♥ un-PREDICTABLE!

lost; in wonderland! ♥

met up wit bestf today to catch HARRY POTTER & THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE after school today. and sad to say it was some sort of a disappointment for me apart for those few scenes thats manage to have me jumping out of my seat for tht few seconds. was actuali looking forward to more action and such, but was not. ohwells, at least th feel came back! think i'll start to read th book over again from book 1! WHOO! (:

anyways, this few nights have been kinda weird for me. it's lyk practically almost every night i have been having funny/retarded dreams and some of them are actually kinda scary. some of which i woke up almost at th brink of crying in th middle of th night. ohmans, sometyms i wonder how this subconcious mind of mine is working! HAHA. yesterday's dream was kinda retard-ed, seriously. i dreamt tht i lost all of my cards except my atm card. and i was panicking in my dream! damn wth! HAHA.

haven't been having random thoughts lately. not even on long bus rides home; or tyms whereby i'm alone and all. and i've just realised tht i've reached a point in life whereby i accepted thngs th way it is, and feel tht no matter what happens, th matter of fact would be wheather i feel lyk doing it anot. willing heart; and tht really speaks it. looking things at perspective has become a thing for me i guess; and it really open up my eyes to lots of things that i didn't take into notice before. for now; i lyk things th way it is right now.
I'M HAPPY; I SMILE & I LAUGH LIKE ALWAYS (:

♥ COUNTING-DOWN!

8 MORE DAYS! CAN'T WAIT! ♥

D is coming to find me in school nxt tues!! can't wait man; totally. haven't seen him in ages. or shld say haven't catch up wit him in ages! finally finally finally!! it's lyk it always happens on th day tht we plann-ed to meet, and sth will just cropp-ed up and we just end up not meeting

D: that time wanna go ur sch, but got bs sia. sway!
ME: LOL! then when can we officially meetttt?? :(

D: hmmm.. i oso not sure. this week cant. tml can't.
ME: this week i oso can't. busy entire week ehs.
D: samesame. mayb nxt week bah.
D: i need to find a slot to slot you in! HAHA.
ME: WTH ! still need to find a slot. feel damn sad now la.

HAHA. tues/thurs. choose a day.
D: HAHA. think tues can. i die die also slot you inside la!

ME: YES!!! (:

D: 9 more days. i reach tht tym sms you.
ME: YES!! you say one uh,

don't last minute come tell me can't make it again. shall go count down! (:

D: HAHA. ya, won't one. don't worry!

soyeah, it totally made my day plus gave my day a good end !! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

anyways, did nth much today; cos gave church amiss, due to th fact tht i woke up at 3pm today. and yes, i was spamm-ed by phonecalls again! even called my home, but apparently tht didn't wake me up. think i was just too tired i suppose. being a filial daughter as i am, i accompanied my parents to go get groceries to stock up my fridge as it's getting empty! and i got th quaker cereal today too!! (: other than tht i kept JW company as he is working at lil india today thru txt and stuff; txt-ed a couple of ppl today too. lucky i've got unlimited sms! (:


okay, i'm good to go now. TIME CHECK: 2.17am i'm meeting J at 1030 later before school starts at 12. okay, and i can't decide whr to go.

♥ ROAMING!

as mention-ed earlier, went to meet J at town randomly today. and tht broke my plann-ed homey day cos apparently i was kinda bored staying at home since by th tym i woke up the entire house was empty. soyeah, initial plan was to go check out th new orchard ion, but sad to say; realised tht official opening is on th 21july'09. ohwells, but th shopping still went on though. YAY! (:

HEEREN > TAKA > FAREAST > WISMA > GAP > CINELEISURE

yupp, thats th route we went today.

• NUM-ed at heeren to help E ask abt th slippers stud thngy.
• Armani-exchange & Mango -ed at taka.
• Didn't manage to get th shirt th J's mum was looking for at Mango.
• T-shirts at AX is nice, but couldn't bare to spend so much just on a top.
• Food-ed ; jap pan pancake! (:
• Walk-ed aimlessly arnd far-east and decided to dinner since both J and i wasn't in th shopping mood.
• Graffiti Cafe-ed ; wanton mee plus peach red tea! (:
• Walk-ed arnd and was tempted to put bright pink extentions but didn't.
• Shopp-ed around wisma and saw this f21 dress tht is very pretty! (:
• Roam-ed and both J&I got a top each from Max&More. YAY! (:
• GAP-ed a lil ; nothing attracts me except their jackets.
• Crapp-ed as we walk down to cineleisure! I LYK! :D
• Fred-perry-ed; saw this shoe tht i lyk but cost a bomb! $141.00! :(

soyeah, tht's basically what we did at town. J was great company! we CRAPPED;TALKED;LAUGHED;STONED! but we forgot to take photo!! :(

random-ness now; i think i need to start saving money alrdy. shld restrict myself to only using $30 every week and saving th rest of my weekly allowance. at th rate i'm spending money, i think i'm gg to go dry very soon! ohsnos, this is bad. i need to save save save save save! please remind me! th tym i should spend money on, is only on things tht i really need and not want!!!!

♥ PHOTOGRAPHY!

picturesssssssssss ♥

i feel lyk taking up photography; seriously. have been having thoughts of going for lessons on photography since a few years back, but just keep procrastinating and all. but procrastination is not th only factor tht is holding me back from taking up classes.

i can't get hold of th SLR camera considering th fact tht it's really expensive. and my parents do not want to sponsor me, cos they think it's really a waste of money for spending so much just on a camera. and i can't afford to get it on my own. it's lyk even if i save and really really intend to get it after i save-d enough, parents will just kill me alive if i were to empty my back account just for a camera.

ohwells, mayb one day my parents will xiang tong! HAHAHAHAH (:

okay, end for now. off to meet J at town. update later! :DDDDDDDDDDD

♥ POPEYES!

out of region; out of th picture! ♥

so basically, day didn't start of well for me today. cos yours'truely woke up late and ended up 20mins late for ckt lec this morning. it's kinda retarded, cos i woke up at 815 this morning telling my maid to wake me up in 15mins tym which is 830. so happily went back to slp, and jumped out of bed suddenly to realise it's alrdy 945. and guess what, this is th best part! when i jumped out of bed, i found my maid sleeping just nxt to me! OHSNOS! i literally panick-ed. got changed and thank God dad offered to send me to school.

was kinda stone-y th entire day. wasn't in th mood of doing anythng. seriously. and during ckt lab, ms Christina told me tht i've change-d. for th better. lyk she commented tht i was more serious in class now as compared to th first few weeks of school. HAHA! think i really did change. at least now i'm trying my best to pay attention during labs, cos it's lyk one of th few components tht can score!! HAHA! and right now, i really have th "i just want to get things done ASAP! and correctly" aren't you all just proud of me? (:

school ended at 5 today. didn't meet up wit alfred in th end, so was "wandering" aimlessly wit J after school. actuali wanted to go north point at first; then was prata at jalan kayu; then tauhway at geylang; then all in all decided for popeyes at airport. HAHA. super random. cos both of us didn't feel lyk going home so early and stuff. soyeah, popeyes was super filling thought at first was craving for sushi at sakae. but didn't go. HAH!

popeyes was such a full session. plus we laugh-ed so much that i think we were lyk th noisest ppl tht when we are lyk onli 2 person thr. YES! HAHA. we laughed and laughed and laughed. ohya, don't ever try popeyes's dessert cos it kinda suck! seriously. shan't post in detailed what happen-ed and stuff. roam-ed arnd and chit-chatted ALOT at T3's viewing mall. but apparently all you can see is your own reflection!!! :(

random-ness. i was thinking, if i were to ask to design my own house; my perfect house, there wld be lyk a balcony kinda thng just right outside my hse! and flooring outside must be wood. then it'll be a small bench thngy where i put my laptop and stuff! :D cos apparently, i just realise tht i lyk sitting on th floor while using my dear lappy! HAHA. (:

♥ SALVO!




picture of th day taken @ AMK after steamboat session ♥

• school was from 9am to 1pm today.
• ended early, had lunch at opp sch and slacked still 2plus.
• since WJ havnen't ended, decided to crash maths support grp wit J and shanice.
• upon reaching WJ txt-ed to say he's done.
• left LT to do wrtoral report not long after.
• met up at 4 and slacked; he played warcraft, i watch-ed YES MAN! on lappy.
• 540pm, WJ accompanied me go meet K which apparently was alrdy at studio.
• traing starts at 6pm.
• revised thought entire B 大组.
• went back to basics on th 90degrees thngy; tiring.
• 9plus, training ended; chatted much.
• home-d without dinner.

okay, that's basically what i did th entire day! nth much, but it was a fruitful day. and there's just sth i want to say out random-ly. if i were to say i totally don't care, and aren't missing you a single bit. i'm just lie-ing. and please, mark my words. i do what i say, and i knw actions speaks louder than words. wait and see. th day will come whereby, i can't contain th sorrows anymore. and then i'll just break-down.

