th feel came back! think i'll start to read th book over again from book 1! WHOO! (:

anyways, this few nights have been kinda weird for me. it's lyk practically almost every night i have been having funny/retarded dreams and some of them are actually kinda scary. some of which i woke up almost at th brink of crying in th middle of th night. ohmans, sometyms i wonder how this subconcious mind of mine is working! HAHA. yesterday's dream was kinda retard-ed, seriously. i dreamt tht i lost all of my cards except my atm card. and i was panicking in my dream! damn wth! HAHA.

haven't been having random thoughts lately. not even on long bus rides home; or tyms whereby i'm alone and all. and i've just realised tht i've reached a point in life whereby i accepted thngs th way it is, and feel tht no matter what happens, th matter of fact would be wheather i feel lyk doing it anot. willing heart; and tht really speaks it. looking things at perspective has become a thing for me i guess; and it really open up my eyes to lots of things that i didn't take into notice before. for now; i lyk things th way it is right now.
I'M HAPPY; I SMILE & I LAUGH LIKE ALWAYS (:

♥ COUNTING-DOWN!

8 MORE DAYS! CAN'T WAIT! ♥

D is coming to find me in school nxt tues!! can't wait man; totally. haven't seen him in ages. or shld say haven't catch up wit him in ages! finally finally finally!! it's lyk it always happens on th day tht we plann-ed to meet, and sth will just cropp-ed up and we just end up not meeting

D: that time wanna go ur sch, but got bs sia. sway!
ME: LOL! then when can we officially meetttt?? :(

D: hmmm.. i oso not sure. this week cant. tml can't.
ME: this week i oso can't. busy entire week ehs.
D: samesame. mayb nxt week bah.
D: i need to find a slot to slot you in! HAHA.
ME: WTH ! still need to find a slot. feel damn sad now la.

HAHA. tues/thurs. choose a day.
D: HAHA. think tues can. i die die also slot you inside la!

ME: YES!!! (:

D: 9 more days. i reach tht tym sms you.
ME: YES!! you say one uh,

don't last minute come tell me can't make it again. shall go count down! (:

D: HAHA. ya, won't one. don't worry!

soyeah, it totally made my day plus gave my day a good end !! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

anyways, did nth much today; cos gave church amiss, due to th fact tht i woke up at 3pm today. and yes, i was spamm-ed by phonecalls again! even called my home, but apparently tht didn't wake me up. think i was just too tired i suppose. being a filial daughter as i am, i accompanied my parents to go get groceries to stock up my fridge as it's getting empty! and i got th quaker cereal today too!! (: other than tht i kept JW company as he is working at lil india today thru txt and stuff; txt-ed a couple of ppl today too. lucky i've got unlimited sms! (:


okay, i'm good to go now. TIME CHECK: 2.17am i'm meeting J at 1030 later before school starts at 12. okay, and i can't decide whr to go.

♥ ROAMING!

as mention-ed earlier, went to meet J at town randomly today. and tht broke my plann-ed homey day cos apparently i was kinda bored staying at home since by th tym i woke up the entire house was empty. soyeah, initial plan was to go check out th new orchard ion, but sad to say; realised tht official opening is on th 21july'09. ohwells, but th shopping still went on though. YAY! (:

HEEREN > TAKA > FAREAST > WISMA > GAP > CINELEISURE

yupp, thats th route we went today.

• NUM-ed at heeren to help E ask abt th slippers stud thngy.
• Armani-exchange & Mango -ed at taka.
• Didn't manage to get th shirt th J's mum was looking for at Mango.
• T-shirts at AX is nice, but couldn't bare to spend so much just on a top.
• Food-ed ; jap pan pancake! (:
• Walk-ed aimlessly arnd far-east and decided to dinner since both J and i wasn't in th shopping mood.
• Graffiti Cafe-ed ; wanton mee plus peach red tea! (:
• Walk-ed arnd and was tempted to put bright pink extentions but didn't.
• Shopp-ed around wisma and saw this f21 dress tht is very pretty! (:
• Roam-ed and both J&I got a top each from Max&More. YAY! (:
• GAP-ed a lil ; nothing attracts me except their jackets.
• Crapp-ed as we walk down to cineleisure! I LYK! :D
• Fred-perry-ed; saw this shoe tht i lyk but cost a bomb! $141.00! :(

soyeah, tht's basically what we did at town. J was great company! we CRAPPED;TALKED;LAUGHED;STONED! but we forgot to take photo!! :(

random-ness now; i think i need to start saving money alrdy. shld restrict myself to only using $30 every week and saving th rest of my weekly allowance. at th rate i'm spending money, i think i'm gg to go dry very soon! ohsnos, this is bad. i need to save save save save save! please remind me! th tym i should spend money on, is only on things tht i really need and not want!!!!