♥ ICE-CREAM CHEFS!

overslept today and ended up being late for 10am lesson, but was within th 15mins grace period! (:

lesson wasn' t tht bad today, just a lil draggy i guess. was kinda lost in maths tutorial, cos didn't really understand what andrew was explaining abt phrasal diagrams and all. wasn't really feeling up to form and tht random guy at th door did not make thngs better. he knew my leg was thr but still forcefully open th door, and sadly it hit lyk damn hard against my heel. even now, thr's a red mark over thr. was damn frustrated lo. and th best part was, he didn't even apologise! WTH!

ICC wit J & mel today after school. then to parkway to walk arnd. so yeah, as usual chit-chatted alot abt stuff and all. mood was kinda affected after bringing up a certain topic. ohwell, i guess it's just me to have thoughts that are too random that i doubt anyone can keep up with th tempo. but things at it is, there's nothing much i can do about it.

♥ SWEETS!

SUNDAY; church in th morning. met up wit K at bugis straight after, then accompanied her to get her instrument stuff. and i'm lyk super tempted to take up lessons on how to play th yangqin!! HAHA! chit-chatted here and there, then bus-ed to AMK from there. met up wit some of th seniors plus vivian and off we go for steamboat arnd 6plus. got take photo, but have to get th photos from vivan first! (: though not alot of people went; chia wei, ruo han, wanyi, charmaine, liyen, vivian, kaleryn & ME! actually still got clement and eric. but apparently, clement had to celebrate his mum's bday & eric got held up by some stuff. so can't join us! sad-ed. totally. however, overall was really fun! shall organize another random outing again!!
YAY! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

MONDAY; met up wit J earlier to revise maths since it was quiz2 that day and school starts at 12pm for me. school-ed for 4hours as usual. what spoilt my day was maths quiz. cos stupid me mislook 16 as 6! and even calculated th entire wrongly. ohmans, i don't think i expect anything higher than 15 this tym round. sigh. ohwells, off to meet weijin, edmund, terrence, clement after tht, and decided to go opp sch for lunch since we had 2hours before salvo starts; clement went studio first though. shan't elaborate further abt what happen-ed opp sch! HAHA! (: CCA was AWESOME!. learnt finish B DA ZUalrdy! in terms of rhythm part. YAY! (: didn't join them for dinner and i knock-ed out almost immediately upon reaching home.

that's about all for updates; can't really think straight. head's hurt-ing lyk crap! :(

♥ STUCK!

I WANT E72!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥

homey day for me today; cos apparently yours'truely woke up at 2pm today! and as usual found th hse empty, except big stitch sitting at th edge of my bed; and i was hugging big bear! HAHAA (: bro bought lunch back for me though, and tht was when i really wake up! and it is a norm for me to wake up super duper late on saturday cos it's my sleeping day. so pardon me if messages/calls are not answered or replied if you call me in th morning, no matter what tym it is.

i'm craving for pepperoni pizza now!!!! actuali wanted to make my way down to siglap to meet J for ICC. but apparently, didn't cos was indecisive and stuff. considering it was alrdy 8pm when this thought came into my head, and J was oso craving for ICC. HAHA (:

okays, thr's salvo random outing tmr!! and we're gg for steamboat. meeting up wit K first though. not alot of them are coming, but sure will be very fun! YAY. can't wait! :DDDDDDDDDDD

♥ STATUS-QUO!

currently stuck to th song like i always do by Drew Ryan Scott. having tht song playing on repeat, and i just won't get bored over it! :DDDDDDDDD

EPT lab test was a failure today. and thr goes my percentage alrdy! damn it. next week will be EPT project week whereby it'll take an overall percentage of 50%! ohman, how to complete if i'm lyk kinda clueless over what is actuali happening. final verdict? i need to learn how to be independant during EPT. can't always ask for help every now and then. lyk checking if my schematic diagram is correct and all. i shld visit FAL more often to familiarize myself wit th equipment soon enought, before it's too late! :(

I GAVE IN TO TEMPTATION TODAY! i bought that navy green puma backpack today! (: but got it at only 29bucks, cos J's friend was working, so i got th bag at staff price!!! YAY! (: super happy, and went arnd telling ppl that i gave in to temptation to get th bag, but i was in fact very very very happy! (: but guess what, clement ong can't wait to see my bag on monday cos he says he want to steal it and re-sell it back to be at 38bucks. and we both have been going on and on abt who's bag is, and who's bag pwn who's bag! HAHA. damn retard!

CG was great today though not alot of ppl turn up at Jared's. fellowship was fun with fried rice cook-ed by darwin, kenneth and gillian; sunny-side-up by jared himself; super crunchy baked french fries; sausages plus pokka jasmine green tea!!! HAHA.

self indulge-ed wit lots of tomato sauce today!! i lyk! (:
plus i gave kenneth face by tasting his fried rice!!!!

and th french fries was so terrible that we all had to play games to sabo ppl to finish it up! ended up wit lots of laughter cos we playing animal game! HAHAHAAH (: and there's a retarded photo of D eating th pot of fried rice using th big rice scooper! oh and i just realise thr's still videos/ pictures that i haven't uploaded on facebook yet! once uploaded, please go see! it's super funny!! :DDDDDDDDDDD

random-ness; tomorrow shall be a homey day as usual. if not, i'll just gather my stuff to granny's hse in th morning to "camp" thr. things to bring include lappy, emaths, ckt. so tht i can revise work! HAHA.was just wondering if i shld drop by sub to say hi or sth in th morning! go visit th old crew! miss them lots man, cos they are super fun ppl to work with! YAY! (:

and somehow or another, i think i'm not gg to do anythng alrdy. i'm just going to let thngs stay th way it is right now. it appears tht you are hoping i do so, so i'm just giving in to you right now. but i really hope these awkward-ness is spared! ohwells.

♥ HECTIC!

colourful balloons never fails to make me smile; and how i wish these happy balloons will take away what i'm feeling right now as it all floats up into th sky.

feeling kinda gloomy right now. lives been kinda hetic, and i'm losing my sleep every now and then. it's lyk an average of 4hours a day of slp is wearing me down quite badly. it's lyk as if falling aslp in front of my dear lappy has become a daily routine. eyebags are getting kinda bad recently. 24hours sleep, where are you?

FIRSTLY;things are starting to get a lil awkward here and there alrdy. and i don't really lyk it. idk what's wrong and stuff, but it seems as if thr's just sth wrong. it might just be me feeling this way, cos all this while it was me tht actuali cared so much; or shld say i was just being a meddlesome person. th situation now is not lyk before whereby th conversation wld just be on-going. thr i was initiate-ing but all i got was a deaf ear i suppose. was this just lyk any others? whereby at th beginning; everythng was smooth sailing but now i might just realise it was all meant to be an illusion. i guess, you were just different. at least to me you are. i am trying to come up wit excuses just to make myself feel better.

SECONDLY;i'm lovesick over tht navy green puma bagpack i saw on tuesday. it was as if it's love at first sight. ohman! told clement how much i wanted th bag so much, but i really needed to save money and all. and mr clement told me to give in to temptation and i shldn't resist if i'm really tempted to get it. and he even came up wit helping me pay $2 cos i treated him to oreo choc on wednesday. plus he say he's too nice, so he'll only give me moral support! HAHA. actualli, coming to think abt it. it's really an awesome deal. lyk th bag is going at $39 when th actual prize was say $60-$70? have been brooding about wheather i shld i get it anot. ohwells, this shall come later. but apparently, i'm kinda afraid all is sold out when i finally have decided to get it.

THIRDLY;school work is starting to pile up alrdy. and this few tyms, distractions have been knocking in unknowing-ly. i can't seem to stay focus during emaths and ckt. emaths isn't tht bad cos it's maths afterall. ckt is such a killer. theorems after theorems. tutor didn't offer much help oso. guess it's all up to me to do my own revision alrdy. if not i can wave byebye to my expected GPA at th end of this semester. and i won't want to repeat this semester if i were to fail! OHS NOS! and tht cannot be happening. think i really need to ring up discipline before it all become to late.

i'm done wit ranting; and i feel lyk going down for a jog right now. seriously need to clear my head! should i or should i not?

♥ BLOCK-ED!

today was just such a tiring day, and i fell aslp during maths lec for th first tym. due to th fact tht i only slept for a short 4hours+ th day before. slept at 4am in th morning and waking up at say 8plus? i was so tired tht i thought first lesson of th day was a 9am lesson instead of a 10am class. plus i even told J tht i intend to skip tutorial. but still went in th end, since i was alrdy ready for school. HAHA (:

anyways, sleepy and restless day today until th tym whereby i 315-ed home from serangoon interchange. met up wit Alfred for a short while to chit-chat since haven't seen him for a very long tym, lyk seriously. th last tym i saw him was say i think after o's after posting. HAHA. still retarded as ever, was rubbish-ing wit him all th way from school busstop all th way until tamp interchange. but sad to say, i still don't have a heart for you. HAHA. shall date him out for dinner/lunch soon to do some catching-up. really miss those crapping tyms man!

soyeah, subway-ed wit amanda for dinner today. crapp-ed and chit-chatted alot here and thr over lots of random stuff. so sorry for eating kinda slow today! HAHAH. eating tomatoes too quickly can't enjoy la uh! HAHA. shopp-ed arnd and i saw this dark navy green-ish puma backpack tht totally caught my eye. and what's more it's going on a discount at only $39!! ohmy ohmy, so tempted to get it. but i needa save money!!! OHSNOS! :( feel so sad suddenly. was wondering if i shld ask for extra pocket money from parents ehs. shld i ?

ohwells, i'm having random thoughts again; not really a good thng if it happens all th tym though. was just wondering if it's just th tym factor tht's making me feel so mixed up recently. lyk looking at thngs at different perspective really do train yourself up for different situations. be it to look thngs at an angle whereby everythng just look so fine and do not allow yourself to sink deeper into sadness, and th other at a pessimist point of view. was just telling bestfriend tht i really miss talking to you. but it's kinda awkward to just start th conversation just out of th blue. and in return, i might not even recieve your response. i must be not in th correct state of mind to do such things man. plus it's not th wrong idea tht i want to portray. don't get it wrong.

♥ CRANKY!

CCA WAS AWESOME TODAY!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

in th midst of training today, th blister at my thumb area broke and apparently, th skin hanging thr was kinda annoying tht stupid me decide to just pluck it out, since it was a nuisance. and now once tht area touches area, th pain comes in. ohman, can someone just tell me how dumb am i? ohsnos :(

anyways, mondays being mondays. and mondays being a day whereby i look forward to every week cos of salvo, pass-ed by kinda quicly. sat thru 2 lectures and 2 tutorials today, and went off to th meet th usual grp of ppl;
clement, kaleryn, vivian, edmund.
lunch-ed at biz. crapp-ed alot, laugh-ed alot, lame-ed alot. it was a tym full of laughters. and stupid clement keep laughing at me cos i'll laugh/giggle and give tht super happy look every single tym i eat fries dipp-ed in tomato sauce. HAHHA. plus we all found out th fact tht when clement is depress-ed he'll laugh/cry at th same tym! ohman! HAHAHAH (:

off to studio4 afterwards. help-ed in setting up drums and all. and training thereafter!! finally get to see weijin today! so happy!!! :DDDDDDDDDD cos he didn't come for CCA last week! ohmans. HAHA. today learnt up to 90% of th entire score alrdy. and seriously, during training. somethng funny happen. it's lyk th juniors were all trying out on our own. and thr's this "bollywood" scene thr and then. and marshall was th tree!!! (: shan't elaborate further but it left vivian, kal, yeesin, edmund and myself laughing as if thr's no tmr!! HAHA. andand just by looking at E and K during training still makes me laugh (:

dinner/supper today was kinda pathetic cos only kal, yeesin, ryan and me join-ed th rest of th seniors. th rest either went home or just went dinner themself. sad-ed. but it was really a fun tym at macs with them. as usual, chat-ed;crap-ed;laugh-ed!!! (:
seriously made my day. can't wait for th random plan-ed outing this coming sunday!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDD

nothing for me to random about at this moment. cos all i have in mind is how am i going to complete my emaths tutorial within th shortest tym possible. if tht's not done, i can kiss my comfortable bed goodbye alrdy.
crap! aren't my dark rings deep enough!
i need my 24hrs slp very soon! :X

♥ ULTIMATE!

jared labels my hair as th ultimate, and tht i make me look super cute!!! HAHAH. damn retard-ed. everyone has been saying tht bangs is making me look lyk a small kid or worse-ly a doll! OMG :X

anyways, my travelling route for today is lyk damn imba!
serangoon > tampines > expo > bishan > city hall > hougang > serangoon
ask me why i travel-ed so much.

cos apparently miss yours'truely stays at serangoon, and actuali th plan of th day was have prata wit kenneth before heading to expo. but since i was lyk th one late, didn't had prata. service started late today, thus have to leave half way. on th way to bishan, miraculously, i was texting 3 different person at th same tym. kept me company throughout th train journey from expo all th way to bishan. was practically looking down at my hp plus typing/replying sms-es almost 100% of my tym! HAHAHA :D

headed to CO to find vivan, and got th dress i wanted at a stuff price since V was a stuff. happily got it and subway-ed for dinner! YES! TOMATOES MAKES ME HAPPY! it's just an inside joke. i was zihigh-ing and V kept giving th disbelieving look. well, i guess i just laugh-ed too much. laughter being th best medicine as always, it's just best to laugh as tym permits yourself to do so! (:

off to marina to find th rest;
jared,darwin,edo,shaun,dannon,jason, lionel,douglas,deb,flora,shelley,justine. i want th pictures, so i can post. but apparently i need wait for jared to send me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

randoms of th day; was just wondering if it's just me or not. catching-up is always a good option no matter what. cos if it occurs everyday, it's just kinda awkard and uneasy; as if sth is missing, when th hp don't vibrate just once, making me happy to see just those few letters on th first screen. ohwells, i guess it wasn't just meant for me. i shld just be contented wit what i have right now, thinking for th good and not being pessimisstic(sp?) over such small matters. i just have to keep this in mind; thr are still so many out thr tht are going thru life situation tht are far more worse than what i'm going thru right now. and thinking too much into th situation may result to th fact tht it'll not make matter better either way or another. it'll just make yourself feel so inferior comparing to someone you nvr thought wld be a topic of comparison. why not just choose a path whereby thr's no rocky road. but sad to say, tht's simply just impossible. period.