♥ PHOTOGRAPHY!

picturesssssssssss ♥

i feel lyk taking up photography; seriously. have been having thoughts of going for lessons on photography since a few years back, but just keep procrastinating and all. but procrastination is not th only factor tht is holding me back from taking up classes.

i can't get hold of th SLR camera considering th fact tht it's really expensive. and my parents do not want to sponsor me, cos they think it's really a waste of money for spending so much just on a camera. and i can't afford to get it on my own. it's lyk even if i save and really really intend to get it after i save-d enough, parents will just kill me alive if i were to empty my back account just for a camera.

ohwells, mayb one day my parents will xiang tong! HAHAHAHAH (:

okay, end for now. off to meet J at town. update later! :DDDDDDDDDDD

♥ POPEYES!

out of region; out of th picture! ♥

so basically, day didn't start of well for me today. cos yours'truely woke up late and ended up 20mins late for ckt lec this morning. it's kinda retarded, cos i woke up at 815 this morning telling my maid to wake me up in 15mins tym which is 830. so happily went back to slp, and jumped out of bed suddenly to realise it's alrdy 945. and guess what, this is th best part! when i jumped out of bed, i found my maid sleeping just nxt to me! OHSNOS! i literally panick-ed. got changed and thank God dad offered to send me to school.

was kinda stone-y th entire day. wasn't in th mood of doing anythng. seriously. and during ckt lab, ms Christina told me tht i've change-d. for th better. lyk she commented tht i was more serious in class now as compared to th first few weeks of school. HAHA! think i really did change. at least now i'm trying my best to pay attention during labs, cos it's lyk one of th few components tht can score!! HAHA! and right now, i really have th "i just want to get things done ASAP! and correctly" aren't you all just proud of me? (:

school ended at 5 today. didn't meet up wit alfred in th end, so was "wandering" aimlessly wit J after school. actuali wanted to go north point at first; then was prata at jalan kayu; then tauhway at geylang; then all in all decided for popeyes at airport. HAHA. super random. cos both of us didn't feel lyk going home so early and stuff. soyeah, popeyes was super filling thought at first was craving for sushi at sakae. but didn't go. HAH!

popeyes was such a full session. plus we laugh-ed so much that i think we were lyk th noisest ppl tht when we are lyk onli 2 person thr. YES! HAHA. we laughed and laughed and laughed. ohya, don't ever try popeyes's dessert cos it kinda suck! seriously. shan't post in detailed what happen-ed and stuff. roam-ed arnd and chit-chatted ALOT at T3's viewing mall. but apparently all you can see is your own reflection!!! :(

random-ness. i was thinking, if i were to ask to design my own house; my perfect house, there wld be lyk a balcony kinda thng just right outside my hse! and flooring outside must be wood. then it'll be a small bench thngy where i put my laptop and stuff! :D cos apparently, i just realise tht i lyk sitting on th floor while using my dear lappy! HAHA. (:

♥ SALVO!




picture of th day taken @ AMK after steamboat session ♥

• school was from 9am to 1pm today.
• ended early, had lunch at opp sch and slacked still 2plus.
• since WJ havnen't ended, decided to crash maths support grp wit J and shanice.
• upon reaching WJ txt-ed to say he's done.
• left LT to do wrtoral report not long after.
• met up at 4 and slacked; he played warcraft, i watch-ed YES MAN! on lappy.
• 540pm, WJ accompanied me go meet K which apparently was alrdy at studio.
• traing starts at 6pm.
• revised thought entire B 大组.
• went back to basics on th 90degrees thngy; tiring.
• 9plus, training ended; chatted much.
• home-d without dinner.

okay, that's basically what i did th entire day! nth much, but it was a fruitful day. and there's just sth i want to say out random-ly. if i were to say i totally don't care, and aren't missing you a single bit. i'm just lie-ing. and please, mark my words. i do what i say, and i knw actions speaks louder than words. wait and see. th day will come whereby, i can't contain th sorrows anymore. and then i'll just break-down.