♥ REFRESH-ING!

i painted th tip of my finger-nails hot pink today - out of boredom.
sort of lyk it though! (:

went for my night-jogging today finally after a long break in between! felt super refresh-ed though half way through suddenly th area somewhr just behind th ear-loops started to hurt. then miss headache came knocking in too. terrible! :(

anyway, homey day today since by th tym i woke up it was alrdy 2plus3. so decided to just stay home and slack plus do some work which have been left undone! kinda failed for th work part, only manage to do a lil of emaths!! HAHAHA! soyeah, today was preeeettttyyyy relaxing for me. finally slowing done my pace of life. andand J's dad got her a e63 today! then monday gg to change to e71!!! ohman, i'm so jealous. i'm so gg to save and get e72!!!!!! i don't care alrdy. but apparently my dad made his stand very clear tht he's not gg to pay for me!! so, i just have to save!!! ohwells, i paid for my viewty myself too. (: what's more, e72's camera is a 5 megapix! i will be kinda crazy if i'm not tempted! HAHAHA (:

random; got a sudden thought through th day. i think i'm over th thng of being a first-stepper alrdy. okay for now, para from FML again!!! ;

Today, I spent hours arguing with my mother, who claimed I shouldn't make a three hour drive because I wouldn't be able to concentrate for that long. I argued that I was a perfectly capable driver, and left. In the last 2 minutes of the journey, I hit a van and messed up the front of my car. FML

♥ FRENZY!





that was when i haven't had my bangs. thinking of it, i miss my fringe! :(
can't wait for th fringe to grow longer, then i can push it to th side; lyk i used to. for now, it's lyk taking forever to grow. but i don't regret cutting bangs. really.

anyhows, 3hours of school today was a fun yet accomplishing day for me at least! EPT-ed as usual, but this tym round i was really paying attention in class. and i even drew out th schematic diagram myself! (: so th task today was to solder up ckt whereby when connected to Vcc and GND, th LED will light up + blink! on first attempt, LED lighted up but didn't blink. check-ed and check-ed. finally! YAY! :DDDDDDDDDDD

slacked arnd while waiting for shanice. crap-ed wit th girls plus jay loyd(sp?). damn funny plus retarded! can't rmb what we were talking abt then he brought abt th ckt lab test incident whr i almost cried tht one. cos apparently he was present when tht happened! ohman, so embarassing! HAHAH. ohwells, jay's th lab assisstant by th way! i think he's a holqa GL. can't rmb. shall ask him th nxt tym. and EPT lab plus theory test is nxt week. ohs nos, pray hard i don't screw it up! :X

andandand; i think my hp is diagnose wit E's hp "sickness". i need to send it for repair soon. can't stand it. it's lyk when unlocking th screen tht tym, it will have th zigzag line thngy appearing for say a few seconds then th screen will unlock. then plus, it's starting to hang alrdy. i hanged one tym this week. ohsnos. plus, i think my dear hp is having "internal injury" as well. have been facing this problem whereby either ppl can't recieve my txt or i will recieve a txt super super late as compared to th tym th other party send. take for instance, J txted be at 9plus and i only recieved th txt at 11. man! this is crazy. make me feel sad, i've only owned this hp for say 4mths, and it's th first hp ever tht is paid out of my own pocket. i'm using a LG VIEWTY btw.

random-ness again. have been reading FML for th pass few days. found some of those paragraphs really funny. and it shall be copied and pasted here for viewing pleasure!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

and i'm tempted to get th new E72 after it is launched into th market. got hooked on th keypad after bro got himself a e63!!!! man, i think i'm jealous. but come to think abt it, thr's actuali alot of stuff i wanna get;
CANON EOS REBEL, T1i ; NOKIA E72 ; CLOTHES FROM CO! ; SLIP ON SHOES ; BAGS !!!
i seriously need to start saving now!

Today, I went to the doctor. I told her I felt down all the time. She asked me a few questions and she told me I was depressed. She suggested to go home and find the sources of my depression. When I told my parents, they started laughing and said "Yeah, right." I think I found my source. FML

♥ TWISTED!

how come everyone is saying tht i'm dark - as in tanned. am i really tht dark? HAHA (:

day today was kinda okay for me i guess. lyk some sort zi-highing to keep myself awake. fell aslp in front of lappy ytd while chatting wit E. woke up arnd 3+am just to switch off laptop. ohman, this prove how tired i was. can't blame anyone but myself for being extremely stubborn lyk always. firstly, i was down wit a sneezing nose plus irritating cough plus spinning head but still went for training and dinner wit th rest. secondly, starved for th night as thr wasn't any choices for me to make at macs while th rest was having dinner. thirdly, all i had was a cup of ice milo while rushing thru research for wrtoral proj.

woke up in a daze. washed up and continued on proj research. and off to school for ckt lecture which was my first lesson of th day! (: tutorial after and bistrowalk for lunch! emaths lec then ckt lab test. lab test was fairly alright i guess. though sth happen-ed after test tht scare th shit out of me! lyk seriously. okay, this is what happen-ed ;

i totally forgot tht thr was 2 different papers for this lab test, and idiotly thought tht everyone was doing th same paper. so after completed everythng, left lab and was wit marcus and JW. then JW started talking abt KCL, dk what minus-ing 7, and in th ckt tht we were suppose to patch up, a resistor consisting of a violet colour code was not supposed to be used!!! thr and then, i was shocked. cos i clearly rmb-ed tht i do not have any answer tht have a number 7, plus i included a resistor tht had a violet colour code in my ckt patch up. yes, i freaked out almost immediately. cos ms christina, signed on my lab ws, and even said my answer looked alright and thr shldn't be a prob. was wondering, how wierd can tht get. how can ms C not tell me i was wrong but still signed. at tht moment, i seriously cried. YES i did :X after some moments, ms C came out. then i asked her. and she reminded me tht thr was 2 different paper and she rmb-ed tht i did okay!!!! (: OHMAN ! TELL ME I'M RETARD! I CRIED FOR NTH! &&& THEN I WAS HAPPY AGAIN! :DDDDDDDD

alright, so back to happy mood. trust me, i was lyk totally over th moon! jumping for joy literally and smiles were lyk all over my face. i was speechless-ly happy! (: Tamp1; subway-ed for dinner. and i got orange earpiece for my nano. since loyal 1-year old blacky died on me this morning on th way to sch. actuali half dead! HAHAHAH. CO-ed. and i was super tempted to get those denim shorts, both th lighter one and darker ones; and tht white/black circles spag dress! nice! but i look lyk a small kid in it! ohwells, i lyk ! (:

random-ness; it's tym i move on. no more negative thoughts, or when thngs do not happen, or when thngs do not happen to what i've expected before, it's better to think towards th good side! thngs do happen for a reason. and not having a response immediately might not be always a bad thng, and it does not mean tht thr isn't care and concern amongst it. sometyms alternate days, make everythng better. cos tht's when i knw, my heart is calling out! real loudly. and i lyk this feeling! (:

Today, I took a bike ride to enjoy the weather and stopped for a break on the sidewalk of an overpass, taking in the view of the beautiful hills. I was approached by a cop, who said to me: "Ma'am, I know your life is crap right now, but I'm sure it'll get better. Please don't jump." FML

♥ HEAD-SPINNING!

picture of th day took at stadium bridge located just outside indoor stadium last week after movie at KLP. onli posted it today, cos dear J just sent it to me say minutes ago! HAHAA (:

alright, i'm at school's lib right now. shld be doing proj, but here am i blogging. ohwellls. can't really concentrate and all ever since starting of th day. cos apparently mr head have been spinning th entire day even since ckt tutorial this morning. thought tht was bad enough, but came in mr cough and miss sneeze. and right now, i'm still sniffing/coughing here and there. ohs nos. this is terrible.

thinking on th bright side, there's CCA ltr. get to see all th salvo peeps. but th only thng is i'm afraid i won't be able to concentrate and stuff, cos of this stupid head-spinning thng tht i'm having now! all this must be caused by th terrible weather sg have, th minimal amt of slp i've been getting everyday, th lost of appetite tht i've been having, lack of water, pressure from various aspects. ohman, mayb i shld do what wanyi suggested. find a day whereby i'll do nth but slp at home th entire day! okay, i shall see abt it. & for now, proj tym! (:

random;

Today, I was at walmart when my stomach began to hurt. I quickly waddled to the restroom in pain. As soon as I got in the stall, a huge crap exploded out of me. The child in the stall next to me started crying. When her mom asked what was wrong she said that I'd "killed her nose". FML

♥ SUNSHINE

sunflower. how nice would it be if someone were to out of th blue get my a stalk of sunflower! (:

okay, that was kinda random. cos suddenly thought of this blurry scene whereby this stalk of sunflower just "boom" out. alright overall, today was a mixed of emotions actually. started th day with a so-so kinda mood, whereby a part of me was still thinking abt what happened th previous night. then came lec times whereby for th first tym i felt super stone. lyk mind was some sort racing thru lots of stuff and all. then came lunch whereby i didn't have much appetite, so gave it a miss.

met E for awhile to pass him th choc biscuit. & what E txt-ed me after tht sorta lighten-ed up my day i suppose (: then was dfund lab test. not too bad. manageable. then off to chomps wit J, melissa, shanice, wilson, marcus & bryan. and guess what, th girls lyk ordered so much more as compared to th guys la. ohmy. HAHA. we were all so full after eating for 1.5hours and thus decided to just go walk arnd. home-ed while th rest headed to kovan.

ohwells, mood was lyk roller-coaster today. but E and th grp plus kelvin made my day though! (: really thank God for such great bunch of friends who of whatever means stay even though they might not knw exactly what's going on- problems and stuff. it meant more to me, for you guys to just be thr. seriously, and i mean it.

PS; kelvin li is super cute!;

S: ty for your 永远一百巴仙!!!! :D

K: WELCOME!!! 100%%%%%%%%%%

S: hahaha. it'll come back soon!

K: I DEMAND IT NOW!

ohman, i can't help it but to say again, KELVIN; 愛死你了 !!!! ♥

sher seriously feels lyk shit right now; and F is how sher is feeling currently.
she feels lyk just running out of th place she's living in right now,
and letting them feel so worried,
abt what is going to happen to me out thr late at night alone.
they shld just be thankful tht i even bothered to go home though it's past midnight.
who would lyk to go back home so early but all i hear is just quarrels everywhr?
who would lyk to go back to a place whereby thr's endless shouting & comparison?
i just do not understand, why why why and more whys.
all i do when i'm at home, is shut myself inside my room doind my own stuff;
would they really just prefer me shutting myself in my room.
think all they want to see is me at home and stuff.
but i seriously don't see a point; it doesn't really makes a difference.
i tried to communicate, i really did put in th effort;
i tried to spend more tym wit you all ;
but all you care is abt bro ; at least tht's what you portray.
ohman. this feeling sucks big time. i need to cry.

♥ HOMEY!

homey day for me today. overslept, so didn't go church today. realise a whole lot of ppl call-ed be at lyk 8plus in th morning, most probably wake-up calls, but apparently i've got no idea how i slept throughout th entire pools of phonecalls. prolly i was really tht tired. lyk seriously.

anyways, i sort of lyk tht weather just now. lyk big heavy rain, while th sky is still bright with th sunlight! though it is usually this kinda rain tht make ppl fall sick and all. th scene was very nice! cos my study desk is located just directly in front of th window. i look-ed up and th beautiful scene just makes me capture a mind-shot of it! it was just beautiful. really.

ohman, today throughout th day i was lyk having random thoughts. bro told me tht i was a changed person. lyk th change in my attitude. idk if it's a good sign or a bad sign. i hope it's to th better. i think i need to re-connect wit my dad again. th tension is building up. it's lyk, a short conversation will set both of us up on heat/fire. no matter how simple th conversation might be. idk if he's picking on me or what. but i admit tht sometyms it's my fault to be giving such attitudes and stuff. but it's lyk i can't stand it any longer. ohman. how am i suppose to phrase this. i'm clueless. this is making my mood go down th drain. mayb it's really me changing. i am lyk in my own world once again. how i wish i can do what mayp did man. make an excuse to get out of town; buying my own air tickets, then settle in some overseas hostel. and letting everyone have th image tht i'm thr wit my friends, but in actual fact. i'm just thr alone, with no familiar faces. meeting new people, and being th me tht i've always wanted to portray but i can't. okay, all this is really getting into my head. i need a chillpill; i need a happypill. yes. now. thts period.

♥ SENTOSA; ECP!

couldn't wake up this morning, so met up wit jaslyn and cindy an hour later than planned. was seriously tired, so sorry girls.

soyeah, mrt-ed to harbourfront, got our tickets and off we go to sentosa. damn excited. but sad to say, after getting th beach mat, th sky don't look to be to our favour. it's lyk gg to rain. so we went 7-11 hoping tht th sky will clear soon and then our tanning session can officially start. but apparently, th dark clouds came in and started raining. slack-ed/camp-ed in 7-11 for say abt an hour, until th sun finally came out. but it's lyk th sun comes in and out! damn sadden-ing i tell you. soyeah, tanning onli lasted for abt an hour then off to bathe. didn't really manage to get darker. ohwells.

headed to marche for lunch. had rosti wit garlic sausage plus sour cream! and strawberry cheesecake for dessert. catching ups again. then i got a lil tired i guess. lyk kinda no mood to do anythng. practically stoned, and was talking wit a un-expressionless face. ohman. this is bad.

well, mood lighten-ed up soon after and headed to ECP. all 3 of us knock-ed out in th bus. lyk totally. i think i was th pig-iest among all of them. i totally blanked out, totally don't care if anyone was thr. just slp! HAHAH. settle-ed, rented bike. cindy and jaslyn tried to teach me how to cycle. since my past few attempts was kinda bad. but sad to say after awhile of trying. i gave up. HAHAHA. and at th end of th day, i have a bruise at my ankle thr. just above it. damn painful. seriously can feel th bump thr lo. ohman!

headed over to parkway to slack since all of us wasn't in th gg home mood. settle-ed at berrylite for youghurt. out to our disappointment, th youghurt tasted lyk ice-cream. ohman, frolick and youguru is still my ♥!!!!!

overall, day was fun yet stone at th same tym. photos will all be on FB. do check it up yo! &&& i think i'm pms-ing. ohshit. it feels lyk crap. and i feel so emo-ish. this is not good. not good. very not good. i need my happypill!!!!!!!

♥ REKINDLE-ED!

picture of th post is my date for th second half of th day. first half was wit jo over at kallang. needa wait for jo to send me th pix! &&& rest of photos wit th girls are on FB! (:

alright, so EPT-ed for abt 2hrs in sch, since i finish patching up th circuit then soldier then connect-ed to see if LED lights up all within tht 2hrs. so early realease for me again. slacked arnd in lab then over to lougne to use shaun's lappy for awhile. bus-ed to KLP to catch transformers!!! it's a super action pack show. damn nice. though it's kinda long, lyk 2.5hrs movie. and i kept dosing off at th starting due to th fact tht i was super tired, and tht th cinema seat was so comfortable! HAHAHA. it's a movie worth watching. seriously. &&& megan fox is HOT! HAHAH.

after movie headed to bridge near indoor stadium to slack and take photo! jo haven't sent it to me yet. ohs nos! HAHA. and we saw this 2 boys arnd th same age as us trying to climb over this metal gate thngy which was locked. damn retarded. one of them climbed over but th other one didn't dare to. and they were lyk hesistating if they shld climb over cos whr jo and i was standing, was a place whereby whatever they did was visable!! HAHA (:

11-ed to kalland mrt while jo bus-ed home. then changed bus to go serangoon to meet cindy and jaslyn. reach-ed arnd 7plus and we RK-ed for dinner. updated each other abt our lives and stuff since it was lyk ages since we last met and all. we even plan for a tanning trip to sentosa plus cycling at ECP tmr!!!! YAY! (: i lyk. chit chat-ed all, plus camwhore-ed inside/out icecube lyk thr's no tmr. and we got chased away countless tyms by this person. HAHA. okay. i can't wait for tmr! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

random side note; i finally bought th panda choc biscuit thngy for E. and it's not hello panda FYI (:

♥ RANDOM; ANYHOW.

picture of th day taken at mushroom at arnd 7pm +++. overall picture is alright, but i look retard! OHNO! :X

anyways, today was kinda a tiring day for me lyk seriously. started sch at 10, had break at 12plus all th way until 2 cos had early release by msling from wrtoral. then was back for emaths1 lecture then ckt lab. so yupp, tried bistro-walk for lunch today wit th girls during break tym. i only had brownie+icecream though, cos was kinda full from th fries i had in b/w ckt lec and wrtoral. soyeah, and wasn't in much of a appetite to. &&& was a lib for a short while watching part of" grudge2". damn scary; it made all of us scream a lil. yes, in th lib. HAHA. ckt lab was manageable today. didn't realy ask for assistance. really pray hard can do well in nxt wk's lab test man. OHSNOS! (:

lesson ended slightly earlier than 5. slack-ed arnd until abt 545 wit th girls as i was meeting Eric. soyeah, since i was meeting deb/trena at 7 after their squash, E was kind enough to accompany me for tht 1hour+++. chatted, rubbish-ed, laugh-ed, stone-ed, slack-ed at engine for quite long. and this tym round, dear mr E was th television. lyk a total comedy! HAHA. damn funny. had to actuali video him to stop him from cheering all those random cheers man! HAHA. soyeah, headed over to cheers to buy chocs then back to mushroom to slack a lil.