♥ ICE-CREAM CHEFS!

overslept today and ended up being late for 10am lesson, but was within th 15mins grace period! (:

lesson wasn' t tht bad today, just a lil draggy i guess. was kinda lost in maths tutorial, cos didn't really understand what andrew was explaining abt phrasal diagrams and all. wasn't really feeling up to form and tht random guy at th door did not make thngs better. he knew my leg was thr but still forcefully open th door, and sadly it hit lyk damn hard against my heel. even now, thr's a red mark over thr. was damn frustrated lo. and th best part was, he didn't even apologise! WTH!

ICC wit J & mel today after school. then to parkway to walk arnd. so yeah, as usual chit-chatted alot abt stuff and all. mood was kinda affected after bringing up a certain topic. ohwell, i guess it's just me to have thoughts that are too random that i doubt anyone can keep up with th tempo. but things at it is, there's nothing much i can do about it.

♥ SWEETS!

SUNDAY; church in th morning. met up wit K at bugis straight after, then accompanied her to get her instrument stuff. and i'm lyk super tempted to take up lessons on how to play th yangqin!! HAHA! chit-chatted here and there, then bus-ed to AMK from there. met up wit some of th seniors plus vivian and off we go for steamboat arnd 6plus. got take photo, but have to get th photos from vivan first! (: though not alot of people went; chia wei, ruo han, wanyi, charmaine, liyen, vivian, kaleryn & ME! actually still got clement and eric. but apparently, clement had to celebrate his mum's bday & eric got held up by some stuff. so can't join us! sad-ed. totally. however, overall was really fun! shall organize another random outing again!!
YAY! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

MONDAY; met up wit J earlier to revise maths since it was quiz2 that day and school starts at 12pm for me. school-ed for 4hours as usual. what spoilt my day was maths quiz. cos stupid me mislook 16 as 6! and even calculated th entire wrongly. ohmans, i don't think i expect anything higher than 15 this tym round. sigh. ohwells, off to meet weijin, edmund, terrence, clement after tht, and decided to go opp sch for lunch since we had 2hours before salvo starts; clement went studio first though. shan't elaborate further abt what happen-ed opp sch! HAHA! (: CCA was AWESOME!. learnt finish B DA ZUalrdy! in terms of rhythm part. YAY! (: didn't join them for dinner and i knock-ed out almost immediately upon reaching home.

that's about all for updates; can't really think straight. head's hurt-ing lyk crap! :(

♥ STUCK!

I WANT E72!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥

homey day for me today; cos apparently yours'truely woke up at 2pm today! and as usual found th hse empty, except big stitch sitting at th edge of my bed; and i was hugging big bear! HAHAA (: bro bought lunch back for me though, and tht was when i really wake up! and it is a norm for me to wake up super duper late on saturday cos it's my sleeping day. so pardon me if messages/calls are not answered or replied if you call me in th morning, no matter what tym it is.

i'm craving for pepperoni pizza now!!!! actuali wanted to make my way down to siglap to meet J for ICC. but apparently, didn't cos was indecisive and stuff. considering it was alrdy 8pm when this thought came into my head, and J was oso craving for ICC. HAHA (:

okays, thr's salvo random outing tmr!! and we're gg for steamboat. meeting up wit K first though. not alot of them are coming, but sure will be very fun! YAY. can't wait! :DDDDDDDDDDD

♥ STATUS-QUO!

currently stuck to th song like i always do by Drew Ryan Scott. having tht song playing on repeat, and i just won't get bored over it! :DDDDDDDDD

EPT lab test was a failure today. and thr goes my percentage alrdy! damn it. next week will be EPT project week whereby it'll take an overall percentage of 50%! ohman, how to complete if i'm lyk kinda clueless over what is actuali happening. final verdict? i need to learn how to be independant during EPT. can't always ask for help every now and then. lyk checking if my schematic diagram is correct and all. i shld visit FAL more often to familiarize myself wit th equipment soon enought, before it's too late! :(

I GAVE IN TO TEMPTATION TODAY! i bought that navy green puma backpack today! (: but got it at only 29bucks, cos J's friend was working, so i got th bag at staff price!!! YAY! (: super happy, and went arnd telling ppl that i gave in to temptation to get th bag, but i was in fact very very very happy! (: but guess what, clement ong can't wait to see my bag on monday cos he says he want to steal it and re-sell it back to be at 38bucks. and we both have been going on and on abt who's bag is, and who's bag pwn who's bag! HAHA. damn retard!