SOS-ed wit debbie, trena, esther, flora, justine, jz. all th TP peeps since th rest of th CG is at st john's island having camp. sad-ed. anyway, all in all. today is seriously a super tiring day. EPT starts at 9am tmr, and EPT hols assignment is due tmr! OHNO! but i need my slp badly. man, what if i overslp tmr?

♥ BANGS! (:

we both look cute in bangs mans. ohs nos! HAHAHAH :DDDDDDDD

alright lets see. actuali thr's nth much gg on wit my live. lyk seriously, cos sch has started and work is piling up. i seem to have given back whatever i've learnt before term break, all back to th lecturers man! OHS NOS ! thts not very good, cos this term right, i seriously needa pull up my socks and do well, at least up to my expectation. results weren't as expected for th previous term; got back this week ;

EMATHS : 66/100
DFUND1 : 35.5/50
CKT : 25/50

terrible terrible results. it's lyk though i passed both in quiz and term test for ckt, my grade is a D! yes a freaking D! i really need to try not to be distracted in lectures anymore! and i really need to lyk put in th detemination and discipline myself to go through whatever is taught on tht day when i get back home. if not, i think my CKT fail alrdy. knowing myself tht i'm not th physics kind of person! HAHA.

anyways, salvo have been great this wk! seriously one of those few highlights tht i look forward to every week. learnt 50% of B 大组 already! still abit unsure here and thr. but yeah, shld be alright after a few more practices!

okay, post shall end here today. no random-ness cos apparently i'm too tired to think abt anythng. even while typing this, my eyelids are actuali getting heavier and heavier. i need my beauty slp!!!!!!!! (: plus, my eye-bags are really bad. shall find a day whereby i can do nth but just slp th entire day. but thts lyk wasting 24hours! ohwells.

♥ CHOMPS; 23JUNE'09




mel sher Jo


kinda overdue-ed. so sorry abt it.

chomps wit th girls on tues after school. it was an abrupt decision though. it was lyk after lecture tht i suddenly made a random remark of gg chomps for dinner tht night. and it was thr and then we decided. but sadly, shanice was sick tht day, so couldn't join us :(

soyeah, mel and jo headed over to my hse to slack for awhile before making our way to chomps. th tym at chomps was kinda enjoyable. we - bitch-ed,gossip-ed, laugh-ed, camwhored. pictures will be up on FB soon. &&& i can't wait for this week's chomps on tues. this tym all of us wld be present! :DDDDDDD

♥ DRUMZOUT'09; SALVO ROCK! (:

dear salvo seniors took part in drumzout'09 @ vivo, 20June'09

we juniors are really proud of all of you, though you all didn't emerge champion overall! (:

met up wit kaleryn and edmund first since th rest were going to be late. otw to diaso to get our plain cards/plastic bands, walked pass-ed amphi theatre and saw th seniors! help-ed marc to buy water and was really trying our best to rmb every single senior tht is gg to perform since vivian, kaleryn, yeesin, yours'truely are getting sunflowers as a form of encouragement for them! HAHA. damn funny. but glad tht they like-d them (:

alright, decided to lunch at harbourfront centre's KFC and at th same tym write th names/twine it arnd th sunflower! crapp-ed and stuff wit both K and E while waiting for vivian to arrive wit th flowers. talk-ed abt our part-time times and stuff. and seriously, they are fun ppl to talk too. edmund is lyk xiao didi can! HAHA. wrote wrote wrote; twine twine twine; then rush-ed off th monorail area to meet up wit th rest/seniors.

gave out th sunflowers to th seniors!!! I LYK! :DDDDDDDDDDD then was off to watch th competition which ended arnd 9plus.

all in all, th day was a good one; a fun one!!! (: though it didn't really end off quite well, cos of some stuff tht happen-ed to me. OMG! hate it when this happens. ohwells, thr's CCA training tmr! CAN'T WAIT! ♥

P.S 永远一百巴仙!!! :DDDDDDDD thks kelvin! (:

♥ ECP; 17June'09

soyeah, thr was a class outing at ECP ; cycling (:

met jo earlier at bedok interchange to have a short chit-chat session and to update each other abt what we wanted to tell each other. okay, th sentence before this makes sense didn't it? hahah. alright. soyeah, got our mac-breakfast, and started to talk. and yes, she agrees wit me tht th situation i'm in lyk even now is kinda complicated and yet at th same tym very confusing. but yeah, i'm over it i guess. though talking abt it just makes my heart really "sour". and she and i both have th same assumption over this someone tht could just somehow really get on our nerves sometyms. just purely irritating. OHMAN! >.<

alright, went over to meet th rest at bedok interchange-197 ;
marcus, lucas, fy, shaun, joel, hwee shen.
bus-ed over to ECP and met up wit th few of them ;
jy, shanice, wilson, gerald.
slack abit at BK and then went off to rent bicycle. rented for only 5hours actuali, but ended up cycling for say close to 8hours, cos we cycled all th way from ECP to changi village and back to ECP ltr on. ofc this includes resting tym plus slacks. okay, lets see. cycle-ed tangent bike wit jy at first, cos sadly yours' truely still dk how to cycle after countless attempts of learning how to cycle. but i'll soon alright! HAHA.

half way thru, fy's bicycle's tyre puntured unfortunately, and so had to go all th way back to the bicycle rental shop for a change, which is FYI 45minutes cycle away. thus th rest of us just went to slack and stuff. took some pictures here and there; we even attempted to do a jump shot, which resulted in countless takes! & all th shots, i just realised ; had only me jumping, until th very last shot, everyone jumped!!! WHOO!! :DDDD

waited and waited and waited. chatted here and there wit th rest. saw some "exciting" scenes thr too. was kinda funny how lucas came up wit th season one and season two thngy man. HAHA. it was as if we were watching some serial drama show can! (: alright, so after awhile, me shanice and a few decided to go over th breakwaters thr to just relax/chit-chat. and since lyk shanice and i had so much to tell each other abt, it was such a good tyming! (: PHOTOS TAKEN! :DDDDDDDDD

SHER; JO! (:

MEL, SHER, JO, SHANICE! (:

slack-ed for abt close to 2hours? then off we go again! YAY! :DDDDDDDDDDDD cycle-d cycle-d cycle-d cycle-d and we reach this bridge whereby thr's this stray dog out of nowhere tht freaked, mel jo and shanice out! HAHA. i mean they were really scared and all. OMG! then shaun and wilson was lyk trying their best to "lure" th dog away. HAHA. damn funny; breeze was nice and all. singing was nice too! yes, we sang! HAHAH. to you knw keep ourself entertain-ed. cycl-ed all th way until abt 7plus.

finally; reach-ed our final destination! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

this pic is lyk onli half of th ppl present. cos th rest went back to find SW; cos apparently we couldn't contact him or another through any ways. th other hald include jy,gerald,joel, lucas.

pictures here are onli those tht i've edit-ed. th rest all on fb!(:
all in all. we had fun. just tht i fell, and all of us have butt-aches ♥

♥ HAPPY AGAIN - RESTORED!

alright, i'm feeling exactly what th picture of th day suggest! (: no more emo-shit from sher anymore!!! :DDDDDDDDDD so sorry readers, cos i've been lyk really at my bottom-less pit for th past few posts, and wasn't really myself and all. but now, after much serious thinking and ofc praying super hard ytd; ytd was one of those nights tht i prayed until i cried so badly. but th moment i woke up this morning, i felt restored! i really thank God for th new word! without it, i might not move on, and will still be digging deeper and deeper into whr i was before!!! ♥

so friends, do not need to worry abt me alrdy okay. sher is back stronger as before. i'll think on th brighter side of thngs now. isn't it better if everythng just stay at status qou? :DDDDDDDD SERIOUSLY LOVING IT! ♥

ohyes ohyes, i promised kelvin tht i'll mention his name.

KELVIN; 愛死你了 !!!! ♥

cos seriously speaking, your tht tag really made my day though you didn't knw wat happened and all.

but yeah, thks so much alright!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

plusplusplus, ofc not forgetting eric. i mean lyk, though same lyk kelvin, both of you all dk what's gg on and stuff, but really ty for being thr. it seriously meant alot (:

♥ EXPRESSION-LESS!

my 10-fingernails has three different colours! of which 2 look similar! ♥

this shall be a very random post okay? there will not be any updates abt what happened today or what i did today! - totally nth of tht sort alright. and pls pardon th emo-ness, cos as stated th few previous posts, tht i'm currently living in my 20%. for those who dk. i spend 80% of my tym laughing/being crazy. th other 20% wld be those emo-shit tht i knw i shldn't let myself feel. but emotions being emotions, i'll just let it run wild once again. and it'll be once and for all. i'm so sorry, this is just th other side of me.

alrights, this post shall officially start here, right now! ;

all this tht i'm feeling right now, i knw it's just one-sided. cos th other party will be fully unaware of it unless i make it known to him/her. i really felt my heart sank to th bottom th very moment i saw what i saw. idk what got into me, cos it nvr did occur to me tht thngs could be this complicated until tht very night, whereby i was just randomly browsing thru some thngs. it didn't occur to me tht i was actuali this deep into th hole, until it hit me so hard, tht i literally felt sad and was left speechless/expression-less. i just had one straight face. i seriously feel tht i'm kinda stupid to actuali think so deep into th matter. cos afterall, it might just be me tht is initiating and expecting so much more. thr am i advising ppl tht we shld all knw and manage our expectation well. but here am i expecting so much, yet knw-ing and knw-ing tht i was just reading too much into it. how dumb can a person go. i really wonder.

it has been kinda long ever since i felt this heaviness tht i'm feeling right now. my heart is really heavy. thinking back, isn't it just obvious and a general knowledge thng tht anyone, just anyone will be this nice and all. nvr did it cross my mind tht it happens to anyone - siblings. th greater th expectation, th greater/harder th impact of th fall will be. i find myself quite dumb coming out wit all those plans thngy to make sure tht i stop what i'm doing; i find myself quite stupid holding on to th hp, waiting lyk a fool, having in mind what to expect for ; i find myself quite an idiot waiting up till th wee hours, knowing tht what i wish-ed for wld nvr happen. but it's always at tht brink of moment, when i tell myself i shld stop being foolish, tht you came knocking.

mayb this tym round, i was really willing to give it a shot. but i knw, i'll nvr be good enough. cos thr's someone out thr, tht i feel tht you've alrdy have tht someone in mind. i think right now, all i can do is do what i always do. being tht crazy.happy.always laughing.always high to th max. kinda person tht you knw. i knw i can do it. and th feeling tht i'm feeling right now, will just fade away over tym. then my full 80% will come back!

my heart sank to th very bottom th moment i saw it.

man, why is this happening;

SHUT UP SHER, AE HAVE TO CARRY ON!!!!!!

even though, it might not even make a difference.

but at least, it'll make me feel better.

it'll somehow or another make me not think so much. ohwells.

P.S i'm still not over you by rihanna is stuck in my head!

♥ LITTLE-TALKS!

pic of th day taken wit best at bishan interchange while waiting for bus 58 (: ohyes, my back is starting to peel alrdy, super ugly. plus th skin on my back feels lyk scales now! OMG! damn disgusting!! EWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :((((((((((((((((((((

okay anyways, slept at 4am th previous night thus waking up at 2plus3 this afternoon. which is a good 10hours of slp! i think my bio-clock is screwed. how to adjust? sch is starting in a week! but thank God, lessons on monday starts at 12pm! (: alrights, lets see. fb-ed a lil then went to meet best at j8! shopp-ed arnd and stuff, settled at kopitiam cos she was craving for yong tau fu! HAHAHA. soyeah, seated and chatted for awhile.

walked arnd, shop here shop thr. and sorta got bored of j8 quite quickly. bumped into vivian!!! my baobei!!! (: best bought youghurt from yami but i didn't. cos i'm loyal to frolick & youguru!!! (: was telling eric tht frolick miss-ed call me for 3weeks, and i totally ignored, didn't even call them bacck! HAHA. i was meant to be a personification thngy, but yeah. anyways, was having a BIGBIGBIGBIG cravings for frolick since idk when mans. th girls wld knw abt it. but sad to say, thr's lyk onli 4outlets in sg - gardens, T1, millenia walk, holland V. soyeah, back to th updates for th day. 58-ed to somewhr in b/w amk and bishan, then 136-ed to gardens. slack arnd and stuff. && somehow cos of some stuff, i felt really bad deep inside. but th reply was still as cheer-y. ohwells (: today was fun, just tht i didn't get to meet jo, cos she can't find her hp! :(

random thoughts; my heart seriously did drop a bit when i put every thng into th picture. was telling best tht i'm seriously confuse over th situation now. lyk dk what to do. it's lyk i'm stuck in th middle of nowhere; neither here nor thr. and i told myself mayb i shld just give this a lil break, and see how thngs go. or mayb to give myself tym to see if wat i'm feeling now is true. but idk what's up wit me this afternoon, i went ahead to do sth tht i told myself i shldn't, cos i needed to give it some tym i guess. ohshit, how dumb could tht get. sighs. anyways, i think i shld get discipline. seriously. shan't give in to temptation tmr! shall keep th hp far away from me as possible tmr!!! if i can get by tmr just th way it is, i think it shld just be fine. then i'll carry on doing what i do, for th rest of th day until sch reopens. & then i'll leave th thinking for ltr. but i knw, if this was to last lyk a long-term thngy, i think i'll live in my 20%. which is sth tht i don't want. I WANT MY 80% BACK! (:

♥ TIME FLIES!

TIME CHECK! : 3.00AM ; 16th June 2009.

shall adjust th time/date! (:

since my bro flew off to australia this evening. and he's probably soundly aslp over at his friend's hse by now, i'll be a very nice sister to have th photo i took wit him before he went through customs as th TOP picture today! (: you knw how much trouble i went through just for this picture to be taken. ohmans, it seriously took ages la. HAHAHAH :DDDDDDD

had my straight 12hrs of slp before leaving th hse today. sent bro off to th airport and train-ed down to tampines wit yeesin. chatt-ed alot and was actuali talking abt th camps we attended and how much we really miss them! (: and th final story of th chat was tht both of us are lyk super happening during th hols (:

met up wit szejia,huiwen,guowei,yuanwei,vivian at koipond area before gg studio4. today traijning was really fun man! lyk finally learn until 25% of B 大组 minus th actions and stuff today! (: damn fun plus a challenge to me, at least! it's lyk a sense of achievement/satisfaction when play without mistakes from th beginning until whr we learn today man! i lyk i lyk! seriously can't wait to finish learning th entire score man! WHOOO!!! :DDDDDDDDDDD soyeah, training ended arnd 840 and this waited for th seniors until 9plus before they had their debrief and we needed to leave th studio. and th mean while, cam-whoring session started! (: &&& i took photo wit weijin, kaleryn, guowei, felicia! (: had difficulty taking photo wit weijin man. it's lyk he keep don't want to smile nicely for me! HAHA. but in th end took one quite nice one! (: needa go grab from fel th one tht i took wit her man! (:

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bus-ed to CPF to have mac for dinner. finally for one we manage to seat inside whrby thr's aircon man!!! HAHAH. but can't help it though. today got lesser ppl and all. ohya, on th bus journey from sch to CPF, i was sitting beside wanyi. and borrowed vivian's camera and started to zilian. and we zilian is not take those perfect smile smile normal normal kinds ehs, but instead, we did retarded faces! all look damn funny. in one, wanyi even feels tht she look shuai inside la! HAHAHAH :DDDD damn funny, but th session had to stop when bus 69 sadly reaches th interchange! :(

bought our meals and all. then started crapping/talking all. damn funny la, all th conversation. shan't go into details and all. but seriously, DINNER AFTER TRAINING EVERY WK, MAKES ME FEEL SO HAPPY! (:72-ed wit ryan! lyk finally, thr's someone tht takes bus wit me after dinner! cos it's lyk majority of them stays yishun tht area thus mostly 969 and i'll be th one and only soul left taking 72 home or sometyms having my dad fetching me. SO HAPPY!!! (: alright, chatted on th bus all and he wanted wit me until 25 came! THANKS SO MUCH! if not i think i wld have freaked out at tht empty busstop! HAHAH (:

alright, tht's practically my day! gg to meet up wit bird tmr for late lunch/early dinner after her Proj.meeting. & hopefully can meet jo up too. got loads to tell her mans! (:

and guess wat, this thought suddenly went through my mind. "what if things just happen in a way tht we do not expect it to happen? if it happens to me, wld my mind just be a blank spot; accept th truth, or just turn a deaf ear?" very random i knw. but right now, i sorta affected by some stuff, and idk how to express myself even to my own personal self. ohcrap, what am i saying. okay, random-ness. am i really tht affected by it tht, i'm actuali feeling sad over such matters? and a matter of fact is tht, i don't even knw if my assumptions are right, from what i saw. i'm not surprise wit what i'm experiencing right now. but i took me quite awhile to digest, cos i finally realise tht i'm actuali quite deep in th hole. and just wondering if i shld stop myself from growing deeper, cos now it's all up to me. but seriously speaking, i lyk thngs th way it is right now. just tht, thr's doubts/confusion here and thr. ohwells, think i'll just leave th thinking for tmr.