CG was great today though not alot of ppl turn up at Jared's. fellowship was fun with fried rice cook-ed by darwin, kenneth and gillian; sunny-side-up by jared himself; super crunchy baked french fries; sausages plus pokka jasmine green tea!!! HAHA.

self indulge-ed wit lots of tomato sauce today!! i lyk! (:
plus i gave kenneth face by tasting his fried rice!!!!

and th french fries was so terrible that we all had to play games to sabo ppl to finish it up! ended up wit lots of laughter cos we playing animal game! HAHAHAAH (: and there's a retarded photo of D eating th pot of fried rice using th big rice scooper! oh and i just realise thr's still videos/ pictures that i haven't uploaded on facebook yet! once uploaded, please go see! it's super funny!! :DDDDDDDDDDD

random-ness; tomorrow shall be a homey day as usual. if not, i'll just gather my stuff to granny's hse in th morning to "camp" thr. things to bring include lappy, emaths, ckt. so tht i can revise work! HAHA.was just wondering if i shld drop by sub to say hi or sth in th morning! go visit th old crew! miss them lots man, cos they are super fun ppl to work with! YAY! (:

and somehow or another, i think i'm not gg to do anythng alrdy. i'm just going to let thngs stay th way it is right now. it appears tht you are hoping i do so, so i'm just giving in to you right now. but i really hope these awkward-ness is spared! ohwells.

♥ HECTIC!

colourful balloons never fails to make me smile; and how i wish these happy balloons will take away what i'm feeling right now as it all floats up into th sky.

feeling kinda gloomy right now. lives been kinda hetic, and i'm losing my sleep every now and then. it's lyk an average of 4hours a day of slp is wearing me down quite badly. it's lyk as if falling aslp in front of my dear lappy has become a daily routine. eyebags are getting kinda bad recently. 24hours sleep, where are you?

FIRSTLY;things are starting to get a lil awkward here and there alrdy. and i don't really lyk it. idk what's wrong and stuff, but it seems as if thr's just sth wrong. it might just be me feeling this way, cos all this while it was me tht actuali cared so much; or shld say i was just being a meddlesome person. th situation now is not lyk before whereby th conversation wld just be on-going. thr i was initiate-ing but all i got was a deaf ear i suppose. was this just lyk any others? whereby at th beginning; everythng was smooth sailing but now i might just realise it was all meant to be an illusion. i guess, you were just different. at least to me you are. i am trying to come up wit excuses just to make myself feel better.

SECONDLY;i'm lovesick over tht navy green puma bagpack i saw on tuesday. it was as if it's love at first sight. ohman! told clement how much i wanted th bag so much, but i really needed to save money and all. and mr clement told me to give in to temptation and i shldn't resist if i'm really tempted to get it. and he even came up wit helping me pay $2 cos i treated him to oreo choc on wednesday. plus he say he's too nice, so he'll only give me moral support! HAHA. actualli, coming to think abt it. it's really an awesome deal. lyk th bag is going at $39 when th actual prize was say $60-$70? have been brooding about wheather i shld i get it anot. ohwells, this shall come later. but apparently, i'm kinda afraid all is sold out when i finally have decided to get it.

THIRDLY;school work is starting to pile up alrdy. and this few tyms, distractions have been knocking in unknowing-ly. i can't seem to stay focus during emaths and ckt. emaths isn't tht bad cos it's maths afterall. ckt is such a killer. theorems after theorems. tutor didn't offer much help oso. guess it's all up to me to do my own revision alrdy. if not i can wave byebye to my expected GPA at th end of this semester. and i won't want to repeat this semester if i were to fail! OHS NOS! and tht cannot be happening. think i really need to ring up discipline before it all become to late.

i'm done wit ranting; and i feel lyk going down for a jog right now. seriously need to clear my head! should i or should i not?