♥ FEAR!

picture of th day taken on th last day of SALVO CAMP! ♥

anyways, had steamboat after service ytd at HOUSE OF STEAMBOAT @ BUGIS had so much fun wit th ppl i was sitting wit mans! fiona, clara, peiling, leonard, eugene! have to grab photos from fiona cos pictures were taken using her camera! (: leonard was being very funny throughout th entire steamboat session mans. we kept making fun of him on whatever he ate all :DDDDDDDD then at th end of th session, we had too much food left tht we had to play zhong ji mi ma!!! HAHAHA :DDDDDDD ohya, in th midst of steamboat. jared/david came out wit a mini-bday celebration/sabo for th june babies in th subzone. th challenge was to see who can finish eating th most number of sweeten-ed mantou in 1min. HAHAHA. damn funny. but i lyk (:

wanted to go macpherson to look for jo after steamboat, since thr's direct bus from bugis to macpherson. but in th end didn't go. partially cos i'm kinda lazy and partially cos she dk wat tym her guitar lessons gg to end. yupp, so accompanied deb to eat at bugis junction, and ltr train-ed home tgt. had a really long chat wit her until i kept changing th route of gg home. suppose to take train all th way to amk, but ended up at kovan. HAHHA (:

on a random side note; dk how to survive properly this entire wk mans. bro is flying off to australia ltr today. which also means tht th "source" of communication b/w me and my parents are sort of gone. it's lyk to start with, actuali my parents and i don't really talk much, especially b/w me and my dad. idk if it's biasness or wat, but thr's always a barrier. ever since after o's, situation at home did not really change for th better. lyk first was th car issue b/w my dad and my bro, then was b/w my parent. gosh! thr's lyk hardly any communcation. th only thng we talk abt wld be lyk only th surface kinda thng. how i wish i can be lyk my bro man. fly off to australia for this one week, don't need to care so much. seriously irritating, i don't lyk it a single bit. but, i knw i can't run away from reality; somehow this got to end. but how ?

♥ CATCHING-UPs!

okay, picture of th day taken wit AVRIL SHECK! after our catching up session at subway! our all tym favourite!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

anyways, thr's nth much for me to do today since i woke up at lyk 3plus4 this afternoon. so decided to meet up wit sheck for dinner, since lyk thr isn't anyone at home as always on a typical saturday. so th few hours before meeting her was spent editing photos/ uploading photos on blog! did some updating here and thr, and some pictures really remind myself how burnt am i mans! HHAHAHAH (: okay, this few days, i shall just survive wearing tanktops/sleeveless!! cos it's lyk now right, i even have difficulty removing tops/shirts/bra! OMG!! even sheck say my back reminds her of cook-ed lobster! :( but anyhows, i still lyk th colour!!! :DDDDDDDDDD

catching up session was definitely a theraphy(sp?). it's lyk reminising th tym whereby we were in secondary sch, when we use to sit beside each other in chemistry practical lesson plus alot other more periods. it's seems as if thr is a nvr ending topic tht we can just go on and on abt. time seriously flies lyk nobody business. my bro ORD-ed ytd. and it just shows tht 2yrs just pass by just lyk tht. sheck and i both argreed, that we can't believe tht we're both at tertiary education now ! lyk she's in JC and i'm in POLY. ohwells, time really do fly pass very very quickly :(

ohwells, at least we still stay in contact with each other.

so what, if we are in different schs? HAHAHA :D

ohyes, on a random side note. i saw a panda chocolate biscuit thngy tht looks lyk eric hiah! damn funny plus random. but sadly, i didn't buy it. i just can't imagine myself biting off th head. it's lyk chewing eric's head away! HAHAH. &&& it's not hello panda by th way! HAHHA :DDDDDDDD

♥ HAPPY 18TH B'DAY WILSON!

today is wilson's 18th birthday surprise over at pasir ris chalet! :DDDDDDDD

met up wit th guys at pasir ris interchange before gg whitesands to get th bday cake from fourleaves. after tht some of them ate at KFC then 403-ed to chalet. alright, lets see. it was kinda boring at th beginning, cos th guys were all talking abt dota and stuff, some were even playing L4D! and i was busy playing wit th burger game on bryan's ipod (: felt really slpy in th midst, but can't fall aslp due to th bad sunburnt i had. yes, it's tht serious. i can't even lie down properly to slp! HAHAHAHA (: so decided to go arnd taking videos and stuff wit JY's camera! (:

soon after, shanice gave JY a miss call, and tht's when th entire birthday surprise plan thngy started! damn fun! :DDDDDDDDDDDD it started wit JY giving marcus a call, and marcus will pass th hp to wilson who by then alrdy was blindfolded. JY will then lyk use a different voice to speak to wilson, making wilson kinda puzzled by it. upon reaching, wilson was guided back to th chalet room whereby th sound effect from L4D will be played through th AM. then soon enough, wilson was de-blindfolded when everyone start to sing th bday song straight away with th candles all lit-ed! (:

added a twist to it, by telling wilson tht his present was hidden inside th cake, which was fake! and he had to use his tongue to lick it out. wilson really went to do it can! HAHAH. and when he was doing it, everyone push-ed his head downwards, smashing th entire cake into his face! HAHAHA. damn funny :DDDDD then th cake war begin!! hair, face, shirts, arms; practically everyone was attacked ! HAHAHAH :DDDDD and th guys even tau-poked him since he had no idea wat tau-pok was. okay, it's kinda difficult how to explain how fun it was. will grab th videos from JY and shanice soon and post it. then you all will uds! HAHAH :DDDDD

in conclusion, really hope wilson lyk his birthday surprise. cos seriously, he wasn't aware of this entire planning thng for him! HAAHAHHAH. okay. ♥

♥ SENTOSA-LOVE!

sentosa wit th girls today! (: shanice, melissa, jo, yours'truely! didn't manage to take grp photo today. but yupp, took individual photos wit all of them, but it's in shanice's camera!!! HAHAHAHA :DDDD

heart-to-heart session wit them in th midst of sun-tanning and yupp, really ♥ them to th max. anyways, guess what. they buried me while i was happily indulging in th sunlight. HAHA. damn funny. cos it's lyk while they are burying, i kept laughing and th sand kept cracking (: headed to vivo after washing up and having subway at some pavillion. shop-ed arnd in RI, ZARA, MANGO, F21, PULL & BEAR! was seriously very tempted to get tht pink happy face tank top from F21 just now can. but lyk since got cheer-you-up shirt at home, which is also in pink, decided not to. &&& saw this damn chio bright/hot/luminous wallet from RI. damn nice. jo and i was lyk super tempted can. but since i just got wallet from fourskin lyk say 2weeks ago, decided to give it a miss. and th wallet is th same kind. just tht different colour!
OMG! DAMN CHIO!

all in all, today was seriously a fun/enjoyable day for me.
but th sad truth is tht, i'm badly sunburnt! :(
and i onli realised it when at vivo. cos i was carrying backpack. and th strap hurt lyk crap. it's lyk now, even wearing a normal tee is a difficult task for me.
OHCRAP! I'M LYK A LOBSTER CAN!
&&& stupid eric commented tht "i can't imagine a lobster playing drum!" cos i've got training on monday. damn anyhow right! i knw! HAHAHA :DDDDDDD