♥ BLOCK-ED!

today was just such a tiring day, and i fell aslp during maths lec for th first tym. due to th fact tht i only slept for a short 4hours+ th day before. slept at 4am in th morning and waking up at say 8plus? i was so tired tht i thought first lesson of th day was a 9am lesson instead of a 10am class. plus i even told J tht i intend to skip tutorial. but still went in th end, since i was alrdy ready for school. HAHA (:

anyways, sleepy and restless day today until th tym whereby i 315-ed home from serangoon interchange. met up wit Alfred for a short while to chit-chat since haven't seen him for a very long tym, lyk seriously. th last tym i saw him was say i think after o's after posting. HAHA. still retarded as ever, was rubbish-ing wit him all th way from school busstop all th way until tamp interchange. but sad to say, i still don't have a heart for you. HAHA. shall date him out for dinner/lunch soon to do some catching-up. really miss those crapping tyms man!

soyeah, subway-ed wit amanda for dinner today. crapp-ed and chit-chatted alot here and thr over lots of random stuff. so sorry for eating kinda slow today! HAHAH. eating tomatoes too quickly can't enjoy la uh! HAHA. shopp-ed arnd and i saw this dark navy green-ish puma backpack tht totally caught my eye. and what's more it's going on a discount at only $39!! ohmy ohmy, so tempted to get it. but i needa save money!!! OHSNOS! :( feel so sad suddenly. was wondering if i shld ask for extra pocket money from parents ehs. shld i ?

ohwells, i'm having random thoughts again; not really a good thng if it happens all th tym though. was just wondering if it's just th tym factor tht's making me feel so mixed up recently. lyk looking at thngs at different perspective really do train yourself up for different situations. be it to look thngs at an angle whereby everythng just look so fine and do not allow yourself to sink deeper into sadness, and th other at a pessimist point of view. was just telling bestfriend tht i really miss talking to you. but it's kinda awkward to just start th conversation just out of th blue. and in return, i might not even recieve your response. i must be not in th correct state of mind to do such things man. plus it's not th wrong idea tht i want to portray. don't get it wrong.

♥ CRANKY!

CCA WAS AWESOME TODAY!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

in th midst of training today, th blister at my thumb area broke and apparently, th skin hanging thr was kinda annoying tht stupid me decide to just pluck it out, since it was a nuisance. and now once tht area touches area, th pain comes in. ohman, can someone just tell me how dumb am i? ohsnos :(

anyways, mondays being mondays. and mondays being a day whereby i look forward to every week cos of salvo, pass-ed by kinda quicly. sat thru 2 lectures and 2 tutorials today, and went off to th meet th usual grp of ppl;
clement, kaleryn, vivian, edmund.
lunch-ed at biz. crapp-ed alot, laugh-ed alot, lame-ed alot. it was a tym full of laughters. and stupid clement keep laughing at me cos i'll laugh/giggle and give tht super happy look every single tym i eat fries dipp-ed in tomato sauce. HAHHA. plus we all found out th fact tht when clement is depress-ed he'll laugh/cry at th same tym! ohman! HAHAHAH (:

off to studio4 afterwards. help-ed in setting up drums and all. and training thereafter!! finally get to see weijin today! so happy!!! :DDDDDDDDDD cos he didn't come for CCA last week! ohmans. HAHA. today learnt up to 90% of th entire score alrdy. and seriously, during training. somethng funny happen. it's lyk th juniors were all trying out on our own. and thr's this "bollywood" scene thr and then. and marshall was th tree!!! (: shan't elaborate further but it left vivian, kal, yeesin, edmund and myself laughing as if thr's no tmr!! HAHA. andand just by looking at E and K during training still makes me laugh (:

dinner/supper today was kinda pathetic cos only kal, yeesin, ryan and me join-ed th rest of th seniors. th rest either went home or just went dinner themself. sad-ed. but it was really a fun tym at macs with them. as usual, chat-ed;crap-ed;laugh-ed!!! (:
seriously made my day. can't wait for th random plan-ed outing this coming sunday!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDD

nothing for me to random about at this moment. cos all i have in mind is how am i going to complete my emaths tutorial within th shortest tym possible. if tht's not done, i can kiss my comfortable bed goodbye alrdy.
crap! aren't my dark rings deep enough!
i need my 24hrs slp very soon! :X